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Thursday, June 14, 2018

It's what I've been conditioned to do all my life. I grew up in a family where ...you didn't question, went to school, went to church, parents were always the opposite sex , you didn't do anything out of the ordinary that would draw undue attention or shame...I think you get the picture. Obviously...this post isn't about lbs lost or exercise ....but it is in a way. Things don't stop during a diet, life and all its challenges keep happening....maybe that's why dieting is considered so hard?

I've heard "the gay agenda" spoken so many times and I'm sure I still have no clue exactly what that is.

And here I am, the bisexual parent of a transgender kid. and the only shame I feel at this moment ....is not allowing myself to love, grow and give as much as I could. The only "agenda" I've got right now is to keep taking baby steps towards finding and celebrating the real me ( and I hope, helping others do the same) .

Excuse the rambly post ...I sit here and think 45...oh geez maybe midlife crisis really is a thing :P
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    I was drawn to your blog because of the title and appreciate your honesty. You don't need someone else to tell you what to do, but maybe some things can help give you ideas that might help you find your own answers.

    1. Change your word from DIET to lifestyle changes. The words matter! One is negative and the other positive.

    2. Don't obsess about your "mistakes" or less than perfect journey. It isn't about perfection, but about making progress, even tiny baby steps. Remember the (LIFESTYLE CHANGES) are forever while diets are temporary! Nobody is perfect but even small changes matter.

    3. It sounds like you love your kid, so accept that there too, you will have mixed feelings and mixed emotions that you may or may not even understand. You can both love your child and experience some sadness or disappointment that things haven't turned out as expected. You can wonder if you could have done something differently or whatever. All those feelings are normal and do NOT have anything to do with the LOVE you feel. We all have to at some point accept our kids regardless of how different they are from who we thought they would be when we held them as babies. Life is messy and wonderful but sometimes it takes time to readjust our expectations. You have this - LOVE is the key and you are already holding the key.

    4. You are worth the effort and be kind to yourself and as loving as you are to your "kid"

    Hugs - OBVIOUSLY you are under a lot of stress and live is giving you an interesting journey - know you are up to the challenge!
    366 days ago
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    Sounds like you have lots going on. Yep. Life don't stop so you can get your diet right. Maybe you & your child can work on a good menu? 🦋
    367 days ago
    Thanks, I might be just a little obsessed with Groot :)
    367 days ago
    I love your username! Good luck in your journey.
    367 days ago
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