Sunday, April 25, 2010
Yesterday turned out pretty good! After I got rid of the headache, I made it down to the BBQ had a hot dog, skipped the chips and opted for water instead of the free soda! GO ME! After the BBQ I headed out garage saleing with my two best friends. Did NOT buy anything, which was good since I can't afford to spend any money on anything unnecessary. But it was good just to see them even if it was only for 2 hours. I was gonna take it easy yesterday and not workout but I ended up on my Wii anyways exploring parts of Wii Fit Plus I hadn't tried yet. It was actually pretty fun, I really liked the Rhythm Kung Fu and the Rhythm Parade. I might start adding both to my usual routine! I'm trying to actually take the day off today. But honestly I just want to get on my Wii and have some more fun. It feels so rare to have days like this that I just want to enjoy them to the fullest.
Today I'm feeling okay, not great but not terrible either. Got more paperwork from the Mayo Clinic for my appointment so that's on the TO DO list today, got to remember to put it in the suitcase I'm taking AS SOON as I finish it. It's page after page of info to fill out. I don't even have half the answers (I was adopted so I don't have medical records of birth parents) but I'm gonna fill it out as best as I can. I'm now not seeing just the head of the G.I. dept but the head of the Hematology dept as well. Which I'm not going to lie, that's a little scary to me. I'm starting to get really nervous about the Mayo Clinic. I don't know how long I'm going to be there, I have no idea if I'm going to finally get answers. And if I do get answers, I'm afraid for what they might be. So far I've been tested for most cancers and diseases and been told I'm clear BUT my blood tests keep showing certain results then on the next test it's gone then it's back then it's gone. It's got my doctors confused, and me scared.
I need to stop talking about this or I'm going to start crying in the middle of Safeway (where I go sometimes to use the internet) I need to remember that answers I don't like are better than no answers at all.