CINDYCHARLENE

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De-stressing

Sunday, May 20, 2018

Dear Spark People Friends,
It is with deep regret that I must drop Spark People for good. I had a mini stroke for the seventh time a couple of weeks ago and I have had to rethink my priorities.

I have loved being on Spark People because I have so enjoyed socializing with you wonderful "sisters" with like concerns. I have actually conquered my eating disorder of dieting and binging and am only three lbs from goal. I know I will arrive there as I continue to treat my body with respect.

I really thought my daily participation, in Spark People to the point of several hours a day, was a de-stressor, but in all actuality it has added to my stress.

To be totally honest, like with junk food, SP is where I have hidden from the reality of what I really should, need and want to do but have procrastinated doing for far too long: things the "spirit" has been nudging me to do for years, in favor of escapism.

Being disobedient to the promptings of the Holy Spirit, adds a lot of stress to the present stress of having to care for 2 mentally and physically disabled men in our home, plus battle hypoglycemia, blood pressure problems, venous insufficiency that causes constant pain, try to earn money to supplement the disability income of two disabled daughters not living with us, plus do my "church work".

I believe I have found the answer to the mini stroke I am sure I had but which the doctor can never confirm, only from my brief symptoms.

I have been trying, of course, to eat a balanced unrefined foods "diet", eating the right amount of calories, but have discovered I probably eat too many carbs in view of the fact I have a tendency toward Hypoglycemia. Monitoring my blood sugar, after a meal which contained both grains and fruits, I found my blood sugar raised a little then slamed me lower than it was before I even ate which was low already.

The combination of it that along with the stress of everday life all made me feel extremely weak and that in turn caused a panic attack that sent my blood pressure up and gave me a mini stoke and then my adrenal gland, kicked in to try to equalize all the chaos in my body (like giving me a shot of epeniphrin), making my liver release glucose, so that my blood sugar levels would normalize, so that by the time I got to the hospital, the numbness in my limbs were gone and I was only left with severe shaking, that they couldn't figure out. Does that make any sense to you?

I am not one to be a quitter, but I did not "count the costs", before I started SP (because I didn't know them before hand) of the time I would be spending being on here, starting my own team, plus being on another social media, Facebook.

We are here on this earth to learn by experience. Too bad we have to learn the hard way most of the time. I am afraid I have an addictive personality or maybe it is just the natural man in me that like the Sadducees and the Pharisees, "full of excess".

With the tendency of the "natural man" to become addicted to the things we find pleasurable, I really have just traded addictions. Now I must quit cold turkey and it won't be easy but with the help again of the Lord I will begin to practicing abstainance from not only junk food but from ALL the things of this world.

I do hope you understand and will forgive me. I do not want to be a quitter but we must live, learn though experience and accept our limitations. I will be 79 in October and it is hard to accept that there are things I would like to do that I cannot do any longer and that I must slow down, de-stress and live. I cannot risk having a major stroke and I am afraid I have been headed in that direction.

I love you all and if there is anyone who would like to stay in touch with me I would be happy for you to message me your e-mail address and I will give you mine.
Love, Charlene
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  • LINDAMARIEZ1
    I miss you already!

    hugs emoticon
    249 days ago
  • WALKINGSPARK
    I will pray for you. I hope you are doing well...miss you! emoticon
    651 days ago
  • JACKIEWALKS4FUN
    Sorry I am late coming by. I do understand, you have a ton going on. I had to limit my online time too was unhealthy. Even if you don't spark it is important to continue on with your healthy lifestyle. Exercise when you can and continue to eat healthy. Stop by if you can and let us know how you are doing.

    Many emoticon and emoticon

    865 days ago
  • DONNALEE-53
    emoticon I will miss you. I do hope you feel better soon and come back. emoticon
    877 days ago
  • DJ4HEALTH
    You just take care of yourself and get better. If you want you can always come back when you better and not so stressed. It maybe just once a week and that might be all that you can do. Praying for you.
    879 days ago
  • KEEP-GOING
    I am with you Miss Charlene. I have had to come away from Sparks a number of times. I was spending too much time on the computer. Thank you for friendship. I will miss you. Listening to Holy Spirit is most important. You are beautiful in Jesus amen
    883 days ago
  • TERMITEMOM
    I am so sorry Charlene! Please do not give up completely and come visit from time to time, there are so many people who love you! emoticon
    884 days ago
  • ANHELIC
    My Prayers are with you Charlene and I will continue to pray for you. I will keep you in my prayers morning and evenings.

    My email address is joanpsmith@sympatico.ca and I hope we can keep in touch whenever you are feeling that you can. Love you, Charlene.
    Joan emoticon emoticon emoticon

    884 days ago
  • SPARKFRAN514
    emoticon i will miss you take your self
    884 days ago
  • YELLOW09RED
    Bye Miss Charlene,
    I'm so thankful for your friendship this couple of months.
    Bless your time away.
    We will be here if you do need to stop in and say Hi once in a while.

    Hugs and Joy,
    Debbie
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    884 days ago
  • CINDYCHARLENE
    Thank you all !! If I find I am able I will come back once in a while. It is like with my addiction to sugar. I have to abstain until I can get it right. A little won't hurt but my physical make up at this point needs healing before I can ever hope to be able to have a little.
    Love, Charlene
    884 days ago
  • MRS_TOAD
    May each and every day be awash with your faith. I, for one, will certainly miss your faith-filled blogs, your unending encouragement and warming hugs. God be with you and your loved ones.

    ((hugs))
    884 days ago
  • GODS-PRINCESS
    I am sorry to see you leave SP but I totally understand. I have thought of doing the same many times also. Our health does come 1st! Take care of yourself my dear Sister!
    884 days ago
  • AQUAGIRL08
    I'm so sorry for all of the things that are going on in your life. Mindfulness CDs with deep breathing have helped me enormously, to relax. You will be missed but need to do whatever is right for you and your body. I'm sending you hugs and positive thoughts!
    884 days ago
  • 1CRAZYDOG
    First of all, I honor your honesty with yourself and putting it out there, being vulnerable, and sharing this.

    I will miss the love you add to this site. BUT I understand. I just want you to know you are in my prayers. I would also like to suggest, as has been done, consider a spark break, but when and if you're able, come back. You have to do what's best for YOU but just know you will be issed, dear sister. You will be missed. And of course, know we'll be here for you if and when you determine that you can return.

    Hugs, love, prayers.
    884 days ago
  • NEVERORNOW
    Sorry to see you go, Charlene. emoticon Take good care of yourself.
    884 days ago
  • KATHYJO56
    I am going to miss you so much, but you have to do what you believe is the right thing for you. I will pray for you and wish you well.
    884 days ago
  • CZECHRN
    (cont) food! Another idea; when you do check in eventually set a timer so your not overdoing it & maybe decide on just one day per week/month . Good luck & may God bless you ♡
    884 days ago
  • CZECHRN
    Praying♡ Suggestion:consider a temporary vacation from Spark then if/when you come back we will still be here for you! Remember:One day at a time& a little bit of everything as close to nature as possible! That helps . Idecrease refined/processed foo
    884 days ago
  • LINDA!
    Praying for your health. I will miss you but certainly understand. emoticon
    884 days ago
  • JUDSAJUDSA
    My prayers are with you. God bless you.
    884 days ago
  • LVMS61516
    I'll be praying for you
    884 days ago
  • HELENATILFORD
    You have to do what is right for you. Will include you in my prayers tonite.take care
    884 days ago
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