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Majoring in Dieting - It's An Ongoing Course

Thursday, January 12, 2012

I feel as if I'm taking a course in dieting. Not Dieting 101 because I've been a dieter unsuccessfully for 40 years. This is grad school and I nearly dropped out during the holidays.

I did so well on the 17DD that I started getting smug. Like an A student who thinks they're smart enough not to have to do the work. I learned from being on this diet that my body doesn't react well to gluten yet what did I do over the holidays? Yup, overindulge in foods with wheat and sugar. I thought "Well, I'll only go off for a couple of days at Thanksgiving". After all, I made stuffing with whole wheat bread! Well, a couple of days turned into looking at the scale on Jan. 2nd and being irritated with myself that I gained back 12 pounds in a little over a month and I was back up over 300 lbs. where I swore I would never be again.

My irritation at myself didn't last long because I knew that I had learned a valuable lesson. The lesson is that I have to keep doing the work and I can no longer use certain foods as a reward. I can't reward myself with pizza - that's like giving an alcoholic a glass of champagne for remaining sober for 6 months. I can't say that I have been so good on my diet that I deserve a homemade cookie (even if I did make them with WW flour and xylitol). One cookie leads to two, which leads to three... well, I am sure you can relate. It's that slippery slope. I can't take a break from doing all the other things that motivate me and keep me on track like meditations, visualizations, mindful eating, etc.

I am fortunate that unlike other times, I got right back on track, because I know what works and what I need to do to make it work. Let's just say I took a semester break and I'm back in the classroom. I didn't drop out. I realize now that I have to stay constantly on my toes. If this is truly a lifestyle change, then I have to imprint that in my brain. I can never go back to eating highly processed foods unless I want to lose all progress made. I have to continue to daily do the things that keep me motivated - no skipping class.

I am committed to eating healthy and I am glad for the continued support of my team members; without Sparkpeople I doubt that I would have gotten back on track, despite the fact that the diet works. It's not just the food we put in our mouths, but all the other tools and techniques we utilize that will make us a success story. I have a long way to go to graduate, but I think I got a passing grade on my first semester.
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  • no profile photo CD11848595
    I don't like the word "'diet" any more than I like the word "goal" You are a light to many people!

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    3311 days ago
    Good for you! It's so much easier to quit. I love that you are a like student who WILL earn their degree - it's not easy!
    3372 days ago
    Thanks for being so candid here. This blog really resonates for me ... and others from the looks of it. The holidays present so many challenges --- it seems like this post-holiday period is challenging as well as we try to reflect and regroup. I thank you for your openness and your honesty and for sharing this valuable lesson that you've learned. It gives me a lot to think about. emoticon
    3377 days ago
    I have also given up so many times.
    Good for you for recognizing the problem and getting back on track! You know what to do and your doing it!
    Maybe we can graduate together.

    3378 days ago

    So SCARY that as mere morals we can be so easily tempted, let go of hard learned lessons, veer off tried and true paths and seek self imposed reprieve in exchange for what turns out to be of small satisfaction. BUT so heartening to hear the path back is readily attainable, the choice clear and the decision easy.

    Disappointment over numbers...temporary; Accountability...cleansing; lessons learned...absolutely priceless! RISE ABOVE emoticon deb
    3380 days ago
    I agree, this is a very powerful blog, and one that I will share with several of my teams. emoticon for reflecting so profoundly on frustrating and disappointing situation, and finding the "valuable lesson" and expressing it so clearly to us all.

    I have had to be really honest with myself. What can I reduce, and what must I eliminate? I've eliminated alcohol (2 years sober!), and I cannot buy a bag of chips. I will eat chips that come with a sandwich and love them, but I can't stop when there's a large quantity. And finding non-food rewards and means of soothing myself have really helped to.

    I'm so glad you've kept your perspective and chosen to learn the lessons and not give up. And I appreciate you sharing these lessons with the rest of us. I firmly believe you will reach your goals! emoticon emoticon
    Blessed Be, Amanda emoticon
    3380 days ago
    So true, Gabby, so true. I am still struggling to regain my committment and my control over myself. This blog really helps me to see I am not alone and to view it in a different light.
    Thank you!
    3380 days ago
    Fantastic blog .... the comparison is so true to life ... it is going to school and doing well so we can graduate .... I have to admit I would not be very successful if I didn't Spark every day .... it keeps me on track ! again, a great blog ! Roc
    3380 days ago
    Oh, Gabbie, you and I have the same reaction to gluten and sugar. And it sounds just like I may have written that blog myself! It's time to buckle down - yet, it's so hard to get that darn sugar out of my system. But as I recall from be successful with the 17DD, too, I felt so much better with it gone. Yep, I remember I have to paste that thought in front of my glasses so I can keep it in the forefront of my brain each day? Probably.

    So here's three cheers to you getting past the self indulgent holidays and back to the self indulgent Studies. No time like the present to get 'er done!
    3381 days ago
    Kudos, Gabby, for a well-thought out and well-written blog! It's enlightening to read about others journeys ... including their successes, and temporary "semester breaks." (I've had that same "holiday semester break" as you---time to get back on track!!!)

    I so appreciate my Spark delightful friends; like you!

    3381 days ago
  • SHARON-NY2021
    emoticon on not getting irritated AND getting back on track!!!! Those are both HUGE things. And, yes, it is like a graduate coursework leading to an advanced degree. And you are certainly beyond well on your way to earning your degree and learning (and teaching) so much on your way.

    I have earned my BS, MS, and post master's PD (halfway to a doctorate) but stopped when life derailed me. But, now from your post, I realize maybe I am also on the way to another degree. One that will so prepare me for the rest of my life. I'll have to think of good initials for this one.

    You continue to inspire. Thank you, Gabby.
    emoticon and you ARE doing it.
    3381 days ago
    I like your break and school analogy! And yes, I think our Spark friends help so very much.

    3381 days ago
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