Yesterday I started planning my eating. It went well and I was quite proud of myself. This morning, when I jumped on the scale, it was up, not down. "Ah," I thought to myself, "so the mental work begins". Because, today I need to keep focused on healthy eating without the benefit of seeing the scale at the same number, or lower.
I did some other measurements today, also. I measured my waist and my thighs. Again, these were not happy numbers. My waist is 38 inches, when before my pregnancy it was 30 inches. My hips are not as bad, I have about 4 inches to lose there. But, it's hard to see. Hard to face the reality of the pre-baby numbers and the post-baby numbers.
However, here is a picture of me a week before I gave birth:
And one of me at my current weight:
The difference is dramatic. I did not measure my waist at full term, but I can see from the pictures that there has clearly been a big reduction. The other thing I need to tell myself is that the journey back down to pre-pregnancy weight and size is a slow one, at least for me. Last time it took me 9 months to reach my pre-pregnancy weight. This time it may take longer as my circumstances are so different. So, today, I need to remind myself to be patient and to take each day as it comes. And also to remember to measure multiple sources - not just the scale. This is where tracking food can be very useful. If I have eaten within my calorie range, I can trust that the scale will eventually go down.
My main focus is cutting down on stress-eating and at the moment I am managing that by setting a schedule for when I eat - to avoid mindless eating. So, breakfast, 11am snack, lunchtime, 4pm snack and dinner. I want to focus on this for a week before starting the more intensive calorie tracking. I am also focusing on food reduction / healthy eating options first as this is my main issue and I am also reluctant to get too focused on exercise when my body is still recovering. I am doing gentle yoga and going walking, but that is all quite low calorie burning, for now.
So, for today, I am just telling myself that showing up is half the battle.