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I can't wait for my face to thin out, and for me to look like myself again!

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Starting Weight: 326.4. A loooooonng way to go! This isn't even me at my heaviest...

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My beautiful boy and the love of my life. He is my reason for this journey.

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I have always been overweight, but have found myself at my heaviest weight yet. I have roughly 150 pounds to lose and it seems almost possible. Since I have been a child, it has seemed like I have eaten to squelch fears and loneliness. When that feeling starts creeping in, I seem to reach for the nearest sweet thing, or drive to the nearest fast food joint for some comfort food. So, I need to find a new way to deal with those feelings. It would seem obvious that I should replace those behaviors with exercise-going on walks, the gym, etc. In theory, that sounds great, and smart. But my problem is that food has been my best friend for so long, that I almost feel traitorous abandoning all that we shared together. Haha! Sounds funny even saying it, but I truly feel that way. I guess that I need to realize that it is like being in an abusive relationship- I start to think that I deserve to feel bad, and that I am powerless... But I am not. My powers and strengths have not yet even glimpsed their capabilities! I am a mother and wife, who both keeps a home and helps pay for it by working full time as a nurse. If I can do the things I do to help people at work, then I am capable of anything- including helping myself. And I am sick of watching my life pass me by while I sit in my house scared that I won''t be able to fit in an airplane seat.... So, here we go again. I would say that I have been here before,...but that isn''t true. I mean business this time. I am making a promise to get on here everyday. Track my food. Exercise 3-4 times a week, including at least one class per week. And not give up on myself this time. I deserve to feel better. So, here we go....this is gonna be fun :) I love making new friends and will respond to anyone who leaves me a message. Take care all who view my page... I stole this from another sparkpage, but I love it so much that I couldn''t help it: ~*~ "I saw an angel in the marble, and I chiseled until I set her free..."- Michelangelo~*~ My Rewards :) Starting weight: 352 lbs (eek!) 340: pedicure- 320: haircut- 310: pedicure- 299: electrolysis and contacts- 288: running shoes and massage- 275: awesome heels ;)- 265: flowers for myself- 250: clothes shopping!!!- 235: haircut- 225: ear piercing- 215: personal trainer (I cant wait for this one!)- 205: weekend away with my wonderful mom- 199: (ONEDERLAND!) spa day!!!- 190: vacation and shopping spree- 180: tattoo...? 175: 170: 167: 165: GOAL WEIGHT!!! Happy Dance, maybe???? :D

Member Since: 8/25/2008

Fitness Minutes: 2,387

My Goals:
I would like to lose 100 pounds in one year, but I would be happy with 80 or so. I would like to be able to run around with my son without getting winded. I would like to go on a hike with my family without everyone wondering I if I can make it. I want to be able to make myself look good and be proud of myself.

My Program:
I'm going to start tracking my intake daily. I've also started a journal here at home so that I can deal with any issues and you won't have to hear them- lol! I'm also going to start cardio three times a week. It seems like nothing to me right now, but it's as high as I can go at my current level.

Personal Information:
I live in Dewey, AZ. Small town, but I love it! I have a little genius eight year old named Caleb! He is the most incredible person I have ever met, and along with my husband Buck, the love of my life.

Other Information:
I am a telemetry nurse of five years. It's a terrifying and rewarding job.

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  • v no profile image ROZYTEE1
    Congrats on losing those pounds! Try calling a friend when you get that urge to eat when you have already had your appropriate calories for that last meal or for the day! Do something fun! Spray on a little perfume etc. we can do this!! 💜🎶
    1800 days ago
  • v HILLARYH9201
    Hello! I am newly back with sparkpeople too! We can kick butt! I know it. :)
    2039 days ago
  • v no profile image LUCKIGYRL
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    "Beautiful Woman Award! Once you've been given this award, you have to paste it on the wall of 8 women who deserve it. If you receive more than 3, you know you're really beautiful! If you break the chain, nothing will happen, but it's always good to know someone thinks you're beautiful inside and out"

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    3478 days ago
  • v no profile image LUCKIGYRL
    Hello again! Soooo today should be your 5th day right?? How are things going for you now?? Finding anything to be easier? tempations? cravings? etc... I am doing good today it was a really relaxed day today I didnt even do cardio and I felt wierd about that...I workout 6 days a week so on the 7th day its wierd to not do anything..but its good to take one day off :) I actually made homemade chicken and veggie soup! it was quite delicious! I weigh in tomorrow so I hope I see positive numbers on my scale..I have to say it is the wierdest thing to be excited about stepping on a scale. Hope you are having a great day or night depending on when you get this :) emoticon
    3571 days ago
  • v LINDA!
    Welcome to the Emotional Eaters team. Enjoy your week. Take some time for yourself.

    3574 days ago
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