Wonderful Affirming Day with fellow Sparker
Thursday, January 21, 2016
I was lucky enough to meet fellow Sparker Justyna7 through staying at her B&B, and am blessed to count her among my family now. I was so happy to be able to get together with her Tuesday, to chat, swim, and generally catch up (we haven't seen eachother for some time -- too long!).
I continue to learn so much from her. How to eat simply and healthily - she made a wonderful seafood chowder for lunch. How to be patient with myself (ok... maybe I haven't quite assimilated that lesson, but I'm getting there!). How to accept that there are difficulties, and then move forward nevertheless and believe!
I'm coming out of my shell, after what I now realize was quite a severe depression - I generally put everything aside and withdrew from people and activities except minimal functioning while dealing with cancer, and everything kind of snowballed. A necessary coping skill at the time, but the time is over.
Now it's time to move forward cancer free after more than 12 years of medical rounds. It's time to dream big and set goals - Camino in 2018 - and break them down into manageable sections.
My first section is to go to the mall twice a week and walk with my walker - transportation is reserved.
I know my spring celebration will be to go hiking once a particular trail opens in May.
I said it in a previous blog and I'll say it again -- using the walker has opened up so many possibilities for me. We who need the support should not be afraid or ashamed to use that support. I don't know why my doctors never recommended it to me, just let me get worse and worse, but I will definitely be raising it with them.
In the meantime, the walker is one of the few things that Dad did not bequeath to people when he died - he had very little but was so very loved, everyone wanted " a piece" of him. So we had the walker in storage. Now, when I use it, I imagine he is supporting me throughout this journey (as I know he and Mom are doing).
As an aside, access issues continue despite all awareness campaigns and legislation. I have a regular appointment in a particular part of the city where everything is trendy, including the brick sidewalks. Exhausting when using a walker. The building where my appointment is, the coffee shop down the street, who knows what else... do not have electric openers for the doors. Ugh!
But I have my angels with me -- in real life, and in spirit, and am ever so humbled.
I wish such support to every Sparker out there!