Milk and Brownies and Jeans and A Lot on the Mind
Wednesday, May 13, 2020
I sit here writing drinking a massive glass of ice cold whole milk and eating fresh brownies. I haven't been on here in days. I feel like the last week has been a blur, a busy busy blur. Part of being "essential" during the pandemic means I'm still earning an income, but it also means that I don't have time to sit around and find myself like someone else who might be sitting at home trying to figure out their next move. Major plusses and minuses to each...I do not judge I do know where I'm at and what I'm up against...
Also early last week (or maybe late in the week prior) I realized that no one is really on this site anymore. I used it years ago (YEARS) to catapult my weightloss and it was great. Now it just feels...sad. Filled with ads and washed up emojis that were even kind of lame when I was on the site in 2005. That being said, it is what it is...
I have to figure out my next step. Do I use this ghost town of a site for myself solo, as if it's an outdated but effective library to track my steps? Or do I take time researching to find a better site and go there, even if it's a paid one? Decisions, decisions...
I guess the weight of all that hangs on me and maybe that's where the extra pound came from this week. Oooooorrrr maybe it's the brownies. :)
All this blah being said, I've recognized some really good things....
- My husband is definitely supportive
- I definitely feel a little stuck navigating the baby's sleep schedule, ready to both use that as excuses and also use that to elicit unnecessary worry. If he cries and I have to stop exercising, then that's how it goes and there's no use in stressing about it up front.
- I think I really need to track my food in advance, planning out more and keeping to more of a schedule. Right now I just shove food in my mouth at all hours of the day with little thought because I'm working through my breaks. Working too much, really. I need to chill the f out on all that.
- I want to work more on my list of CYA foods. I need more foods that help me out when I'm leaning towards overeating on something a little indulgent. An example is this: Chili. My husband makes an awesome chili. Do I need to have 4 cups of it with cheese and plain yogurt on it? No. Could I have maybe 2 cups and then have, say, a bowl of broccoli? Yes. I've gotta start looking at my indulgent foods and consider my CSA buddies.
-I NEED to figure out a walk routine. I've been great with my exercising in this first week but need a walk plan.
All things to do. Yes.
In good news, I got a pair of jeans that I think I love, and I have some new sneakers coming in the mail tomorrow. Getting geared up for more and more exercise. Yes.