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Can I tell you about my running?

Wednesday, October 28, 2020

Normally I am not self-conscious at all. It never crosses my mind that someone might be watching or judging me. I am joyously oblivious if anyone thinks I don't belong or am not doing something the way I "should" be doing it. Like water off a duck, the eyes of judgy people don't make a dent in my hand-spun armor.

Except for running.

When I started running at (cough) 49 I was so blown away by my ability to run 60 seconds I wanted to shout it from the mountain tops but honestly, didn't want people to feel bad because they weren't running as well. I also didn't want to let my runner friends know for because of how slow I was. I even got to a point where I wouldn't run down any street on which anyone I knew lived. This got more and more tough as I live in a smallish town and know someone on just about every street in town. Then I ran my first 5k, then my first triathlon. Yes I was slow but I realized I was never last... in fact I even took first in my age category once (!!)

After months and months of not running I laced up my tennis shoes and got out there starting Couch To 5k over once again! That was memorial day and now, 5 months later, I have been running 3-4 times a week every single week! The best part is I have taken to driving myself to different trail heads in my area so my runs are all in the woods and along the river. I am not sure which is better for my well-being but between running and forest bathing I haven't taken anything for anxiety in months! Running is my drug and my rock.

Am I any faster than I was at 49? Ha! No but I am no longer avoiding streets where I know people. Honestly, though, I don't run much on sidewalks because the forest is where I love to sweat. But I don't go on Facebook with any of my successes. I keep those for the Community Feed here on Sparkpeople. I am not sure why but it seems I'd just be annoying if I did too much social media about my running. Am I ashamed? No. Am I shy? Never. Am I afraid if I waste too much energy on sharing my running that there'll be none left for actual running? Probably. I just can't bring myself to post much about it.

But we're all friends here. Right? So I'll brag a bit. On May 25 it was all I could do to run 60 seconds then walk 90 seconds back and forth 8 times. Now I am running 60+ minutes without dropping to a walk. It is the best thing ever. I'm slow. I'm as slow as a turtle stampede in peanut butter but I run. It is my joy and my challenge. There is nothing better than having room for improvement and filling it with love and determination. My next goal is 5 miles! It may take almost an hour and a half but I know I can do it so why not try?

All of the photos on this blog were taken while I was running this summer. Taking a photo while running is also a new trick I learned!

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    Love your exuberant joy in running -- I used to do a LOT of running and really miss it (hip and knee issues . . . )
    124 days ago
    I love to hear about your running!!

    Can I point out something to you though? You are never responsible for how others feel about anything. You can twist yourself into a pretzel trying to control how others feel about what you are doing or what you just said, and that is a lot of stress on you; a lot of heavy lifting.

    It would be such a gift to everyone personally if we each understood that we get to feel what we want, and we can choose good or bad feelings about a thing. Our feelings are our responsibility. If everyone owned that, what an amazing world it would be.

    I'm glad you are no longer avoiding running down the streets of people you know!
    124 days ago
  • LORI-K
    I looooove hearing about your running! You go on and brag all you want to us fellow Sparkers! And elsewhere too if you choose! On Facebook, I only post my fitness to stories so if anyone wants to see it, they have to deliberately go there. I don’t make people scroll through my fitness on the feed there, because, let’s face it, most of them are haters and judgers.
    Spark is a perfect place to share! You’re doing amazing and I love your pics too! Beautiful scenery you have to run in.
    Keep up the great work!
    125 days ago
  • RETAT60
    Awesome! Knowing what brings you joy and doing it is an amazing experience, especially when you are in nature. Enjoy every foot fall on your next run!
    125 days ago
    Looooove this blog!
    I am so happy for you and proud to know you!
    You are an inspiration to us all.
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    125 days ago
  • HOLLYM48
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    125 days ago
    Love it. I need to find new locations for running to inspire me. Thanks for sharing!

    125 days ago
    "It is my joy and my challenge." What wonderful words about something you do for yourself❣️ And what lovely places you run. Happy healthy!
    125 days ago
    Good for you!! Doing it for you is way more important than speed.

    125 days ago
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