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It's been a while since I've blogged..but here I am!

Thursday, August 13, 2020

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Hello dear sparklers! I'm sorry I haven't been on spark as much as I'd like to be. My life has once again turned upside down.

First of all the pandemic is KILLING my little consignment gallery. I closed it in March because FL is absolutely NOT SAFE from the virus due to the stupid Governor who refuses to shut down businesses where the virus runs rampant with any authority. He flip flops back and forth about what he does and doesn't do. Gives NO direction to small businesses on implementing safe reopen procedures.

I re-opened the gallery about June 10th and was open until about the 16th but got so tired of asking customers to PLEASE wear masks and if they didn't have them I had disposables. I got cussed out more times than I care to tell you about with people ranting and raving about THEIR civil liberites being violated and they didn't HAVE to wear masks because its a FREE country and they can do as they damn well please.

Well...here's the dea...l if I get Covid...I'm cooked! I have no one to take care of me and if I get shipped off to a hospital there is no one that can come and see me so I am super cautious about my health. My health is NOT worth risking for a bunch of idiots who have no clue how their selfish precious liberties could be the death nail for people around them.

So I've been feeling guilty and depressed for not being in the gallery. I've done the best I can to put my merchandise online and I am opening the gallery 'by appointment' for highly interested customers. I've made a few sales...but I've also been 'stiffed' a few times with no shows also.

I have to question what the heck is wrong with people? They feel no responsiblilty or courtesy toward others anymore. It's all so sad to me.I'm sure it's always been that way to a degree but it seems with this pandemic people are just worse...angry, obnoxious...and ready to SNAP.

I've also been going through my friend rooster here on Spark. So many of my really close friends have just disappeared. They were people I developed a deep connection with...FOR YEARS...and poof they just disappear. Some were sick so one wonders if they passed on? Some were regular bloggers and then poof...just gone. I miss them...I still worry about them...we do that with friends don't we?

I am still sewing my corona masks and enjoying them. I want to sell them in the gallery if I EVER reopen. I was thinking about just biting the bullet and reopening in a few weeks but I'm not convinced it's worth it. What I saw when I reopened those few days in June were just people that were not serious buyers. They were people just wanting to get out of the house and have something to do. I can't blame them for that. BUT...if they refuse to wear a mask...I've got better things to do then sit there being exposed to a deadly virus with no serious sales. It's just not worth it to me!

In the meantime one good thing has come to pass and that is my new eating plan that has allowed me to lose 11 pounds in 13 days. I have another 50..maybe 60 pounds to shed. I was fat BEFORE the lockdown and my weight was just going NUTS during it. Up and up and UP!

When you are on lockdown while in deep grief over the loss of my dear hubby of 45 years you comfort eat. It was really getting out of control. I gained 12 pounds on TOP of the heavy weight that I already was. I scared myself...what if I developed diabetes, what if I couldn't have the dexterity to continue moving furniture around on the floor of my business. I KNEW I had to do something and then a dear friend told me about an eating plan that was doing wonders for her!

Caring is sharing!

I eat one time a day within a 1 hour timeframe. I eat a MONSTER salad with plenty of low carb veggies and 6-8 oz of protein on it. The other 23 hours of the day I fast. Just non calorie drinks..mostly water but sometimes flavored fizzy water and if I really think I'm losing it I have a bone broth. Am I hungry...no not really..but do I 'FEEL' like I need something YES...I do.

I just try to stay busy and ignore it. BUT..losing a pound a day on most days IS incentative to keep on keepin' on. RIGHT?

On a sadder note some of you will recall my 'Save Our Home' fight that has been raging on for the past 10 years. Well..the bank did dismiss the case in 2017 because they could not come up with proof of the original note...why...because they destroyed it way back before 2010 because the loan was a MERS loan. Mers loans were electronically stored because the banks were too cheap to pay for storage on loan docs. Because they dismissed the case FL law requires them to pay my attorney fees for the defense for TEN years. They are trying everything they can do to whittle down those fees they owe me and pay as little as possible. Once legal fees are paid they can refile the foreclosure and get another bite of the apple. That is their plan...during a PANDEMIC no less!!

It's a long drawn out story that will bore you so I will spare you the details...but I can tell you that every step of the way this bank has forged, lied, fabricated documents, dual tracked us and they STILL are attempting to steal my beautiful home! If they don't have the correct document they just forge one and the court and the judges look the other way..it's all SO dispicable!!

I say it's not over til the Fat LADY sings (actually hoping it's the 'skinny' lady singing...but I'm exhaused, I'm stressed, I'm sad, and I'm feeling so hopeless.

All I can do is continue to put one foot in front of the other and keep on fighting. Please send up prayers for me. If I lose my beloved home so full of memories of my dear lost son and my dear lost husband I really do not know what I will do. I have lived here since it was designed and built for us back in 2001. It means everything to me!

That CAN'T happen..sometimes the little homeowner HAS to win against the greed monger banks! After 10 years of fighting I hope it can finally be ME!

I miss all of you my lovely friends! I'll try to pop in more often because you all mean so much to me...please know that!...and please send up prayers for the protection of my beloved home and small business...this has been a H*LL of a year!! emoticon
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  • NEWFLABULESS
    Many prayers that the fight for your home will soon be over and you can live peacefully knowing that the RIGHT person does win. I'm so sorry that you are still having to deal with this stress and bull$^!#. I hope that you are able to sell some stuff to get your business going again and produce some income and friendships.

    Continuing to keep you in my prayers for strength and prosperity!
    23 days ago
  • PICKIE98
    The weather here is beautiful!
    38 days ago
  • PICKIE98
    Did you make a sale with that last appointment? I hope so.
    47 days ago
  • JUDITHANNIE
    Just saw your blog. Have really been thinking about you a lot. We are back to our summer home right now. Planning on coming back in November sometime. I'm sorry to hear about all your troubles. I know you have your spark friends but it's not the same as family. You have my phone number you can call anytime. I'm here for you. Love you Bobbi
    48 days ago
  • PICKIE98
    How are you doing today? Miss hearing wnat you are doing. How you are doing...
    48 days ago
  • NGCHILD
    Prayers for a good outcome!


    57 days ago
  • JUSTLYLE
    Wow, you've sure been busy. Hope and pray that everything works out soon. Life sure can be chalinging! The Old Farmer , they call the Skeeter !
    65 days ago
  • PICKIE98
    Today I will have a great day! My choice.
    65 days ago
  • PICKIE98
    It HAS been a bad month, but I am praying for you dear friend. We can just be here for each other. You know you always have us to contact...
    67 days ago
  • JAZZEJR
    Oh nooo... You poor thing. That bank needs the wrath of God to rain down on it, and the supporting court system as well. You are so right to guard your health against uncaring idiots who refuse to wear masks. Were they never told that their "rights" end where my nose begins, and their aerosol virus reaches my nose without a mask. Just stay home like the rest of us, Bobbi.
    67 days ago
  • BUTTONPOPPER1
    Oh Bobbi. It had been a while since you wrote about your travails with the bank and the negligent lawyers and all that, so I was hoping that meant that all was well. I'm so sorry to hear otherwise, and that they've started it all up again. What is WITH those people? I will pray that your home will be safe. Really, and now it's Mackey's home, too.

    And so sorry about the rude rubberneckers at the gallery. It definitely sounds like it's not worth it to open up and make yourself vulnerable to whatever germs they bring into the store. I wish it were a nationwide mandate to wear masks indoors in public places. That would take the onus off business owners like you, who've been put into the impossible position of enforcing basic safety measures.

    I sure hope things get better, Bobbi Anne. But your weight loss must be exciting! Keep up the good work!
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    67 days ago
  • ICECUB
    IT IS AMAZZING HOW SELFISH PEOPLE CAN BE. I WILL BE PRAYING FOR YOU
    69 days ago
  • PACEKA1
    I think you are doing amazingly well, Bobbi, given all you've been through in the last year. You need to listen the that sensible little voice in your head regarding your Gallery, and I know you'll do the right thing.
    69 days ago
  • ANGELA-105
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    69 days ago
  • ALEXSGIRL1
    wow you have had one hell of a year i also hate it when people just leave here with no word like our friendship doesnt matter , I will pray that you can keep your home Hugs
    69 days ago
  • JAZZYGF
    HAD EXTRA TIME TODAY AND CAME UPON YOUR BLOG I WAS FEELING SORRY FOR MYSELF BUT READING YOUR BLOG I HAVE A LOT TO BE THANKFUL FOR.
    SORRY ABOUT YOUR LITTLE SHOP CUSTOMERS NOT LISTENING HERE IN OHIO WE ARE LOADED ARE COUNTY ALONE JUST HAD 50 AT A NURSING
    AND SO SORRY ABOUT YOUR HUBBY PASSING I DONT THINK WE ARE FRIENDS BUT WOURL LIKE TO BE emoticon
    69 days ago
  • IMUSTLOSEIT1
    You have had one H$LL of a year, and now the house worry on top of all of this. Just take one day at a time, and battle this day. I am so sorry. Glad you have been able to control the weight though. Stick with it, and prevail.
    69 days ago
  • GARDENCHRIS
    glad you are still here and still fighting, I know it gets tiring to say the least, hang in there
    69 days ago
  • KENDRACARROLL
    Hugs and prayers.
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    69 days ago
  • SABLENESS
    Good for you on the weight loss! I'm making efforts to turn around too. With my mom's death and everything else this year, it has been a tough one, and I'm a stress eater. I'm back up to my highest weight, and the only way to go from here is DOWN. Have you thought of contacting your news channel or your newspaper with your horrible house saga? I too wonder what's wrong with people. Stress brings out the best and the worst, but there sure is a lot of worst going around. I'm a longtime Sparker too, and I really appreciate my longterm friends who've stuck around. Hang in there, my dear. You've come so far this year. HUG from the other side of the state.
    69 days ago
  • BBONET
    Congratulations on your weight loss and I am so happy for you!! It is sad that people have such a hard time respecting and caring for each other. I don't like the mask but I wear it for my safety and those around me. It is so sad that you are still fight the save your house battle. These banks should be ashamed. You are in my payers ad thoughts. You are a warrior so keep up your spirits and never give up!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    69 days ago
  • KATRINAKAT23
    I think of you often and always hope you are doing well. I have bought 2 face shields ( friend bought one for my birthday next month). I can’t wear a mask as I can’t breath through my nose and if mouth covered I suffocate or at least feel like I am. We have had more new cases in the past 2-3 weeks than we have had since COVID started in March. Some stores won’t serve you without a mask and Walmart did this on Wednesday.

    I too wonder about people I haven’t heard from for a while. I myself don’t post a lot so no one cares if they here from me or not but I miss and worry about the ones who used to post and now don’t. I did start a youtube channel so made a couple friends. My channel is very very small. Take care Bobbie think of you often and pray you are doing well.
    69 days ago
  • MSLZZY
    I have missed you as well and am so glad to hear you are still fighting
    the good fight. So sorry the gallery isn't safe for you. We see it here too
    but Florida is much more crowded. Stay safe and blog when you can. HUGS!
    69 days ago
  • LYNCHD05
    Bobbi you are a fighter for sure and I can’t believe the mess you are trying to clean up as far as your home is concerned. I really hope the little guy wins this time. Someone should make a documentary about your battle.
    As far as customers not wearing masks they should not be allowed in any store. What is the matter with people!!!

    Take care my friend and it is very good to hear from you.
    70 days ago
  • ALIHIKES
    Bobbi sorry I didn’t realize that spell check changed your name in my prior post
    70 days ago
  • ALIHIKES
    Bobby, it is great to hear from you. I am glad you closed your store for the duration. It is not worth getting the infection because idiots refuse to wear masks! Masks are mandatory in my state, but some people refuse to wear them anyway. This has been a very crazy rough year for you. I am praying for you, and that you can keep your home. You have so many precious memories of a loving husband and son.

    Congratulations on losing weight. I have been losing weight also, but not through a very stringent plan. I re-joined weight watchers. Whatever program works! We can do it! We deserve to become healthier and more fit.
    70 days ago
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    70 days ago
  • CHRISTINEBWD
    emoticon Prayers for your home. And congrats on the weight loss. :-)
    70 days ago
  • SLIMMERJESSE
    I recently purged over 2,000 friends, many of whom were no longer here. Been wondering about you. You definitely are a fighter. This is such a difficult time and you've had one thing after another. I do keep you in my prayers. Big hug.
    70 days ago
  • SHOAPIE
    Your tenacity is incredible. You’ve been fighting this for so long, I can’t figure out why the bank doesn’t just give up and let it be. But as with the masks I’ve learned that so many people only care about themselves. You have been strong. And as it is your gallery you don’t have to let the maskless people in. If I were you I wouldn’t want to take the risk of getting COVID-19. I’m so glad I’m retired and don’t mind my own company. And I have my dog who makes me get out of the house for walks a couple times a day. He does keep me sane. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    70 days ago
  • LKASOFF
    I don’t blame you for closing your store. Your health is more important! I used to live in Tampa, we moved back to Virginia to be near our kids. Congratulations on your weight loss. I will keep you in my prayers 🙏🏻
    70 days ago
  • LKASOFF
    Wow! What a year you have had. I’m sorry for your loss of your dear hubby. I can’t imagine the pain you have survived. And I’m extremely sorry to hear how badly the greedy bank is treating you!!!! I do hope you win that fight.
    70 days ago
  • TERMITEMOM
    Wow! That is a GIANT weight loss! I am so impressed and proud of you!
    I have been thinking of you and was wondering how the gallery was doing... I don;t not blame you for asking people to wear a mask. This crazy to see that people just do not care.
    And prayers for sticking with the fight for your home! You are such a fighter Bobbi! What a model you are.
    70 days ago
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