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Where I am today

Thursday, September 29, 2016

Where I am today. NOT feeling hopeless, but at the moment, honestly - immobile. I am going to work on my health and weight again - soon - not at this moment. Then again, writing about it IS working on it.

I managed to not get laid off last December, (the end of Medicare open enrollment, seasonal position), so I never got a spring reprieve to shed the winter pounds, brought on from constant sitting & no time to think or move, plus the holidays. Had things going on over the summer - house rennovations...and work. Along about August I hit high gear. Joined a gym. Had a trainer tell me I'd basically have to do high protein, low carb if I wanted to lose weight, so I tried that out. THEN I read in 10 different places that High Protein for middle aged folks is NOT HEALTHY. Raised your chances of cancer at least 40%. Ok. So I went back to eating more balanced & cutting back on SALT which stays entirely out of hand for me. Somewhere in there I had a mini-vacation that took me weeks to get back on track from.

Now this past weekend, I lost my precious Bossy Boo - the big brown loveable goofy lug of a pit bull. Ellabelle's other half. The cancer that he had survived for 4 long years with no snags, must have hit his spleen, like the vet said it might, and he went down very quickly Saturday, & we helped him on his journey very late that night. So. I'm being patient with myself. I'm not eating everything in sight, but have allowed a few endulgences. I've managed to get out and walk a little here & there, but not a lot. We took Ella out to walk last night & discovered that as I feared, she has already started regressing - she doesn't want to walk out ahead like she did when Bossy was there to make her feel brave. Not getting another dog for a little while - trying to respect my husband's wishes this time - unlike last time we lost our dogs.

Our "season" starts next week now. My time to take massive action on my weight is on hold. I looked at last years records & I wasn't even hitting 3000 steps a lot of days. No time to walk on breaks - it's eat FAST, potty, get your water or whatever, & get back on the phone.

Possibly looking at another small oral surgery, after which I won't be able to strain with resistance training for awhile either - have too take that part easy.

So today I'm just sitting at work. Immobile. I still care, but don't feel like I can do a lot to make a lot of difference at this time. So just sitting here for now. Feeling kind of flat. And immobile. Stuck? maybe. Doesn't help that all that work I put in in Aug got me nowhere to speak of. Barely lost anything & then gained it back. Sigh. trying to think of what would actually WORK (make any difference).
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    So sorry for your loss. emoticon
    1658 days ago
    Hi Sparkles - lovely to read a blog from you. I'm not on Spark much these days but still subscribe to blogs. It suits me better to put my intake on Fatsecret website (sorry Sparkpeople).

    I'm so sorry you lost your doggie. Our critters really do become a part of our family, don't they?

    I think you might be better off trying a low carb, high fat, diet. Keep your protein average. It works for so many people and there's a lot of research to say this is a better way of eating. It's hard for me because I'm a vegetarian and I eat too many fruit carbs. However, by cutting down on starchy carbs (bread, rice, pasta, etc), I've managed to lose 20 pounds this year. Not a fast weight loss I know (about 1/2 a pound a week) but I'm happy with that. I now weigh 152 pounds. I eat full fat milk, butter, cheese and eggs and my cholesterol levels are perfect. I was put on blood pressure tablets at the beginning of this year but I managed to come off them a couple of months ago and my BP is still staying low.

    Take care my Spark friend.

    1659 days ago

    Comment edited on: 9/29/2016 5:33:22 PM
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