Waiting for the other shoe to drop
Saturday, April 14, 2007
I have been doing so well this time around that it actually worries me. I even had a hard time getting in all my calories today! I had to eat late snacks and still came up 100 cal. short.
I have been going low carb and healthy as much as possible. So far I have lost 16 pounds and have not been hungry. I have had some craveings. Last night was the worst. I ended up going over my calories with popcorn and a fiber bar, only 200 cal over. So i guess going under today it all works out in the end.
I know that I have been more emotional the last couple days and think that plays a part in my craveings. I miss my son Joe. I never knew it would be so hard to have him grow up and go away. Korea is so far away. He has been having trouble and I am to far to do more than offer support and send money LOL. He was in a car accident, not hurt, but scares me and makes me realize that if something serious happened I would not be able to get there quick. On the up side I do have a X-box 360 and can video chat with him. That is more than moms who's sons are in war zones can do.
I am worried I am going through a change in my inner self. Last year I quit a job I had been at for 8 years, working with metally ill, and went to a new job, working with parolees. The stress is sometimes unbearable! Yet some days I enjoy the heck out of it LOL. My husband thought I was crazy for leaving a job that had gotten easy and cushy. I just knew that with my baby leaving I needed a challenge to keep me sane.
This is another challenge. Another way to keep the empty nest syndrome at bay. So possibly that is why it has been easier the last 3 weeks than any other time in my past history of dieting.
Keeping at anything makes a habit. So if this is for other reasons in the end its all good :-)