Friday, October 25, 2019
I've been working with a counselor on my eating habits and issues. One of the surprising things that we've uncovered is that I have some grieving that I need to do.
I have two family members who I've cut out of my life for the sake of my own sanity. One of them I've come to terms with - it happened many years ago & I'm at peace with it. But the other - my youngest daughter - is more difficult. I love her very much, but both she and her significant other are very toxic. The hardest part is that she has children - my grandchildren.
For several years I tried to preserve the relationship for the sake of the grandchildren. I wanted them to have some normalcy in their lives - plus of course I loved spending time with them. But eventually it became too much - the gaslighting & manipulating that the adults were doing was finally more than I could handle.
After I severed the relationship I tried to just forget about it and move on, but of course it's NOT that easy. So my counselor suggested that I begin journalling - and that is what I'll be using this blog for, at least for awhile.