NYMORNINGGLORY
Thank you so much for the goodie .... This too shall pass .... hopefully sooner rather than later! Take good care and I'll try to do the same! 2407 days ago
NYMORNINGGLORY
Thanks for the goodie! I did watch the fireworks from my kitchen window ... couldn't see all of them (they were low in the sky) but what I saw was just beautiful! Enjoy the glorious weather! 2436 days ago
THEPOET465
I came across your page today. I am also a survivor of abuse. I was raped buy a neighbor boy, molested by my father, his father, and another neighbor boy. I was also mentally abused by my mother, I lost count of the times that she said i was stupid.
One of my brothers was also molested and he committed suicide in 1964, a couple of months before my 11th birthday: I still remember my brother's scream and the bloody scene.
I can look back now and realize that everyone in my family was molested...we all lived in a dysfunctional household. Several of my family turned to drinking, drugs, or self harming behaviors because they were also abused. When my baby brother was only 21, he committed suicide, and I started drinking and then attempted suicide, with an overdose, a few years later.
I seldom talk about this abuse and tragedies in my youth: i try to keep them hidden because of the fear of reliving it all. I am now fully aware of the early signs of my dark depressions and all the triggers of it...so in 2010 and 2012, I voluntarily went to the E.R. and was sent to a psych ward. This was the best thing to happen to me.
The psych ward in 2010: it was discovered that I had sleep apnea which was causing my oxygen level to drop to 70% and my breathing would stop about 17 or more times an hour.
The one In 2012: it was discovered that my antidepressant medications needed adjustments because I was not on the right dose, and Ritalin was added as well.
So after all this, I managed to get my life together, found joy in living and I tell myself that the word "CAN'T" does not exist anymore in my mind.
So hang in there and I know you are strong and after reading your post, i know you will reach your ultimate goals. JJ 2502 days ago