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Weight has been an issue for me for over 14 years. When I had my first child, I went from 160 all the way up to 220. After the second, I went up to 265. After having my second child Morgan, I was really unhappy with myself and the way I looked. It bothered me enough that I joined the gym, with a personal trainer.

I was very successful. I lost a lot of weight, getting down to 202 pounds. That was summer of 2002. The end of 2002 I went through a really hard time in my life, the stress and chaos, left me with no time for me. I fell off, and after 2 more children, I was at a HUGE 288 pounds! I was so depressed.

Over the next few years, I stayed in. I didn't do anything that I loved anymore. I was raising my children and giving my all to them. I was so embarrased to go out of the house. In April of 2006, I knew things had to change. I would not even take the kids to the pool anymore. I could not be seen in a bathing suit. That would be humiliating!

I started out with Turbo Jam Videos. They helped out. I lost about ten pounds. After that I went to walking. Every night, late at night when Nobody could see me because it was dark. I got down to 255. I was feeling a little bit better, but was still self concious about how I looked.

On Dec. 18, 2007, I took my kids to a park near my house. It was nice, there was a track that went around the park, so I could walk laps and the kids could play. My oldest daughter, Keysha was walking laps with me that day. She thought it would be a good idea for us to run. HAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAA!! That was the FUNNIEST thing I had ever heard of!

My mother was a runner when I was a kid. She ran like outrageous amounts of miles. One month she ran ten miles a day, every day of the month, total of 300 in a month! I did NOT get it.

For some reason, I did it. I started jogging around that dirt track. I could not go far, maybe 30 or 40 yards. But I liked it. I started wogging. Walking and jogging. I would just jog until I needed to catch my breath, walk and start jogging again.

I caught the "running bug"! After a while, I was able to run a whole .35 mile lap! Then I was up to running 9 of those laps without walking. I thank God that I found running. Running is my passion. I GET IT NOW! I have been able to lose some weight, still have some to go, but I am getting closer. So far my furthest point was running a 4.5 mile route on Town Lake. That is with no walking. I started running up hills. All over, not caring how anybody seen me.

The fat girl in my is leaving. Yeah I have some extra baggage still. But I am strong. I am healthy. I feel better than I have ever felt in my life. I go to the swimming pools ALL the time. I don't have to wear a t-shirt over my bathing suit to be comfortable in my own skin. I LOVE IT! I have even gone to the water park for the past 2 summers, and felt like a kid again! I needed to be able to do what I love.

I am now living! I am not just a spectator watching life pass by.

I have over 50 pounds to go. I know I will acheive it. I recently came across a gym, that I could join for $10 a month. I faithfully go at least four times a week, sometimes 5. I do ST at least 3 days a week. I am really seeing a huge difference. Yes, I have been doing this for 4 years. Yes I have over 50 pounds to go to get to my 120 pound loss goal. This is not a diet. This is a lifestyle change. It takes time. I am doing this the right way.

I LOVE to exercise. I LOVE the way my body feels, when I eat healthy. I LOVE the fact that I know what is good for me know. At 18, I thought it was cool to have McDonalds all three long as I had 3 meals. I did not know I was downing over 4000 calories a day.

Even the worst of my binge days now, are NEVER as bad as what was going on before I knew. Knowing is HALF the battle.

This has been a long journey, but it is well worth it. My goal that I really want to do, is run a 10k with family April 2011....and sometime after that I would LOVE To run a half marathon, or even a whole one day. I BELIEVE in me! I BELIEVE I can DO IT!

Life is better.

Member Since: 4/2/2008

Fitness Minutes: 36,661

My Goals:
I want to get to a healthy weight. My goal is 168, and to LEAVE the OBESE catagory FOR GOOD!!

My Program:
Recently joined the gym. I go at least 4-5 times a week, for cardio, and do 3-4 ST sessions a week. I LOVE morning workouts.

Personal Information:
4/26/2008 Texas Round
up ....43:40

6/28/2008 Keep Austin Weird 5K...47:51

7/13/2008 BatRun 5K...40:24

11/9/2008 Run for the water 5k....37:47

4/25/2009 Texas Round Up 42:57 ( not bad for being off from running all winter.)

9/12/2009 Keep Austin Weird 5k 40:04

11/25/2010 Turkey Trot 5 MILE RACE!! 1:00:49

Other Information:
Just Keep Swimming!!!!!

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  • v NICKB1978
    Yea I would love to do 9 miles tomorrow so we will see how my run starts off because if its smooth then I'll be running 9 with ya!! good luck!!
    3431 days ago
  • v NICKB1978
    That is awesome lady!! Its my first time running 7.71 miles also!!! Look at us killing these miles!! Were both rocking it!!! Keep it up girl were gonna do this together!!! We can do it!!!!
    3444 days ago
  • v NICKB1978
    hey that is AWESOM!! 5.5 miles is no joke!! u should so do that half in jan, I plan to do one some well it sounds like you have a awesome training plan so now you just gotta do it and I know you can!!! this past saturday I ran a park by my house and when I started running i got in to my grove and was having a really good run so I said to my self lets see how many miles I can get in a hour..well usually on a treadmil i get in around 5 miles well I ended up running over a a 10k i did 6.89 miles in a hour and 6 mins..i was so amazed that i did that, I had no idea I had that in me. So I'm so looking forward to this saturday, it's supposed to be nice again so I'm so gonna kick it up a notch to see how many miles I can get in a hour and 15 mins. n e who sorry to blabber off like that but i luv talking about Keep up the kick butt job lady UR DOING GREAT!!!!! emoticon
    3450 days ago
  • v NICKB1978
    Hi lady!! long time no talk. How have you been? How have your workouts been going?
    3503 days ago
  • v NEWMEME3
    WOWWWW!! YOUR PAGE HAS REALLY MOTIVATED ME!! GREAT JOB! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    3629 days ago
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