Warts and all!
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Communicate openly. Holding in your thoughts and feelings about stressful situations like your work, relationships or parenting won't help you deal with stress or find solutions. Open up to a good friend.
This is probably one of the hardest things I need to learn - telling someone when I'm having trouble. I've spent nearly a lifetime only letting people see the happy me - taught to me by a mom who was like Pollyanna in nature and a step-father who punished first and asked questions later. I never let anyone know when I was disappointed, troubled, unhappy or had made a mistake. I learned to be very small in the world and to let those that knew me think I was perfectly happy. (I believed they would leave me if they knew I had problems or needed help)
So, today I need to learn to let people see all of me and know that its okay. Its okay to have prooblems, to have a bad day, to ask for help. I've always known I'm not perfect, and I'm pretty damned sure my friends know it too! LOL
What I'm trying to say is that this is not a smooth journey, and I know I will face dips and bumps along the way. When I hit one of those ruts, I will do my best to share it with you instead of just going away as I have in the past. I know this is the right thing to do so that I can 'flesh out' my Self as I 'flesh down' my body! I want to be a whole person - warts and all! And when the day comes that I am challenged to let you all know I'm having trouble, I'll be ever so glad of your friendship!
Cheers and Blessings, my darlins'!