Bittersweet

I just got a call from one of my little sisters. She told me she's pregnant again. Her firstborn was born less than a year ago. As much as I'm happy for her, I am frustrated. My husband said we can start trying in December, but I know he's not excited about it. He doesn't even want to talk about it. Nor does he seem to have any sexual desire for me anymore. I'm wondering if that is going to change at all by December. Otherwise, how in the world, am I supposed to get pregnant? Being a mother has been something I have wanted forever. I nurture other people's kids all day long, and as much as I do enjoy that, I really want kids of my own. Of my three younger sisters, one already has two kids and another is now pregnant with her second. I just want it to be my turn. I don't know what else to say. It's got me in a funk right now, and I don't know what to do about it. I can't really talk to my husband, or my sister, so I figured I would write a short blog about it. Maybe someone has something helpful to say.