Friday, May 22, 2015
The end of February saw me repeating a circle that I seem to know only too well. Once again I found myself on the unemployment bench. I have spent the last couple of months thinking I was okay with this when in reality while the crap job with all it's issues is gone different issues now exist.
I found myself not going to bed until well after midnight and sleeping until after 10am. Spending most of the day on this laptop. Not walking, not really eating, sliding into my save, deep, very deep black hole. I stopped taking my anti-depression meds, anixiety meds thinking since work is gone I don't need them.
WRONG!!!!!!! I'm still not taking the meds but have switched to pure oils instead. I have noticed that as long as I use them they work but since they are oils they must be applied daily. Unlike meds they don't stay in my body.
I have been doing interviews, filling out applications but on some days those tasks totally drain me and I find myself eating, sleeping, sitting and doing nothing that is good for me.
Okay rambling time to get focused on me and getting it together. I am a strong, amazing person that can and has lost this weight. I need to focus on the positive I have not regained all of the weight I lost. I have restarted my part of the Biggest Loser Challenge with a group of people that are super crazy posters. I'm miss a day and have to scroll for pages.
Time to get excited and moving. Staying positive.