Wednesday, April 08, 2020
To be beautiful means to be yourself. You don’t need to be accepted by others. You need to accept yourself.
Big statement especially when I'm stuck in a rut and clawing my way out. Every single day I look into the mirror and I see my reflection and I'm okay with it, as long as it's from shoulders up. We have a ceiling to floor length mirror in our hallway, unavoidable all day. I try not to look but its impossible. One look and its goodbye to me. I begin to process all the areas I must work on. By the time I'm done butchering the pig my moral is in the pig's pen. It doesn't help that I'm bombarded with pencil thin women everywhere around me. Whether I know them or not. Some work extremely hard for the body's they have. Some have SO much work done on themselves its amazing they can remain standing. I know to each there own and I'm happy for them but when am I going to get mine?! I'm overwhelmed with people trying to sell me products to assist with my weight loss. I refuse to drink supplements as there good for a while but when you can't afford them anymore you're back to square one. Same goes for paying into a membership. I need to be able to do this on my own. I was able to gain the weight all by myself I should be able to lose it without having to drink a concoction or pop a pill or pay into a hundreds of dollars membership.
I don't need anybody else's acceptance but my own. Might take me longer then a year to reach my goal weight. I never in my wildest dreams thought I could lose 25lbs all by myself but I did. So I may not have a super model's body, I may at times look a little like "Pooh" bear but I achieved this body by myself both directions. Both gaining and losing, one day I will proudly stand at my healthy goal weight with my head held high. 😊