If you see my intro on my spark page you will see there have been a lot of changes for me as of lately. But I must say all good!!
I just wanted to share that the one I am most proud of is that I finally met my goal weight of 127lbs. of lean and mean body mass!! Woo hoo! But you may be surprised at the one determining factor that got me there.
I started this journey back in 2006 and was almost 160lbs. which was a lot for me. I started eating clean and found once I did that I felt so good I had a pretty easy time sticking to it. I am also one of those people that once I set my mind to something, I can be pretty stubborn sticking to it. I learned to use that to my advantage. Oh, I met some oposition along the way of people telling me I should eat a hamburger once in awhile and comments like that when I didn't partake in the birthday cake or whatever it was. But I didn't care. I was on a mission and I am okay with me, so I wasn't going to let someone blow me off track by what they thought.
I worked out hard with my friend who is a trainer for the next 4 years steadily, at least 3x a week. Then I built a home gym and kept that habit going. But even though I was lifting heavy and eating clean I could not seem to get the tummy fat and mid section to move. Even when I lost weight, It didn't seem to change that composition around the middle. There were times I was very frustrated and was tired of the plateau. I'd see other succeed and wonder, "what am I doing wrong?" But I figured my journey was my journey and I needed to not compare it to anyone elses.
I saw my nutritionist a few years back and she said I was doing everything right and she thought it had to do with "energy" I was very sceptical... but listened. She said, I think you have something you are holding on to and your body knows it and when you finally decide to let go of whatever it is your body will respond. Hmmm.... I couldn't think of anything that was causing me huge stress or what I could possibly be holding on to?!!
Then I got real with myself. A friend of mine was in a serious accident and nearly lost her young life, she was so physically fit and had everything going for her and that incident shook me!! Made me realize we don't know our future.. we are not guarenteed tomorrow and it caused me to say " what am I waiting for?" Why was I constantly putting my life and my goals on hold when I had so much I wanted to accomplish. I began to step out of denial that I had a great marriage and really started looking at our relationship. Was I happy??? No, just the opposite, very unhappy. I began to let go, of controlling situations, covering up for his bad attitude and just started observing my life. I didn't like what I saw... every time I wanted to reach for something, push myself... I was being held back in some way. I wanted to run a Marathon and kept putting it off because it wouldn't fit his schedule or he didn't want to pay for it. It was a turning point, and I began to let go...and embrace me and what I wanted in life.
I signed up for and trained 22 wks for the Marathon and completed it in Sept. I left my marriage in July. My training was my therapy and it was so good for my soul to surround myself with the people who wanted to build me up and see me succeed.
And low and behold the weight started coming off. Last time I trained for a Marathon I gained weight, so I wouldn't say it was all the running, but I'm sure it helped. I continued to eat right (clean) and work out and get my runs in and now post marathon and back to lifting heavy weights and I am finally where I want to be. It was not a huge struggle. I definitely put in the work, but I had done that before without the same results.
People see me now and can't believe how calm I am and at ease.... I should be I am LOVING life!!
Stress can do crazy things to our body...but when we get real with ourselves and really truly look inward it will respond. I had the pleasure of seeing my nutritionist a little while ago and I got a chance to tell her "your so right!" What a wise, wise women!!
Many blessing to all of you, my spark friends. I may not visit often but I still love catching up with you all!!