Wednesday, October 17, 2012

If you see my intro on my spark page you will see there have been a lot of changes for me as of lately. But I must say all good!!

I just wanted to share that the one I am most proud of is that I finally met my goal weight of 127lbs. of lean and mean body mass!! Woo hoo! But you may be surprised at the one determining factor that got me there.

I started this journey back in 2006 and was almost 160lbs. which was a lot for me. I started eating clean and found once I did that I felt so good I had a pretty easy time sticking to it. I am also one of those people that once I set my mind to something, I can be pretty stubborn sticking to it. I learned to use that to my advantage. Oh, I met some oposition along the way of people telling me I should eat a hamburger once in awhile and comments like that when I didn't partake in the birthday cake or whatever it was. But I didn't care. I was on a mission and I am okay with me, so I wasn't going to let someone blow me off track by what they thought.

I worked out hard with my friend who is a trainer for the next 4 years steadily, at least 3x a week. Then I built a home gym and kept that habit going. But even though I was lifting heavy and eating clean I could not seem to get the tummy fat and mid section to move. Even when I lost weight, It didn't seem to change that composition around the middle. There were times I was very frustrated and was tired of the plateau. I'd see other succeed and wonder, "what am I doing wrong?" But I figured my journey was my journey and I needed to not compare it to anyone elses.

I saw my nutritionist a few years back and she said I was doing everything right and she thought it had to do with "energy" I was very sceptical... but listened. She said, I think you have something you are holding on to and your body knows it and when you finally decide to let go of whatever it is your body will respond. Hmmm.... I couldn't think of anything that was causing me huge stress or what I could possibly be holding on to?!!

Then I got real with myself. A friend of mine was in a serious accident and nearly lost her young life, she was so physically fit and had everything going for her and that incident shook me!! Made me realize we don't know our future.. we are not guarenteed tomorrow and it caused me to say " what am I waiting for?" Why was I constantly putting my life and my goals on hold when I had so much I wanted to accomplish. I began to step out of denial that I had a great marriage and really started looking at our relationship. Was I happy??? No, just the opposite, very unhappy. I began to let go, of controlling situations, covering up for his bad attitude and just started observing my life. I didn't like what I saw... every time I wanted to reach for something, push myself... I was being held back in some way. I wanted to run a Marathon and kept putting it off because it wouldn't fit his schedule or he didn't want to pay for it. It was a turning point, and I began to let go...and embrace me and what I wanted in life.

I signed up for and trained 22 wks for the Marathon and completed it in Sept. I left my marriage in July. My training was my therapy and it was so good for my soul to surround myself with the people who wanted to build me up and see me succeed.

And low and behold the weight started coming off. Last time I trained for a Marathon I gained weight, so I wouldn't say it was all the running, but I'm sure it helped. I continued to eat right (clean) and work out and get my runs in and now post marathon and back to lifting heavy weights and I am finally where I want to be. It was not a huge struggle. I definitely put in the work, but I had done that before without the same results.

People see me now and can't believe how calm I am and at ease.... I should be I am LOVING life!!

Stress can do crazy things to our body...but when we get real with ourselves and really truly look inward it will respond. I had the pleasure of seeing my nutritionist a little while ago and I got a chance to tell her "your so right!" What a wise, wise women!!

Many blessing to all of you, my spark friends. I may not visit often but I still love catching up with you all!!
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    Kimberly I am so happy that you are more at peace with your life and have achieved your goals! You look gorgeous and stunning! 127!! Woohoo!! I'm on my way down to that weight as well...trying my best to get there! I'm sorry about your marriage yet life is very very short and we need to be enjoying every second not held back by negativity. You continue to inspire me and motivate me as always! I think you are one of the most beautiful people I've met online, both inside and out! Thank you for taking care of you! As you are so very special! emoticon
    2989 days ago
    You look amazing. Thank you for sharing your story. We both started on spark in 2006 and boy was it one of the best things i've done for myself. Sounds like for you too.
    3011 days ago
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    Congratulations on removing the negative and cruddy energy that was attached to you weighing you down...and for that YOU are happy and that is really what counts. I am proud of all you have accomplished, congratulations on the marathon, you are a beautiful woman inside and out *HUGS* Life is too short for petty BS and small and insignficiant things! xoxoox
    3013 days ago
    I think I saw something on FB about your marathon finish! Very cool indeed and I totally, 100% understand the part about letting go---- that's the only thing that helped me get over my binging issues. Weird how something so counterintuitve is the best thing ever---- it's weird too how little we really know about each other on here- I will say, I am suprised at your news, but I think that choosing to be happy ALWAYS pays off and it sounds like you finally got there, so good for you!!!

    Keep in touch- for sure!
    3013 days ago
    Wonderful insight and inspiration! Congratulations on your success...but you do not add your loss much did your negative husband weigh! LOL
    3014 days ago
    It's good to hear from you again, Kimber. Congratulations on getting to your goal weight; that's fantastic!

    Life is short; I'm glad you're happy.

    Finally, great job to finish your first marathon. You're the best!
    3014 days ago

    Comment edited on: 10/17/2012 9:52:45 PM
    Congratulations, you look great! More importantly, you did what was right for you. In the end, we have to take care of ourselves.
    3014 days ago
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    Its so goo to see you here again! Congrats on your success
    3014 days ago
    "I finally met my goal weight of 127lbs. of lean and mean body mass!! Woo hoo!"
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    Thanks for sharing about your journey. Congratulations on your success!
    3015 days ago
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