First Month/ Week Four in Review
Monday, February 01, 2016
I have lost 8.2 lbs. and 9.25 inches overall. (see separate entry on breakdown of where I lost the inches).
I want to first thank my former diet coach, Phyllis, who encouraged us to take monthly photos as well as measurements on the first day of the month. I am charging my camera right now and I will include photos in my photo collection here for viewing if you reader wish to do so.
I want to thank the Weight Watchers organization for their insistence that we track every "bite, lick and taste" and their introduction of the basic building blocks of healthy and balanced eating. Although I was not one of their big 'losers' I learned so much during the 18 months that I spent with this program that I have to give credit where credit is due.
I want to thank Overeaters Anonymous for almost 21 years of inspiring me to be and do my best. One of my favorite compliments was "you are the skinniest fat person I have ever met!" Now, to match the outside with the inside.
I want to thank my husband, Paul, who knows how much I have wanted to lose the rest of this weight yet has been patient as I have tried again and again. He sees those small steps of progress that I have made and he has celebrated them right along with me. I know he loves me unconditionally and that means a lot.
Finally, I want to thank Sparkpeople for being here when I was ready to return to follow your plan "your way" and do the work. You have such a wealth of information, challenges and support that no one can say they can't find something on this site to know, use and learn from. If they say that, they need to take off their denial glasses and open their eyes.
I have been on this journey almost from the day that I began gaining weight decades ago. I could write a book just on that whole experience of PCOS, starvation diets, low thyroid, gall bladder disease, diabetes, high blood pressure, thousands of dollars misspent, etc. but my take on that now is 'it is in the past, all that matters is today and the here and now!" OA taught me that! I don't dwell on what once was but on what can be! I have worked through all of that and I no longer carry the emotional baggage associated with that. That alone can feel like a huge and heavy weight off of my soul.
Although I did manage to lose 50 lbs. in 2010 and keep that off for the past 5 1/2 years I have also decided that I needed to break free of 'resting on my laurels' (since I am still considered obese) and basically start back this year as though this was the first day of the rest of my life. In some ways, although wiser for the journey, it has been. It is not about what I did then but what I do today and hopefully tomorrow.
I now have two free hands, a clear mind and a focused desire that has replaced that. I know what I want. I am willing to do what it takes. I won't stop until I am finished until I reach my end goal weight. I can do this. You can do this. We just have to believe that we can and then put that belief into action.