Such simple words, but such powerfully true words. What we do. Or, perhaps more accurately, what we don't do. We don't stay committed to former workouts, we don't track meals - particularly when those meals increase in frequency and contents (thanks to a new job that literally demands it, yay food writing!), we don't give our bodies the care they deserve, we don't think about the consequences until the consequences stare us in the face. And then we still don't act on them. Or we act but only half-heartedly because time and energy are so scare that consistency becomes a wishful thought. Like an old friend who visits every now and then but who hardly stays longer than a few days at a time. You want that friend to be a daily presence in your life, but this current life just doesn't allow it. But yet - you know this isn't sustainable either.
Enter today. Now. Doing something. Being tired of feeling controlled by external factors when you CAN find a way to do something about it. To be in charge. So what if you have a full time job and a semi-full time second job that takes up nights and weekends? SO what? That's no excuse and no reason to fall short on your obligations to yourself...you, you, you. What I really mean is me. My life. My obligations. My needs. My balance.
The past three years have brought some incredibly wonderful changes. I became very active in the local freelance food writing/photography community and have since become a regular contributor to five publications and the editor of one. This is a big deal and I worked very hard to reach this present state. I'm beyond proud of myself for a slew of reasons beyond the scope of today's post. Needless to say all of the assignments centered around food - and the inevitable time involved to document via words and photos of such food/restaurants not to mention all of the free food and alcohol have created a sort of mayhem on my normally healthy & balanced dietary lifestyle. The old me would eat three healthy balanced meals a day with a few snacks, workout for one-two hours, and fit into all my clothes. The new me is lucky to eat breakfast, often skips lunch or eats late (or goes out to meet with publicists), has many meals or events in the evenings, and is up til the wee hours meeting deadlines (which leads to sleeping later aka skipping breakfast and starting the whole cycle over again). Clothes are hit or miss (per the usual, the sizes haven't changed too much but I CAN tell things are snugger and some stuff just doesn't work anymore thanks to new bulges in new places. Ugh.) It's not good. I know it.
I'm able to get occasional fitness-related assignments that balance the food and booze a little, and I've been hit or miss with gym workouts, spin classes, and recently got back to my old favorite of running outside. Hoping to make that a regular thing again especially since it used to be a major part of my world (multiple times a week, regular races, etc.). I also want to make my favorite spin studio a regular part of my life as soon as possible.
I'm really conflicted about how to maintain a diet plan while keeping up with my professional obligations as a food writer. How does one track media dinners anyway? I have no freaking clue.
All I can hope is to be perfect on my "personal" days aka days without media commitments, and then to just try really hard to eat minimal amounts of the free stuff. And of course to increase workouts as much as I can (5 days a week, one hour minimum each day) to offset the media meals.
I'm tired of feeling fatso. I have 10-15 pound to lose. It's not a huge number, but yet it is because the lower the number the harder it can be to get it gone. I also know that I am in that same "between places" weight as I used to be, where if I keep going in the same direction it would blow up to a point that is truly unhealthy and harder to fight off. I don't want to get to the point where losing weight is a necessity or a true battle. I've always felt it was important to take care of things while they are manageable and I feel like the longer I go the less manageable this feels.
Spark People worked wonderfully for me the first time and then again when I fell into maintenance mode. I'm ready to recommit myself and my time to the "program" and hope that it yet again comes through for me.
Here we go!