Day 18: no sugary snacks
Friday, February 21, 2020
Another no sugary snack day.
Also a week where I have cooked meals every night. Not the healthiest meals - last night was hamburgers - but at least it was made at home, right? I know the whole family will slowly adjust to home-cooked food again. This is me stepping in that direction.
I wanted to write a bit about my mood and my stress levels because I know that in the first week, especially, this was the toughest thing to deal with.
I've realised that I'm not in a bad mood or a depressed state at the moment. Unlike what other people say about feeling a lot happier, I'm just feeling normal. I'm not elated about life, but I'm also not in despair or feeling hopeless. If I were to describe my state of mind, it is probably "confident" - feeling more like I can manage, rather than a state of feeling constantly overwhelmed.
I'm also not taking life's little knocks as badly. A small example was that the scale was up a bit this morning. Instead of going into an immediate downward spiral about never losing weight, I immediately recognised that it was probably due to the hamburger I had had the night before and possibly a bruschetta sandwich with goat's cheese. My stomach felt heavy, and it made sense that heavier foods would do that.
Everything is contextual, though (that's the researcher in me!). I am in a period where I don't have immediate travel for another month, so I can focus on routines at home. As well as my eating habits, I've been able to have regular jogs - three times a week. Jogging has always made a difference to my mental health, so having it back in my life regularly (I was jogging, but sometimes only getting 1 jog a week in) does make a difference.
Stress is still extremely high, but without the sugar I am having to find other, healthier ways of addressing it. Expressing my needs to my husband, making time alone, jogging, even blogging helps. I can't wish the stress away. I need to manage it, and not hide away from it.
Regarding my son - I haven't noticed a change in his behaviour, but I have noticed a change in his physique - his stomach, like mine, does not look as bloated. I always notice an extreme rise in energy after he's had sugar, and there is less of that, obviously.