What I learned at camp
Friday, May 21, 2010
I'm back! Did you miss me?
This week I went off to a two-night environmental ethics and leadership workshop. It was a honor to be nominated and I had a marvelous time.
This, though, was the first time in my spark-venture that I had to eat without measuring my portions. It was an incredible test of self-trust. I was kind of nervous since portion distortion is a big issue with me. I love food and if the food is good I want way too much of it. I was very nervous that I would just loose all my new habits and wreck a whole lot of progress that I have made.
Dinner the first night was not provided so I ended up going out with 10 other folks to a local pub. Suddenly I found myself scouring a menu for something that was healthy but wouldn't make me feel like a martyr (one bad habit I have is being "good" in public then eating all sorts of junk later because I felt deprived and sorry for myself). I have never read a menu so closely... at first I didn't see anything that would work. It all seemed to be half-pound burgers and fries. It took reading and re-reading the menu several times before I found the baked talapia, rice and summer squash! Then basket after basket of appetizers showed up... it all looked really, really greasy. If it hadn't looked so badly cooked I am pretty sure I would have let myself have a treat but why waste my rare indulgences on nasty food???
The rest of the time was easier... I clung to my water bottle, ate huge breakfasts of fruit and oatmeal, sat with people who also seemed intent on eating well, and was happy to see that each meal included a very, very good salad bar - dozens of veg & lean meat choices and no jell-o!. I would use my dinner plate for the salad bar and then the small salad plate for my dinner.
The schedule was really tight but I did get in walks here and there so I am a little behind on my cardio for the week, but I learned that, if I have to, I can actually trust myself not to shoot myself in the foot just because I am eating out of someone else's kitchen - today's challenge is not over congratulating myself for being good.