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Friday, September 21, 2018

I guess I am weird. I have no close friends. I work in a Dr office it is just me and the Doctor (he doesn't like to talk much). I don't know what is wrong with me that I can't have close friends. I have friends but no one to hang out with or to craft with. I love to scrapbook or make cards. I go to crops and work aside lovely ladies. I have two sisters. My middle sister doesn't want a close relationship and my youngest doesn't live here (she is very much a loner doesn't want anyone knowing what is going on in her life). My Mother was my best friend we did everything together. We lost her 4 years ago to Alzheimer's. I have struggled with that emptiness since. I haven't found anyone that I can share and do things like I could her. I have friends that I text or chat with in church but none that are a deep relationship. I so miss that with Mom. Though the last 2 years of her life I didn't have that either but I was so busy working, going to college, taking care of my family and her. I am 51 and alone in a crowded room.

I have gained 45 pounds since Mom died. I am at the 300 door. I need to change. I have to do it alone. My husband thinks that I just need an app or a new cookbook and I will lose it all. Don't get me wrong DH is a great guy. I didn't gain it over night it isn't going away over night. I know most of my problem is that I sit too much. I work an office job and most of it is sitting. Then I going home and after supper I sit and craft. Because crafting makes me happy and relaxed.

I know that there is nothing anyone can do but me but I just wanted to vent . Thank you
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  • ANNIESADVENTURE
    We hear your heart. You are in a tough spot. There will never by anyone like your mom and that special friendship you shared with her. It take time to develop strong friendships. Everyone is so busy now.
    Virtual friendships are not quite the same but we are here for you. There are so many wonderful caring people here who want only the best for you.
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    444 days ago
  • LINDAMARIEZ1
    You are so very very special!

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  • CHRISTINEBWD
    emoticon You can vent here anytime... emoticon
    889 days ago
  • KITTYHAWK1949
    no real friends and never was that close with family. Nice that you had your mom. My sister and mom were close (mom died about 5 years ago). Now that I retired, I don't really even have small chit chat much. As you can tell many of us are also in the no close friends category. I started going to our senior center some just to have a few hours a few days a week around other people. I'm trying to be my own best friend. Vent whenever needed. We all understand. You are not alone.

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    889 days ago
  • JULIEANN_HALME
    We all need to let it out somewhere! Are you able to join a gym? I've found it is a good way to meet people. Plus it is inspiring to get to know people who have lost massive amounts or are on the journey with you!
    889 days ago
  • STARCHIEF
    🙋‍♀️Your not alone I am in the same boat as you are in and the only difference I am 63 . Unfortunately it is hard to understand siblings even after their gone . Be strong and positive ! You can do it ! 👍 Do it for yourself ! 🙂
    890 days ago
  • CHERYLHURT
    I have no close friends and my neighbors cut us off when we didn’t vote their way. I adore my beloved...my Mum just died ...no family...
    890 days ago
  • FITNIK2020
    Crafting is solitary. What about a new hobby, or a class of some kind. I have a very few friends but many acquaintances through fitness. And volunteering.
    890 days ago
  • BIRBKITTEN1234
    We are always here to listen! You can have what you need and want. The answers will come to you. I'm sorry for your loss of your mom.
    890 days ago
  • ALLEYCATPA
    You're not alone. I have no close friends either. I'm afraid to really be myself with people because I'm always worried what they think. So I keep people at a distance.

    Are there any local craft groups you can join? Maybe the social aspect will be nice, rather than just crafting alone.

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    890 days ago
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