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Every Day Grateful

Thursday, June 14, 2018

Today I am grateful for a friend who departed this plane 9 years ago. She was on my mind as I shopped for clothing today. We used to do that as teenagers together. I believe today would have been her 54th birthday.
I was also thankful for an empty dishwasher. We don't have a set schedule of chores at our house, so we all need to pitch in on a regular basis to keep things moving. Tidy is another matter entirely, and escapes us for the most part ...

The mile outside was a pipe dream. I thought I might take it "before it gets hot" - I've got a few days off work - but it was already into the 90's ("feels like" 98). Feh. Maybe tomorrow.
I chose to sleep rather than workout this morning. I am using the fitness I've earned to wash bedding today. This involves many trips up and down stairs.

I imbued shopping for clothes with love. It made me realistic about what I needed and what I would use, and gave me something of an inoculation against sale 'prices' and 'deals', which did not provide what I needed or wanted. Maybe someday I'll get myself those aloe-infused socks ...

How can I move forward in this moment?
I don't know. While moving is a joy to me, and I can find exercise embraceable, my compliance to a healthy diet and not over-eating is sketchy. Plant paradox served me well for over a month, eat the rainbow is nice (I've done it more days in a row than ever before - 13 - but then I missed "green" yesterday)...I'm not sure where I'm headed next. It seems like I'm interested in something, it's easy, and then I inexplicably can't do it anymore. What's up with that?
Do I want to be looser with my eating or do I want to be thinner? I don't know, and I can't have it both ways.
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  • MNEME2
    It's beautiful that you still hold the memories of your friend close in your heart. I too struggle somedays choosing what is best for me. Hang in there...I know when I make healthy choices, I feel happier with my choice.
    367 days ago
    What's up with that? you ask. Could it be boredom? Might a hybridized version of things that have supported you be workable? I'm thinking something tailored specifically to you with designed in flexibility. Or, perhaps, certain ways of eating support you best during a particular time of year. Rigidity is not a requisite of thinness.
    367 days ago
    Hang in there and as they say, "choose your hard"... going back and forth (as I have done recently) is not a good solution! emoticon We CAN do IT... once we figure out what IT is!
    367 days ago
  • LYLA_2015
    Everyday is made up of choices. Yesterday is gone, what choices will we make today? Sounds like you and your friend had a beautiful relationship. You can never completely forget that.
    367 days ago
    Yeah, it's all about choosing your hard. Not easy.

    My condolences on the loss of your friend. Obviously she still lives in your heart. That can never be taken away.

    367 days ago
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