2020 - Here we go
Tuesday, January 07, 2020
It was a very rough end to 2019. Family sick and Christmas dinner being missed. Mom's kidney failure is acting up which affects her heart issues. Praying she doesn't end up back in hospital.
2019 for me, was ruled by emotional eating and the feeling of just being tired of trying to do better. Too much time spent comparing me to others and not believing in myself.
But I'm ready to press on. I'm working first on not comparing me to others and what they can do and stuff. I am ME and am unique. My challenges are different than some and the same as others. I am taking time to be nice to me and reinforcing that I can make healthier choices.
I rejoined WW and the Active & Fit program, however I still have to go to the gym to sign up there and figure out what stuff would be good for me to start with. I am trying to journal daily with complete food journals and track my mental/emotional health.
I'm trying to meet my daily step goals. Last week was off because I was sick and down for 3 days.
I also need to work on cleaning house and purging unnecessary clutter as that causes both of us anxiety. I did some things and had 5 bags for donation, but there is still far more to go through, clean and organize. I need to keep momentum, even if just a little each week.
I know I can do this....but have told myself otherwise for decades.