Been depressed and feeling defeated
Friday, March 02, 2012
It's been 9 days since my last blog. I have been having such a difficult time with my attitude and self negative talk. I haven't lost any weight or inches for 5 weeks. The only weight I have lost is the 7 pounds I lost during the first two weeks of SparkPeople. I started on January 9th of this year.
I have been eating healthy. I have been logging my food every day. I have been exercising a minimum of 4 times a week for 30 to 50 minutes each session for the last two weeks. (The two previous weeks I was sick and didn't exercise). I just don't understand why the scale isn't moving or at least why my clothes aren't fitting better! I have problems with depression anyway (I'm on antidepressants) but, this is making me depressed. I am letting a lot of negative self talk into my head.
When I try to think clearly I tell myself that according to my BMI I am still at an exceptable weight. 2 more pounds and I will be "over weight:. And the important thing is to just be healthy. Eat healthy and exercise.
That being said, regardless of my BMI, my ideal weight that I like to be at is 125. Family members tell me I look better at 135. Either way, that's 12 to 22 pounds away. How am I going to loss this weight? I expected it to be a slow process, but this slow... no loss for 5 weeks? Specially since I just started trying to lose weight? I didn't expect a plateau after 2 weeks!
Like I have said in past posts, I am not giving up. I really just want to be healthy and losing weight is the icing on the cake (sorry for that pun, couldn't resist), but I really want that too!!!
PS: BeccaF03 mentioned hormones and medications. I was wondering about hormones... I'm not sure if I am going through menopause because I had a partial hysterectomy, but I am of the age (49). I heard on the radio recently that hormones being out of balance can cause you to not lose weight. Has anyone had experience with this?