10 years this September
Thursday, February 11, 2021
I have been wondering around Sparkpeople and noticed the team I first joined when I started Sparkpeople - I was part of the September 2011 Labour Day group. I had a quick look on the page (I always find this intriguing) and I imagine like most of these groups, there is very little activity. Sometimes I wonder what happened to some of the people I first connected with on Sparkpeople, but who have moved on from this site. Did they achieve their goals? Were they able to maintain them?
It's hard to believe it's been 10 years. Then I felt a little bit inspired. It would be good to celebrate my 10 year anniversary by being back within a happy weight range. It's a good motivation as I grapple with the mental work of the weight gain from baby no. 2 and also the way my body looks right now.
I have worked hard on the criss-cross effect. I've managed 5000 steps almost every day, focused on keeping within a healthy calorie count for one meal a day, made sure I dress nicely and get out for a walk each day - all healthy steps. The scale is still stuck in the same place, but today as I faced my weekly weight in, I did not despair as much. I just thought to myself that I must still be eating more calories than I need to, and that I need to keep monitoring what is going in. I also wondered if the increase in exercise might mean some muscle growth, which might be stabilising my weight a bit. It was more positive self-talk - and it felt good.
It is easy to despair when I look at a picture of myself a year ago and then look at my body right now. I am only a few kilograms under the weight I was when I started this journey 10 years ago. To think how surprised I would be if I could jump back in time and tell myself that I would have two children, have run multiple half marathons, have a PhD, and done all this within a healthy and happy weight range - I would not believe it!
My body is still recovering from child-birth. My mind is still adjusting to two children in our lives - and what that means for us. I am in a better place than I was a week ago with my lifestyle. Yes, there is still a long way to go, but every little bit counts.
This coming week I will add some indoor cycling to my exercise routine. My stomach does not yet feel properly healed enough for running.
I will start to focus on what I eat for lunch and keep that meal within 400 calories.
I will keep on walking. I will keep on with a breakfast under 400 calories. I will keep reading articles and blogs about healthy lifestyle changes.
Right now it really does feel like I will never lose the baby weight. But that is just a feeling. Let me not give up just yet. Who knows what the next 10 years will bring?