Has anyone read this article?
I'm very curious to hear what people think.
I'm still processing it. I know that being overweight/obese most of my life has held me back. I've been bullied and missed out on a lot of opportunities. I've been told I had a pretty face, if only I lost weight.... My mom used to tell me that and it definitely held me back from dating thinking no one will find me attractive. She later apologized saying she regretted it, knowing how much it impacted me. I know I've missed out on a few potentially great relationships because of my lack of confidence and low self-esteem.
I got to my lowest weight -180 - by exercising like a fiend, 5 or 6 times a week. I felt great but still felt like I was overweight. I look at pictures of myself from then and I looked AMAZING and had so much energy! Life got busy and I reduced. and eventually stopped, exercising. My best friends moved away and I had a hard time making friends. I wasn't exercising and was a ball of stress and anxiety so ate my feelings. I ate the loneliness, stress, anxiety, fear and anger.
That cycle has continued several times and at one point I was definitely healthy and obese but now I'm at the point where I have high blood pressure, GERD, aches and pain and anxiety and I'm 43. I absolutely think that people of all sizes deserve to be loved but for me, it's become a major health issue. I hate going to the doctor. The last time I went she talked about weight loss and said I know qualify for weight-loss surgery. I'm not at that point yet.
My last blog post was about starting over and I was motivated and that went well for a little while but quickly I feel back to dealing with loneliness and stress and anxiety with food and very little movement. So what is different now? I've realized I have to take steps now otherwise I won't make it to my 50th birthday. There are so many things I'm missing because of how I feel. I don't want to stay home when my family goes hiking since I feel like I can't keep up. I don't want to be 50 and alone. I don't want to stress about travelling, about whether or not I'll fit in a plane seat comfortably or get breathless sight seeing. Or stay home from a party because I feel like I feel terrible. My goal weight BMI still puts me in the overweight category but I felt so good at that weight.
So nothing is attainable without goals that are specific, measurable, achievable, results-focused, and time- bound. I'm going to start small so the goal is attainable and I've actually already taken a step (ha, ha) - I'm wearing my fit-bit again and my goal is 8000 steps minimum a day. That will help with weight loss and dealing with stress. My other goal is to go to the gym 2 times a week. I can fit that into my schedule. The other challenge is overeating. My goal is to stay within my calorie range 6 out of 7 days a week. That doesn't give me free range to binge on that day but it means I won't beat myself up. The other things that help me with stress and anxiety are yoga and meditation.
So to sum up - weekly:
- walk 8000 steps a day
- go to the gym 2 times a week
- stay within calorie range 6/7 days a week
- 5-10 mins of yoga daily
- 5 min meditation daily
Okay,1 day at a time....