The First Time
Monday, November 03, 2008
I'm just sitting here at my desk about to cry. I mean, I can REALLY feel it this time. I just know that it's going to be different now. I have never felt this way before. I can actually VISUALIZE the scale saying 130 and it's not like some far-off dream or illusion.
Moments before this epiphany, I was thinking about how I'd maintain my weight between 125 and 130 when it just hit me - this is for real; I'm thinking of it as if it's already happened. This is GOING TO HAPPEN. It's no longer a daydream - it's reality in the making. For anyone who has ever felt this way, wouldn't you say that it's an unbelieveable feeling? I pray that it lasts, and lasts, and lasts...