Whirl Wind Week and the best run of my life.
Friday, September 28, 2012
Monday: Colonoscopy and being told I have cancer... holy smokes!
Tuesday: CT Scan and blood tests
Wednesday: Meet with the surgeon find out I need the full gambit: chemo, radiation and surgery
Thursday: A "normal" day
Friday: Meet with two oncologists and nurse educator.
And so ends the first week of my new life.
Meanwhile I spent a lot of time on the phone with friends and on the couch with ice cream. It wasn't until Thursday that I realized that it was okay to wallow for a couple days but that I had trained too hard to stop now... if I didnt' get up and off the couch then, I could see that I was just going to sit there until I was fat and stiff and depressed. And THAT was not going to happened.
I dug out my running shoes and found my mp3 player and headed out the door to run around the nieghborhood a bit. I ended up running toward the river and soon found myself running the last part of the run portion of my big triathlon this past summer. It was good to remind myself that I was strong and had proven that I could set a high goal and make it.
It was the most amazingly beautiful September day. The colors here in midstate Wisconsin are almost peaking. It was just glorious. Everything was just amazing and by the time I got back I was brimming with strength and love for the entire universe. Even my poor nasty little tumors.
Last summer I was training for a triathlon of Swim/Bike/Run and now I am focusing on a different tri: Chemo/Radiation/ Surgery. Nothing is going to start for a couple weeks (except for lots of tests) and I feel fine physically. No one has told me when I will be too weak to train so I've decided I am just going to keep running and keep working out until I can't. I've emailed my trainer and plan to work with her to see what I can maintain through the weak times and how I can start to recover my strength after the surgery.
Dang it, I refuse to let this get the best of me. If I have to kick the crap out of this cloud I WILL extract multiple silver linings.