is learning through Bio-feedback not to worry about the whys.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
I'm learning not knowing the whys is OK. It's hard because i would think i could fix it if i knew why and make whatever it was stop. We want to know the why because we hope we won't have to grieve alot so we can move on, so we don't give ourselves the time to
grieve / feel. The why just sits there and gets bigger and bigger if we don't. Sit and Feel and know the why is and it's OK. Allow yourself to feel and know it's ok and you don't always have to have a why.
The reason the why came up for me was because yesterday I was doing the Bio-feedback and noticed my eyes twitching but I didn't notice my Hands that were placed on my lap were moving ever so slightly. After i was told they were I then noticed it happening. After we were done I immediately wanted to know why. I couldn't believe i didn't even feel them moving until Jane my Bio-feedback therapist told me and then it brought up many other whys from my past. I really learned alot. No fixing needed. Just being and growing from the experiences. Doing what feels right. loving myself. I haven't loved myself in a very long time.
I am at the lowest weight i've been at in a very long time. I'm also in a very good mind place that I haven't been at in a really long time. This Bio-feedback really works. I'm so thankful I met Jane.
Thanks for listening!!