Self-Compassion (Days 25 - 29)

August is almost over. I’m glad I’ve spent the month writing a little about self-compassion. I feel like I didn’t get very far, but at least I got started.

My therapist wants me to write the next time I’m feeling really good. It will serve as a reminder, something to savor, whenever depression blacks out my ability to feel good about myself.

I did get a lot done this week. I’m starting a new job on Tuesday. I took care of financial stuff, and I talked with my ex about divorce plans.

The job probably won’t be permanent, but I’m hoping it will get me through the next 2 or 3 months. The best I can do is think ahead just a few months in advance. I hope I’ll be able to think more clearly by November.

I suppose the main thing I have learned from practicing self-compassion is: It’s okay that I’m not okay right now. I’ve been through a lot. I’m trying to heal. I’m doing this mostly on my own, while raising a child, mostly on my own. I’ve put my son’s needs first, and he’s healthy, safe, and happy. Now I need to take care of his mom, so that we can both have a better life together.

I think that better life will be in Arizona. I’m just not sure when it will begin there.

Until then, I have plenty to do here.