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Friday, July 23, 2010

I"M BACK!!!!!!!
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Now that I've had my moment! I'm back Sparkers! After a 2 month long Mayo Clinic (Minnesota) visit and no dice...... I'm back, more frustrated yet more motivated than ever. We have a partial diagnosis that we ALREADY had and nothing once again just trying to find medications to help manage the symptoms. Medications are great IF THEY HELP. My experience so far is every time (for the past 2 1/2 YEARS) they put me on a new one I start feeling worse or start developing NEW symptoms. It's like the meds just alter the disease. I've become VERY anti-western medicine for myself and this "issue". Right now I just am finishing up getting my levels right on the newest meds (took 5 weeks) and since taking it I've gotten worse and lost 6 lbs (not a good thing brought me under a healthy weight), I know what your thinking "SO STOP TAKING IT!" hahaha if only it were that simple. This is one of those drugs you CAN'T cold turkey so I'll be miserable as the drug looses it's effects over the NEXT 5 weeks. The next lined up drug to try is HEAVY DUTY, messes with your bone marrow. The side effects for the first 3 weeks alone are MAJORLY incapacitating flu-like symptoms and depression (not a 'possible' side effect but a guarantee). One doctor wants me on it the other doctor DOESN' clue what they are going to decide what to do. Every medicine after this bone marrow one just gets more and more TOXIC to my body.

So at this point here is where the MOTIVATION comes in to play. With all of this going on with western medicine, the stress, the lack of control.....I had to ask myself what CAN I control? What CAN I do?

The answer: My foundation, I can "strengthen" my foundation.
I CAN give myself a healthier start. I CAN decide that I eat only healthy foods within my restrictions. I CAN up my physical welling being with just moving a little more each day. I CAN do small accomplishments and be HAPPY with that, instead of focusing on the lack of big accomplishments. I CAN do so much more than I'm doing, for me, for my body, for my mental well being.

The plan? Get back to my routine before I went there. That means really getting back to working the site. I had really started to hit a stride towards having workouts become a part of my daily "To Do", it's going to take a little work to get back to where I was at before I left but I'm not scared ( emoticon) I did it once I sure as heck can do it again. I've already thrown out or given away to friends the food in the house I can no longer eat (while I don't personally agree that people should deny themselves ANY food, I do have new doctor ordered restrictions and allergies to certain foods I love, namely bye-bye pork as a whole emoticon). While I don't exactly know what my doctor's plans are for me, I am researching eastern medicine options. I figure if one isn't working the other might. I've taken a couple Tai Chi and Qi Gong classes and have been enjoying them both, they are very peaceful. As for the mental part of my plan I'm going to just keep coming on here for the great support that you all provide and keep relying on friends offline to hold on to my sanity. Both have been working wonders so far on keeping me positive, why change a good thing?

Wow that felt good to get that all off my chest! emoticon
I've missed all you Sparkers hope you all have been doing well, and hopefully a few goals have been made!!!!
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    Ani -- Sorry it took me so long to comment on your return.
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    I'm sorry that they didn't come up with any answers at Mayo.

    Are you back at Missoula?

    Hope things go smoother for you.
    3858 days ago
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    Keep up the possitive VIBES you are an inspiration.
    3868 days ago
    Wow not sure what you have but I hope you feel better.
    3872 days ago
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