Monday blues? NOPE!
Monday, April 26, 2010
Today is a good day! Holy cow I'm starting to be on a roll. Medications are finally helping, the pain is lessening back to its normal level. Last couple days have been pretty good nutrition wise, still not making my calories but making healthier choices more consistently. Still can't seem to follow through on the day off though. I feel bad if I don't get some kind of exercise in, that's certainly an area I need improvement in. Pacing myself is an issue as I've mentioned in previous blogs, and I'm at a standstill there. A little better than when I started but still haven't found the correct balance for myself. I'm always worried about over doing it, but at the same time worried about not doing enough. I KNOW for a fact I'm not doing the best I can do, but I need to remind myself there IS a reason for that. (my health) But it KILLS me that I'm not at my best.
I have this wonderful picture in my head of who I want to be, and have great ideas and plans on how to get there. I'm already making progress by making the lifestyle changes I'm learning here. I want to be an active and healthy person. I want to be one of those people that walks everywhere (within reason), goes on hikes in the mountains, raft the rivers, participate in sports again (adult leagues). I want to feel good on a regular basis, I want to finish college (had to stop 3 times already, now I have to start over completely), be able to maintain a job (health issues have prevented this in the past). I want to be the social butterfly that I am.
I know it's not all going to happen tomorrow, it's a process, but patience is not a virtue I have much of. I'm hoping my stay at the Mayo Clinic will help me on my way towards all these goals.
Needed to get all that out. Thanks for listening blog.