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10/28/20 12:06 A

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Morning spent at the hospital for annual lab work and bone density test. Sis also had tests and xray she needed so we went together.

While running errands after that, we had breakfast sandwich at McDonald's. No beverages. Too early for my one-meal-a-day. Came home and took a nap.
For supper, RJ added onions to a Kroger pepperoni pizza. I also had an apple afterwards.
Total calories for my two-meal day were 960.

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A day without the grands. Ah. quiet. Relaxing.
Did I relax? No. Dove head first into cleaning and re-organizing. That's never done. Woke me up last week during the night, thinking about all the stuff that needs to be done. Mostly sort out and give away. The next generation is not into family history at this point and does not want our stuff. Someday when we are gone, they will wish they knew more about their origins.

I have too many books. We have a library with floor-to-ceiling built-in bookcases, above the 2-car garage. We have bookcases or shelves in most rooms, even one hallway. Somehow they never make it into Ebay for resale. Starting my goal list for 2021. Rid out a lot of books. Good-bye, old friends. I would rather someone have them that really wants them than for the next generation to throw them in the trash after I'm gone.

I have early morning appointment at the hospital tomorrow. Bone density, and then annual lab work. Sis has an xray and lab work. We'll go together. RJ has a podiatrist appt midday. So no grands here tomorrow.

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Down 0.8 pound this morning. Moved into a new decade on the scale.

Counting down to the really big milestone goal: 9.6 pounds to go!

Experiencing this loss makes me appreciate IF and OMAD. Any other plan I would have felt like a failure after eating like I did yesterday. Carbs, processed foods, no fresh veggies. With this program I can flex to fit the occasion. I have more days where I can choose fresh veggies with protein. Eating like I did yesterday slows the weight loss but I still lost 0.8 pounds because I was mindful of total calories.

Spark has upped my calorie limit again. I will let it ride for awhile. If I ate that many calories in a day, I would gain weight. That is how my body responds. They are probably basing that on exercise. They keep posting a warning when I post exercise. My exercise is old-lady exercise done at my pace. It consists mostly of exercises from Physical Therapy. It is not a robust program for the average younger person. It targets areas of the body (extremities) because they need the help. My routine consists of a series of modified "kicks" and high steps, using the rangemaster for shoulder range-of-motion, and walking. Sometimes I do arm curls and occasionally stairs, walked at my snail's pace.

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Why is it so hard to stay the course in the evening? I've had my one-meal for the day earlier. Then when it's evening, I get an urge to eat. I haven't figured out the underlying reason. Maybe it's age related since I didn't have a problem with it when I was younger.
Even when I wasn't doing IF and OMAD, that would happen. I think it's another version of the munchie monster that has plagued me for a few years. Even when I wasn't restricting calories and eating whatever I wanted, the same thing happened. I put on a lot of calories with late night eating.
When I've indulged in late night eating, it is not ultimately satisfying. It makes my stomach upset. Then I tell myself I will never do this again, but I usually did.
I will research this later. Probably a perfectly logical explanation. I can't be the only one experiencing this.

I have not given in to it since I've been back on track with IF and OMAD. It takes about 3 days for my mind to adjust to strict IF and OMAD. So this is not related to my plan. Maybe a body rhythm? I don't think I always had this.

I tell myself to stay strong. I can eat again tomorrow. Later I am so glad I did.
* * * * *
Today was a planned high carb day. Spaghetti is a favorite of mine. We don't have it often. With the change in numbers, RJ made chili dogs instead. No veggies unless I could the chili on the dogs. I added grapes.
Better eating tomorrow.
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It's been a busy day. Two sets of grands here (5 kids between 3 and 12). Various parents were here at different times and stayed for awhile.
What a lot of noise and energy 5 kids can make! The noise level was incredible! The kids were so excited to see cousins they don't see often.
Self-directed play. Hide and seek. Follow the leader. Brat and Barbie dolls. Action figures. Cars and trucks. A Disney-theme disk with wheels that they take turns laying on and going fast, or pushing each other on it. They are not allowed to stand on it when moving because of the risk of injury. Dominoes.Pick-up-sticks.
The rule is that you have to pick up and put away what you are playing with before you can get anything else out. It works well and saves us old ones picking up after them or tripping over toys.
Thank goodness their parents showed up early tonight. It's 8:30 PM. The house is tidied up. Dishes are done. We are ready for bed.

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Down 2 more pounds. Now I'm getting into new territory. I have not seen this weight since March 2011.

That was another life-changing period for me. Dad was in and out of the hospital and rehab for 3 months, starting in Oct 2010. I stayed with him at the hospital and rehab, eating mostly vending machine food which put on the pounds. We brought him home in January. Sis moved in to help with his 24-hour care. He passed away in April 2012.

Only 10.2 pounds to meet Goal #3 which is the next mile-marker on the scale. It's a big one.

Goal #4 is 23 more pounds to get back to Spark starting weight.

I re-set my weight-ticker to show weight loss from my top weight (May 2019) to my Spark starting weight that I am trying to get back to.
Once I get back to the starting weight, I will restructure the weight-ticker to look like it did when I started Spark in 2006. It will go from my Spark starting weight to my true goal weight.

I will continue to collect the Spark Pounds Lost awards to show loss from my top weight (May 2019), not my original starting weight.

So for now, that's 33 pounds to get back to my Spark starting weight and the big ticker re-set. Traveling through time back to 2006.

It may sound compicated to anyone reading this but I know exactly what this means. Crystal clear about it. Just thinking about it makes me very happy. I have a big smile as I write this. There is HOPE. I CAN do this!

The last 16 years have been years of incredible life-changing losses. I saw the weight start to climb in 2004 when doing a lengthy rehab following major surgery and unable to go to the gym. By the time I joined Spark in 2006, I had gained 29 pounds from my normal adult weight.
Next year will be a major milestone birthday. Seems appropriate that I should be back to Start by then, moving into the sunshine, celebrating life. I don't know what the future holds, but I know it will be better if I am healthier.



The Edit Weight page tells me it will take until January 27, 2022 to get to my final goal weight, losing 2 pounds a week. If I stay with IF and OMAD, even with plateaus, I plan to make it sooner than that. A lot of people have lost a similar amount of weight, no matter what plan they followed, as long as they stayed focused on their goal. It is incredible what we can do when we are focused. God, please let it be so. I am tired of going around the same mountain.

MaryBeth Barnett on FB Christian Women Weight loss group, posted this verse from Deuteronomy 2:3. You have circled this mountain long enough. Now turn north!

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I woke up early this morning. 5 hours sleep. I will catch a long nap later.
My brain woke me up, thinking about the future. Sis is 8 years older than me. RJ is younger. Both have their health issues that are not bad at present but could develop. Why that thought jumped into my head at 5 this morning, I do not know. Made me wonder what I would do if something happened to them. So much to do to simplify my life and rid out family heirlooms and sentimental things. I have started passing on antiques that have been in the family for generations. For the most part, the upcoming generations are not interested in that. We have a massive library acquired across generations that needs to find the next home.
It would be a load off my shoulder to not have to be concerned about stuff. The house would feel better, too. Cluttered house, cluttered mind.



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Saturday night, heading towards midnight. Everyone has gone home that are going. Everyone that is staying is in bed.

We only had the two youngest today. They stayed over last night and again tonight. The 12 year old was at a sleep-over birthday party.
The kids created two clever art projects. They colored, and assembled crabs that are now taped to the wall, and cows that were made to stand alone. So cute. RJ is so creative and talented. She is good at working with the kids.

Mama-of-the-grands made lunch for me. Something they call jailhouse-something made with ramen noodles with a little shredded cheese, crushed frito-type chips, and small amount of finely diced meat. To round it off, I had an apple and a plum. I wanted to hit my 2 fruits/veggies for the day! Total of 928 calories.

Scale was up this morning 1.2 pounds. I expected it after eating 2 meals yesterday and being over on calories. 1949 total. I try to stay at or under 1200. Following a combination of IF, OMAD and Fast 800.

I watched several videos by Keto Rewind yesterday. She is following Alternate Day Fasting. She does intermittent fasting like I do. Her eating window is two meals a day, every other day. She also is strict about doing Keto. She's lost over 100 pounds.

There's that bright shiny bauble again, enticing me. Whole day fasting makes me feel good. I feel so energized when I did it. It's good for the body.
There are so many kinds of fasts. I personally don't think dry fasts are healthy. My fasts choice is the same as my intermittent fasts. I allow water, black coffee, and tea without additives.

Other than my 23 hours a day intermittent fast (with 1-hour eating window each day), I haven't done any complete fasts this year. I did it in December with mixed results. The scale was up and down during this period. It would go down during the fast, and rebound a bit when I started eating, even though I was doing OMAD.

It makes me feel good but it isn't worth it until I get the pounds off. IF and OMAD work for me. Don't screw it up. Stay with the one that brought me to the party.

The slowdown in my weight loss in December 2019 damaged my motivation and I spent the first 9 months of 2020 trying to get solidly back on track, with mixed success and very little to show overall. It wasn't until this month that I finally a solidly back on IF and OMAD.

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Friday. Took another step in dressing by myself. Still needed help with shoes and hair. I will be so glad when I get healthy enough to have this shoulder replaced.

Drove myself to the dentist for my appointment. Then to the bank.

The grands were here. Thunderstorm in the afternoon/early evening. Their dog is frightened of storms. He was on the enclosed patio. Last time he was left alone at their house, he tore the wire dog kennel apart to get out during a storm. Had to be painful because he messed up his face. I did not want him left on the patio alone in a storm. Afraid he would try to bust through a window to get out. Our dog does not get along with him so he can't be in the house with her. They are doing better for short periods of time until he decides to do what boy dogs do to girl dogs. She does not like it and attacks him. Also, when they are together they are constantly in motion, tearing around and around chasing each other. It's bad enough when the kids do that but at least they don't cause damage like the dogs would.
We had everyone in the basement playing until the storm lessened. What a downpour, thunder and lightning. They ran round and round the center stairs. The kids were watching out that the dogs didn't knock them down. Once in awhile the kids would sit on the stairs for a break from the strenuous and noisy exercise.
I wish the dogs got along better so they could be with us whenever they bring their dog over (when it's going to be a long day).

Our dog is a rescue. They told us she loves people but does not like other dogs. For some reason she's developed a liking to the next door neighbor's old Lab and will chase after him if she sees him out.
She's starting to get used to the grands' dog. She used to bristle and growl and get territorial. Maybe in time...They run in the yard together for short periods under supervision.
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I broke OMAD yesterday. Had two meals. I ate lunch too early. It was thrown together, not thoughtfully planned, not satisfying, enough calories. When the family had a late supper of oven-baked fries and chicken nuggets, I had some. Count it as a two meal day. Over on calories.
Still successful with intermittent fasting, no snacking outside of meals. Didn't even have coffee. That might have saved me from eating the second meal.
Whenever I have a change in routine (like the appointment in the middle of day), it throws me off routine. Normally not a problem if I pre-plan my eating.

It was a success because I did not eat while out. I thought about it, considered the options, and decided I would rather go home and have a big salad with lots of greens and chicken or tuna.
When I got home, mama-of-the-little-grands had brought bbq ribs she saved for me. Her husband had made them on the grill the night before. I like saucy bbq. These were dry rub. She was so pleased with her gift that I couldn't say no. I nibbled on one piece while making my lunch: a small cheese-omelet, side salad, and a slice of blueberry bread (also a gift). A little over 1000 calories for what I thought was going to be my OMAD meal.

Many times the meal is not satisfying but when doing OMAD and IF, I don't let that matter. Once consumed, that's it for the day. I take note and try to remember not to make that food or combination of foods again if it wasn't satisfying. When a meal is satisfying, it's easier to stick to a program. In the past that would be an excuse to find something else, munch until I found something satisfying or just had enough.

Now it is what it is. If it's not satisfying, learn from it and move on. I can eat again the next day. This happens more often when I had not done enough pre-planning. Winging it never works well.

Hopefully being over on calories will not affect my weight on Sunday when I weigh for the IF team 25 pound challenge. I also hope it does not bounce me back up above that #2 weight goal that I get stuck on every time. I was so pleased to break through that yesterday and hoped to never see that number again. Was the second meal a mental sabotage? I usually relax and regain some weight when I get to this point.

I made a deliberate decision to eat the second meal last night. Over and done. Move on. I have only had one meal a day since Oct 9.

This entry is a bit rambly. Middle of the night. Went to bed early. Had 5 hours of sleep. Woke up too hot to sleep so I got up. It's now 2:30AM.

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Awake early to get ready for the day before the kids arrive.
Dental appt for me around 11.

Down 0.4 pound this morning. Progress is still progress. I can't complain. Did well for the week. Down 8.6 since Spark weigh-in last Friday.

Another big achievement I have been so close to several times since Nov 2019. Won my 70 pounds lost award!


11.2 pounds to go to the next personal goal! It's a really BIG one.


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10/22/20 11:33 A

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Another goal met today!

From the goal list:
1. Get back to what I weighed Jan 1 - done 10/19/20.
2. Two more pounds to break through that mental barrier number. Stop bouncing back up when I reach that weight! - done 10/22/20.
3. Lose 15 pounds (that includes the 2 pounds in the #2 goal) to get below the HUGE century marker on the scale. Never ever thought I would go above that line! Well, I did. Now I need to get back below it, and STAY there.

#1 & 2 are done! Have 12 pounds to go to meet goal #3.Will I make it by the end of October? I will keep making conditions right to lose weight and inches. Bodies lose on their own schedule.

Time for a little happy dance. So good to be below that number where I usually relax and start regaining pounds. Staying strong this time.



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I have to be up erly tomorrow so I went to bed just before 8. Can't sleep. Two hours later and I am up again. Too much on my mind today.



It was good day for IF and OMAD. Not the healthiest choices but calories around 900+ in my one-meal. Toast and tomato soup, 12 Frito bbq twists, 6 grapes. Quick and easy to prepare but not what I wanted. At least, I stopped with one meal during the IF eating window. No snacking.




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Down 0.8 this morning. Slowly, slowly, moved the turtle. It's 0.8 pounds that I no longer have to carry.

0.8 doesn't sound like a lot but it adds up. I have lost and kept off 15.4 pounds this month.

Losing even one pound a week adds up to 52 pounds in a year.



I went to bed at 9:30 last night, earlier than usual. Got up early today so I could get some things done before the kids come after 8. Online school starts at 9. They will have all 3 meals here. They are here on the days Mom and Dad are doing Door Dash.

I am so ready for a nap until they come but my hair is damp from the shower. I don't want bed-head hair.

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Up 0.2 this morning. Not happy about that. I weighed again, hoping it would say I stayed the same as yesterday. My calories were excellent but I did have a piece of unfrosted lemon cake. Was that the culprit?
It was a successful IF and OMAD day.
I wanted to eat in the evening. There was some caramel corn calling my name. I like it and rarely have it. Too much work to make. After the kids left, I got up from my recliner, fully intending to "just have a small bite." By the time I got to the kitchen, I kept on walking right through it to my bedroom. Would it really be worth it to consciously go off IF and OMAD? Look how many months I wasted trying to get back into this strong place during the first 9.5 months of this year. "One bite" may not matter, but wrecking my momentum would be devastating. Then there's also the autophagy (from fasting) to consider. I was already into my fasting period for the day. Doesn't it take 12 hours of fasting to really reap the maximum benefits (cell regeneration, etc) from the daily fast?
Today I am up 0.4 pounds. I am VERY glad I stayed strong. I don't have to consider if eating the caramel corn caused that gain since I didn't succumb to the temptation.

Let's look at the numbers again. When I'm feeling a little down, the numbers can tell me why or motivate me to keep going. What is the pattern? I am doing well. What would my advice to a friend be? Stay the course, my dear. It's working.

Oct 1 - 2.2 loss / 3024 cal
Oct 2 - 0.6 gain / 2048 cal
Oct 3 - 1.0 gain / 2479 cal
Oct 4 - 4.0 gain / 2150 cal
Oct 5 - 1.2 loss / 2647 cal
Oct 6 - 1.0 gain / 3919 cal
Oct 7 - 1.0 gain / 3328 cal
Oct 8 - 1.2 gain / 2201 cal
Oct 9 - 1.8 loss / 980 cal - inflexible OMAD and IF going forward
Oct 10 - 2.8 loss / 790 cal
Oct 11 - 2.4 loss / 867 cal
Oct 12 - 3.2 loss / 879 cal
Oct 13 - 1.8 loss / 1004 cal
Oct 14 - 3.4 loss / 664 cal
Oct 15 - 1.6 loss / 1499 cal
Oct 16 - 2.0 gain / 1061 cal
Oct 17 - 1.4 loss / 929 cal
Oct 18 - 0.4 loss / 750 cal
Oct 19 - 3.4 loss / 941 cal
Oct 20 - 0.2 gain / 729 cal

Down 14.6 for the month.
Lost 25.6 and gained 11 this month. That's the destructive pattern I discovered in my charts last year. If I could minimize the gains and keep the losses, see how much further ahead I would be. There will be some fluctuation, but too much of this is due to daily calories and/or carbs consumption

I feel a little sad today because of the gain. It is what it is. I will continue to make conditions as good as I can so my body can do it's best.

I am not looking any further ahead than the next weight goal:
1. Get back to what I weighed Jan 1 - done!
2. Two more pounds to break through that mental barrier number. Stop bouncing back up when I reach that weight!
3. Lose 15 pounds (that includes the 2 pounds in the #2 goal) to get below the HUGE century marker on the scale. Never ever thought I would go above that line! Well, I did. Now I need to get back below it, and STAY there.
4. Then 22 more pounds to get back to my Spark starting weight. Roll back time to 2006.
5, Then 29 pounds to get to my 2002 weight before all the life-changing events rocked my personal world.
6. Then 36 pounds to get back to my best adult weight (in my 20s)...that magic number that I just could not get below every time I tried.
Who knows where I can do after that? Not too concerned about it. Just let it happen.

Been through an awful lot since 2006. My life does not look the same. It's been a period of losses and grieving and health issues. I stayed strong in some areas but not in my health. I am paying for my choices.
I can't un-do any of that. I can only live forward. Do the best I can.

There's a niggling little voice in my head that doesn't like the all-or-nothing overtone of inflexibility I'm adopting. The one big difference is that I do not treat any of this as all-or-nothing. Allowing extra bites and going off plan on purpose is a blow to my motivation and momentum. It will not step my commitment to be on this course. I am strong in wanting to do this. One bad moment is only ONE bad moment. Don't turn it into more than that or let it take over my mindset.
The all-or-nothing firmness relates to my commitment. I am not tentative about IF and OMAD. I am 100% commited. That does not equate to all-or-nothing feelings about the journey. It means I will not consciously choose to go off plan. If I accidentally slip, assess the damage and set a corrective action or just get right back on with my journey.

With God's help, I've got this.









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All the columns on my xcel chart for weight loss are now negative. I weigh less than I did Jan 1, 2020.
Down 3.4 pounds since yesterday morning. Down 14.8 for the month of October. Down 0.4 from my Jan 1, 2020 weight. Down 67.6 from my highest weight (May 2019).

Yesterday I was only down 0.4 for the day. Today I am down 3.4 for the day. Doing everything just about the same. I've said it so many times, that our body does not lose weight or inches on our schedule. All we can do is make conditions right and let our body do what it does best. Our bodies want to be healthy. Stick with the process, and the results will come.

Down 67.6 from my highest weight. Getting closer to that Spark badge for 70 pounds lost.

Down 0.4 for the year. We are in October, and I only have a 0.4 loss to show for all my work this year.
I ended 2019 with almost 70 pounds lost. Waivered in December when I tried to switch up my OMAD to water fasting a couple times a week.
Could not get the previous momentum back in January. Kept trying to do OMAD and IF all year but wavered badly. No major regains. No lasting losses...till now. Oct 9 made a recommitment to stay strictly with IF and OMAD. Down 14.8 pounds for the month.

Being stuck earlier this year made me feel sad and helpless. I KNOW the IF and OMAD work for me. Just could not stay consistent. Start out the day well, and end the day over on calories, eating outside the IF window, eating more than one meal. The IF window enlarged to two meals a day. Snacking crept in. No, some days it was rampant. Some days calories were 2 times what I prefer. That was still happening in the week of Oct.
I had to get really tough, bite the bullet, and spend a few hard days making myself stick with IF and OMAD, no flexibility, no excuses. Now I am in a routine. That doesn't mean I don't occasionally think about eating something else later in the day. It can be hard when others are eating. "No, thank you," still works. I can eat again the next day. If that food is no longer available the next day, that's ok. There has alway been something to eat.

Some foods are not as satisfying as anticipated. That is a lesson learnt. Choose something else next time. For instance, the turkey croissants yesterday were a bit disappointing. They were small so I had two. Was it worth the calories? No. I stayed within the Fast 800 but it wasn't as filling as other things I've eaten.

I like seafood. I have salmon, shrimp, and crab.I'm thinking of a salad for the crab. What kind of dressing goes with that? Look it up. :)

I asked RJ to oven-bake hamburger patties again. We keep them in the refrigerator and use the next couple of day. I saw a keto video where the man ordered everything from McDonalds and Taco Bell that could be converted to low carb by skipping the bun or changing the sauce. Some of them looked good, almost like a salad base with the lettuce, onion, and tomato. The double cheeseburger (without bun) made me hungry. I don't have to go a fast food place. I can make this at home.

Link to the McDonald video on You Tube, Joe Duff - The Diet Chef
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The scale was down 0.4 this morning. Still moving in the right direction.
IF and OMAD strong. Dr Mosely's Fast 800 today. OMAD meal was turkey and green pepper croissants and an apple.

The kids were here today. Trunk or Treat tonight at church. They were adorable in their costumes.

The two youngest are staying overnight. Their sister will be here in the morning before online school starts.

More beautiful craft projects that I'll share another time. It's late and I need to get some sleep. Good night, Spark world.


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A quieter day. Kids were only here for a short visit. Then I drove Sis and RJ to town for shopping.

Down 1.4 pounds this morning. Yesterday, official Spark weigh-in was down 13 pounds. No one said anything to me. I expected some well-meaning soul would have something to say, couched in concern, of course. They probably think it's an error. Nope. It was 15 pounds until I jumped up 2 pounds on Thursday. Not complaining. Because I have a lot to lose, my first week on any plan is usually amazing. It's already slowing down. That is normal for me. Now to stay the course.

I am proud of me. I know how hard this is to do.


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Kids have left for the night. 7 o'clock and I am tired enough to go to bed!

Turkey family dinner today. Turkey, dressing, sweet potatoes, mashed potatoes, gravy, cranberry sauce. 1061 calories for me. I ate one serving of everything. Less calories than that huge whole-meal salad yesterday!

Cornpicker just arrived and started on the field. Farmers work late hours. I was hoping for some pictures.




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Almost halfway through October. Here are the numbers:
Oct 1 - 2.2 loss / 3024 cal
Oct 2 - 0.6 gain / 2048 cal
Oct 3 - 1.0 gain / 2479 cal
Oct 4 - 4.0 gain / 2150 cal
Oct 5 - 1.2 loss / 2647 cal
Oct 6 - 1.0 gain / 3919 cal
Oct 7 - 1.0 gain / 3328 cal
Oct 8 - 1.2 gain / 2201 cal
Oct 9 - 1.8 loss / 980 cal - OMAD and IF
Oct 10 - 2.8 loss / 790 cal
Oct 11 - 2.4 loss / 867 cal
Oct 12 - 3.2 loss / 879 cal
Oct 13 - 1.8 loss / 1004 cal
Oct 14 - 3.4 loss / 664 cal
Oct 15 - 1.6 loss / 1499 cal
Oct 16 - 2.0 gain

That's a 9.6 pound loss for the month, 4.8 pound gain for the year, 67.4 pound loss from my highest weight (May 2019).

Going strong on IF and OMAD since Oct 9. Cut out the flexibility and big calories that were sneaking in.

Momma ain't happy to see that gain this morning. Had a "Big-A__ Salad" yesterday for my one meal. Kept adding things to it. Won't do that again! Barely within calorie range!

Today will be a minefield with food. Family coming over. Turkey, yams, and who knows what else. My strategy is to have one reasonable helping. Hopefully that will be one smaller plate like I use daily (except for the whole-meal salads that I put in a big bowl). It is possible to show a loss tomorrow if I remain mindful today.

Grands will be here all day again. The girls do online schooling.
The 6 year old gets guidance from us step by step all day.
The 12 year old is supposed to ask for help but won't. I helped her at first with her math. Then she turned around and looked it up on You Tube to see how to do it. She is respectful but I wonder if she is listening to me.
We ask her what time her classes are and remind her to be at the computer for them. We ask if her assignments are done for the day. Yesterday we found out she is not doing well. Last year she was an A and B student. OnLine school is not working well for her. I wonder if she is listening to the classes and taking the tests without doing the textbook stuff.
The school contacted her dad yesterday. He was not happy. Took away a privilege until her grades come up. He's tired of hearing the same excuses. She wants to go back to attending regular classes. Maybe she needs the interaction and push. Some people are not self-starters. Why hasn't she talked to any of us and asked for help?

I loved school. I wanted to be a teacher. I still love to learn. I get excited seeing pens and paper and school supplies. Love those back to school sales. Buy too many books. No more empty bookcases here.

Kids have arrived. The day starts.



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Down 11.6 pounds this month. Still have 2.8 pounds to go to get back to my Jan 1, 2020 weight. I should have that this week.

Friday will be a higher calorie day. Family is coming here for dinner. Someone is making a turkey, so there will probably be things that go with turkey. Someone is bringing their famous mac and cheese that they swear is better than any mac and cheese I have ever had. They decided to forgo the bacon because their mom doesn't like it and she will be here. Not like bacon? Can she be related to us? Funny, she eats the pizza when we order bacon and onion (Sis' favorite pizza). When I used to oven bake bacon, she'd eat a few strips. How much does she dislike bacon? Put it in the mac and cheese, please.

I like pasta. I don't know whether I like pasta more than pizza or equally as much. Both are on my top favorites list. High in carbs. Comfort food. I grew up in a large family that frequently ate pasta. Stretching those budget dollars.

I have a pasta memory from when I was ten. There was a small amount of pasta left in the bowl. I said, "I'll finish this." My oldest sister grabbed the bowl from me and said, "You've had enough." I wasn't even fat then! I still can vividly remember that incident, even the color of the bowl (green), and her standing by my chair reaching for the bowl. Everyone had finished. It wasn't that someone else wanted that small amount of macaroni. What I don't remember is if I had more than one helping or what caused her to say that.

It's ironic to remember now that she was the one who suggested we go to Weight Watchers together when I lived with her for a very short period 12 years later. I didn't know I needed WW. Now I would LOVE to weigh what I weighed then. That was my first time going on a diet. WW was $2.50 a week then. They insisted that we have liver once a week. We tried one of their oven-baked liver recipes. Ugh, paste. Only way to fix liver is slathered in butter and onions. We also ate a lot of canned tuna on WW. The program was rigid. Here's your list. Follow it. They didn't count points then.
My biggest annoyance with the program then was trying to take a healthy food and turn it into a replica of an unhealthy food, trying to fool our mind into thinking it was still enjoying our old treats. To me, an apple is an apple. Don't try to make it taste like something I crave and can't have.
We were not soda-drinkers but that first time on WW is when I learned about one-cal Vernors. That's a Michigan company that makes the best ginger ale. Nothing like the other ones on the market. Really gingery. Canada Dry makes a disappointing ginger ale. Not sure why they even call it ginger ale.

Later when I rejoined WW a few more times, I could never get the hang of the program. Too confusing with points and substitutions. I do better on simple programs without a lot of rules.

Keep it simple, baby. That's why I like intermittent fasting and OMAD. They tell me when to eat, not what to eat. I've learned enough about healthy eating and what helps me function best, so this plan works for me. My body likes balance. If I'm not getting enough protein, my body lets me know.
I didn't take a fatty liver diagnosis too serious until someone famous died from it last year. I made the decision then to cut back on sugary foods. I carry a visual image of this picture:

So even if my plan doesn't forbid sweets, I have decided to make it a rare thing for my health's sake.
For the most part, I adher to moderation with food. Nothing off limits, but try to make healthy choices most of the time. I can flex when I need to do so.

Overall, I am quite happy with intermittent fasting. The jury is still out on OMAD. I like the results I get with OMAD. I'm not in love like I was at first. It is liberating, helping me have a better relationship with food. Food does not control me on OMAD. It teaches me self-discipline. It's hard to even use "food" and "self-discipline" in the same sentence. For so long I've thought of food as enjoyment. That's why throught the years I have always had trouble connecting food with results (body size and function). How could something so pleasureable create such devastating results? I ruefully admit that is so in other areas that are a struggle for others but not for me.

Grands are here for the day. Keeping the 3 year old busy while his sisters do on-line school.

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Whatever negative cloud was hanging over my head earlier has dissipated. A good nap helped. Woke up to off-and-on thunderstorm, a little rain or hail in short spurts. Mostly quiet now. Everyone is sleeping and I'm awake, ready to go.

I wondered if the impending check-up with the oncologist was part of my funky attitude. I'm not worried about the results. I don't like the examination. I am unhappy with my weight before every medical appointment. Everything would be easier if I were at a healthy weight. I'm working on it.

If the oncologist releases me, I will take a break next year. This year screwed up my routine tests since the pandemic forced them to be put off till Fall. I prefer Spring. I don't like tests and subsequent appointments that could run into Winter weather so I don't have to worry whether the roads are safe to venture out.

We had the grands for awhile but they are home now. RJ has an appointment tomorrow for possible cast application for broken/problem bones in her feet that don't heal well. The doctor wanted her to stay off her foot for 3 weeks. Try doing that with young kids around that have be watched and fed. She's normally quite active.





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Feeling ambivalent about my journey. It's good to see the weight and inches going down again. It's not fun to eat within even self-imposed confines. I was going to say within the confines of my program, but realize I am still not in the place where I enjoy eating less. I am a free spirit when it comes to food. I don't like thinking before I eat the tempting morsels that pop up in my day.
When I am on a successful roll for a long period of time, habit dictates my behavior and I don't have to put a lot of thought into my actions. I am not at that place yet.
When I am strong, I prefer eating healthy. Junk food does not tempt me. I am not at that place yet.
When success becomes my lifestyle, I don't resent or feel sad that I cannot eat like I used to eat. Quite frankly, I rarely think of it. I am not at that place yet.

I will get there if I stick with this. This is the way it will be for the rest of my life. I should not feel sad about that. I should rejoice about all the things I am gaining, like independence and freedom.

Time to look at the daily numbers since I successfully restarted...again!
Oct 9 - 1.8 loss / 980 cal
Oct 10 - 2.8 loss / 790 cal
Oct 11 - 2.4 loss / 867 cal
Oct 12 - 3.2 loss / 879 cal

Knowing the check-up appointment with the oncologist is Wednesday gives me more impetus. I have today and tomorrow yet. My goal is to be down 4.6 pounds by Wednesday. It's still a disappointing number but better that it could have been. I am down 31 pounds since my last appointment. Will he be pleased or disappointed? It is what it is.
I wasted the first 9 months of this year, diddling around, up and down, almost flat-lining on the scale. I stayed strong during the Halloween 2019 to New Year 2020 season and lost a fabulous amount of weight. I stalled the first week in January and sputtered until now.
Now it is October and I am finally dead serious about losing again. I am not happy that I have to do this, but I know it's essential for my independence.



Seeing the scale climb back up made me sad. It made me cry when I couldn't get going again. It made me feel like a failure. I knew I could lose weight but I wasn't doing it.



Seeing the scale go down makes me happy. When my clothes are looser, I feel like a success. Not feeling stuffed and miserable in the evening is a feeling I take for granted until it strikes again. Then I promise myself I will never do that again. Being more flexible and limber makes me very happy.

It's time to be happy again.


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The kids have gone home. They will be back tomorrow morning in time for their online school.

Several packages arrived this weekend. Last week we were talking with the kids about Christmas presents we received as kids. They didn't know what a child's spinning top was, so I ordered one. They loved playing with it tonight.

Other goodies were a new mouse pad, wireless mouse, and mixed media sketch pads. I have no excuse for not letting the creativity flow.


I stayed strong tonight. After 7 PM each night since I've been back on track, I have the urge to eat. Not really hungry. Just want to eat something.
Habit has kicked in with IF so I'm not snacking. Wanting another meal makes me question if I need to do 2 meals a day. I have room to up the calories a little. It would slow down my loss. Can I stick with this for 2 weeks and the re-evaluate? Usually I don't have any trouble once habit kicks in. It's only been 3 days so it might take a little longer. I don't buy into the official amount of time it takes the average person to create a habit. My experience has been 3 days to become comfortable with OMAD and IF. Tomorrow will be day 4 so we'll see if the urge to eat in the evenings lets up. It could be triggered because others are eating then. Tonight RJ asked if she could bring me something from the kitchen. She was getting food for everyone else. I said "No, thank you" a little more vehemently than I normally do. She was being kind, not trying to tempt me.
I drank my coffee while they ate. I didn't drink as much water as I usually do but still have 64+ ounces in. I've been drinking more since I got the new water bottle.

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I didn't plan to share the figures for the first part of October because they were so bad. I could probably receive awards for gaining weight faster than the average person. I never do things half-way. I'm in with both feet. When I lose focus on my plan and grow apathetic, my weight skyrockets. It's not deliberate. It's the old disconnect that I've fought for years. How can something good (eating what I want) have such disastrous results (excess weight)?

I am putting the numbers here for my benefit. If it helps anyone else who wanders this way, that would bless my heart. Just don't judge me harshly. I never give up and totally wander away. I keep trying. Sometimes I am successful. Sometimes I wander around, discouraged and a bit lost, and sad that I can't consistently stay the course for 24 hours in a row. Every day has good and bad in it. I don't eat from morning to night. Even when I gained there were still periods of intermittent fasting each day. The culprit was too many calories. It might have been more than one eating period. It might have been no portion control. I gain weight very easily.

It is amazing how few calories a body really needs. For the first time, I heard someone else say that this week. Mark's Daily Apple video on You Tube. He's into Keto and a intermittent fasting. He stressed that each of us is different. And I would add that we are different during each period of our life. It takes a lot less calories at my age than when I was younger. Mark said to experiment and see what your body needs, as long as you keep it healthy and balanced. When people follow a program, they eat because someone said it's time to eat and maybe even what to eat even though they are not hungry. Why are you eating when you are not hungry? Some people think if they don't eat at the prescribed times they will get ravenous and go off the deep end. Yes, that can happen if you don't have a plan for it. Have a plan what you will eat when you get hungry (if you forgo a regular eating time.) You can even have something prepped for when you need it. You have more control than you think you have. It's a mindset. I can see where that may be a problem if you are at work or somewhere that you can't stop and eat whenever you want to eat. I'll tell you a secret that I've learned: You won't die if your stomach growls. You are not going to mess up your metabolism and screw up your entire weight loss if you happen to get hungry from missing one meal. It might even do you good. Well, heck, your blood sugar level might drop. Unless you are diabetic, don't spend so much time worrying about things that are transient. That's what gets people into micromanaging, eating 5 or 6 meals a day, and never giving their body a rest so it can regenerate and do what cells do when you are not bombarding them with tasks related to eating. Thank goodness you actually fast when sleeping. At least, most people don't eat as often after they go to bed. You body must give a sigh of relief. It knows something you don't and it fights so hard to keep you healthy despite all the things you do to it.

Back to my number for this month. I need to see them. I am ashamed to list the calories but they are part of the story of weight gain and loss. Not beating myself up because the past is past. Move on and celebrating being back on track a couple of days now.

Oct 1 - 2.2 loss / 3024 cal
Oct 2 - 0.6 gain / 2048 cal
Oct 3 - 1.0 gain / 2479 cal
Oct 4 - 4.0 gain / 2150 cal
Oct 5 - 1.2 loss / 2647 cal
Oct 6 - 1.0 gain / 3919 cal
Oct 7 - 1.0 gain / 3328 cal
Oct 8 - 1.2 gain / 2201 cal
Oct 9 - 1.8 loss / 980 cal
Oct 10 - 2.8 loss / 790 cal
Oct 11 - haven't eaten yet

Down a total of 1.6 pounds in October. That doesn't tell the whole story, does it?

Gained 8.8 pounds and lost 10.4 pounds in 11 days.

This is the pattern I recognized last year. If I could maintain the losses and eliminate or minimize the gains, my progress would be phenomenal. I would have made the final goal and been in maintenance years ago. I've been on Spark since 2006 and weigh more than I did when I started. I am still 50 pounds over my start weight. However, on the positive side, I am down 54+ pounds from my highest weight (in May 2019). I can't un-do those years of struggle. I can only move forward. I acknowledge that there have been more life-changing events in my life since I joined Spark than there was in the previous 55 years of my life. It was one of those life-changing events that brought me to Spark as I saw the weight start to creep on when I was in a forced year-long recovery from major surgery and could not go to the gym or do the other activities I was used to doing.

I acknowledge that there were some legitimate causes for weight gain. There was also periods of learning. I added so much to what I already knew about being healthy. I tried different plans. My most successful was lower carb in 2008 (lost 45 pounds) and then IF and OMAD in 2019 (lost 69+ pounds). There were other periods of successful loss but I didn't stay the course. As has been said so many times, it's a lifestyle change. When it's a diet with a beginning and end, the weight will return. I never deliberately ended any of the successful streaks. I never got down to that final goal and went off a diet. I drifted off course again and again. Life happens. Regardless of the cause, when I consume too many calories, there will be a weight gain.

My progress this month reinforces that truth. Even during more successful times when I have the knowledge of what I should do, too many calories can be consumed when I lose focus.

2020 has been a year of upheaval on every level. Having a wilful child move her family back here a few months ago and having the grands here so much is hard. It's been a continual financial and emotional drain as well as physically exhausting. We are family. This is what family does. It's a hard thing to balance boundaries with unconditional love. My personality wants to fix things and make the world better.

But this is only one challenge of many in 2020. Life goes on. I cannot give up on trying to live healthy. Now more than ever I need to be strong and healthy. Plus it makes me feel good on every level when I take care of myself. When I add weight gain and eating willy-nilly to all the discouragements of this year, it drags me deeper into a dark place I don't want to go. I must create the sunshine I want in my life. I embrace the positive happy things. I celebrate the blessings and wonderful people and things in my life. I create the good times. Thank you, God, for this wonderful life. Every new day is a gift, something brand new that I've never seen before. Thank you, Lord Jesus.

I haven't even mentioned the embarrassing calorie totals on the October chart above. The calories have been wackadoodle. Again, I could show cause but that's of little value to me now. I know WHY it happened. Now I move forward.
I try to keep the calories low on purpose. That's easier to do when I eat one-meal-a-day and practice intermittent fasting.

There are many types of fasts. Water fasting is the bright shiny bauble I want to reach for, but I look at December 2019 and know that it is probably not for me at this time. In December I started experimenting with my phenomenal success, thinking water fasting would improve it. It led to big ups and downs on the scale. Big drop during the water fast. Big gain when I reintroduced food, even when not overeating. That is counterproductive and did not give me any extra rewards overall. It led to discouragement, so that I had trouble staying on course with what had been working for me (OMAD and IF).

I WANT to water fast. There are so many benefits.

Some are doing a spiritual fast until the election in November. That appeals to me. Everything happening in my country makes me feel helpless. Fasting and prayer help me. Fasting has been a spiritual discipline for centuries.

I want to fast to accelerate my weight and inches lost. The worrywarts caution against losing weight too fast. I should be more concerned about gaining weight so fast! The bottom line is that everyday I carry around this extra weight is harder on my body than losing weight too fast. I was shocked when the oncologist was not concerned about my extreme-rapid weight loss when I couldn't keep anything down and stopped eating that first year with cancer. He said it was a good thing, almost like an advantage to getting the weight off. He wasn't concerned at all. How I remember the Thanksgiving that wasn't (for me) because I left the table after 2 literal teaspoons of food, feeling so sick. I was robbed. No celebration that year. When I could finally eat again without nausea I made up for lost time. I even had a belated Thanksgiving at a restaurant that has turkey dinners on the menu. It wasn't the same as Thanksgiving at home.

Ironically, the lowest I weighed after cancer is the same weight I am trying to get back to now. It's the same as I weighed at the end of 2019 before I wandered off in January. It's the same as I weight several times this year. It's what I weighed Sept 9 last month. Fifteen more pounds and I will reach it. (It was 18 when I posted yesterday, so there's progress!)

Remember I mentioned in yesterday's post about a time many decades ago when I kept hitting a brick wall every time I reached a certain weight and never broke through the barrier but would bounce back up? Each time I lost weight, I would again be stuck at the same weight and never drop lower.
That seems to be the pattern now, though this weight is much higher. I build up a mental wall and relax and lose focus when I reach that weight that I was in Dec 2019 and Sept 9, 2020. Silly, isn't it? I still have 15 pounds to go to reach that point. When I get there, I must stay diligent and focused.

I have an oncologist appointment on Wednesday this week. It's easy to stay focused this week. I must be on guard about relaxing after the urgency of the appointment has passed this week.

It all matters. I know how hard it is to consistently stay focused and on program once I start to wander. I even thought about that when it was happening in the days right after Sept 9. What ARE you doing! I let it happen.

My program is not any harder than any other program I've done. I've kept it simple, without a bunch of rules. OMAD and IF tell me when to eat, not what to eat What could be simpler? My body craves balance so it won't let me eat stupid very often. It lets me know if I've not had enough protein. It lets me know when I've had too many carbs. I don't like it when I get that uncomfortable and sick feeling after eating. That's when I tell myself I will never eat like that again...but I do.

OMAD and IF are sustainable. Being disciplined about eating is hard. It's much easier to eat willy-nilly, eating whatever I want whenever I want. I don't think there is any way I can lose weight or maintain a healthy weight eating that way. The fact is that living healthy is hard, no matter how simple the plan. Being self-discipline goes against our nature. Ironically, it's a fruit of the Spirit. God has given us all the self-discipline we need.

"I have learned that I really do have discipline, self-control, and patience. But they were given to me as a seed, and it's up to me to choose to develop them."
-Joyce Meyer

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Didn't get enough protein or carbs in my salad-meal today. This evening I wanted to get something to eat. I am on a roll with my one-meal-a-day. I don't want to screw that up!

I felt so good earlier today. More flexible. Able to get up easier. I don't want to lose that.

I have been so close to earning my 70 pounds lost Spark badge. Keep that in focus. Mini-goal, reach that new level. I can do it.



There it is. Doesn't that look lovely? I was just a fraction away from it before. So close. I've been close several times, then bounce back up. Now I have to lose 18 pounds to reach it.



When I was in my 30s, I did the same thing (at a much lower weight). I was so close to a goal weight. Each time I got close, I lost focus and re-gained. I questioned if I had a mental block that would not let me cross that magical line. Now I would love to be anywhere near that weight. If I stick with this, I can do it. I know I can do it. The best thing that came out of losing 70 pounds last year was proving to myself that I CAN do it. That spurs me on.

Here's my dose of motivation for tonight.


18 Pounds to get back to where I was Sept 9. That's also where I was at the end of 2019.



Then 12 more to reach a major milestone. No stopping this time. Busting through that final 12 that has stopped me too many times.



That means I am only 30 pounds away from the wonderful, most fantastic, exciting huge milestone!














This makes me happy!



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I used two of the prepared salads RJ brought home. Eat Smart Chili Lime Crunch salad, 260 calories each.
I used 2 salads for my one-meal today. The greens were dry, unlike most packed greens: cabbage, red cabbage, carrots and kale. There was a pack of freeze-dried corn and tiny strips of tortilla chips, and a small packet of shredded Monterey Jack cheese. I added hamburger and beans for satiety (protein). I added mayo and splenda to the tart lime cumin ranch dressing. Total calories 790.

I am totally ignoring the baked goods (breads, cakes, snacks) that RJ brought home today. Both RJ and Sis have pointed out different products and asked if I tried them yet. I quietly said, "No," while inside I said, "Uh, NO!" I am not even tempted. In a strong place right now.

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RJ just got home and is showing me some the "treats" she brought. "Later," worked just fine. I also laughed and said, "Don't tempt me."
She does not choose what is included in the boxes. She volunteered at the pantry until the pandemic so they look after her and include good things in her boxes.
This time they gave her a couple of cases of 6 individual salads. They are labeled chili lime crunch. What is that? They look like regular greens with purple cabbage. The chili lime may be in the toppings or dressing. That makes it easy to change up with different toppings and dressings. She said to use 2 salads for a meal because they are small. We'll see. One would be perfect size with a meal. We'll see how filling and satisfying I can make them.

Salads are perfect timing with the restart of my plan. The treats will be mostly consumed by others. Lots of family coming and going here. We've always made the kitchen open, help yourself. RJ always has something for people to eat. I've heard her say, "If you go away hungry, it's your own fault." She and Sis are good cooks with generous hearts.
So close family and their friends usually head for the kitchen when they come. We also have the grands here, frequently for the whole day. They don't have hearty appetites, but the food helps feed them.

I found out why they are never hungry when offered a meal. Their mom says she doesn't make them something to eat until they tell her they're hungry.
The 12 year old will eat meals and snack all day. She frequently goes off into the kitchen shortly after they arrive. We have to serve her because she is wasteful. It's easier to give seconds than to throw food away all the time. She has a weight problem since they closed school earlier this year. The pandemic affected some of us that way. Home, near the kitchen, routine thrown off.
The 6 year old is skinny as a rail. Food is not her top priority. She eats small portions. She likes helping bake and cook. Made chocolate chip cookies for the first time last week.
The 3 year old is a chunk, shorter than his sister but weighing a few pounds more. I suspect he will be shorter and stocky like his father. He likes to snack. Not so fond of meals. When I see how little he eats at meals, I wonder how he stays chunky. Too heavy for me to pick up.
The two youngest are very active. The 12 year old would rather lay around using electronics or watching television. During the Summer she had to go outside when the rest went outside to play. That did not make her happy. She whined enough that she no longer gets to stay overnight. Now that they are doing on-line school, she sits at the table on her laptop for long periods. Yesterday I heard her explaining to the 6 year old that only the little kids get recess time at school. That was by way of explaining why she doesn't have to go outside and play when the rest do. She claims she's doing schoolwork on the computer when they go out.

The other family of grands that used to be here all the time during the overlap of their parents working shifts are totally different.
The 12 year old is too thin. Years ago I overheard a conversation with her young friend, where they bemoned the fact that they are fat. Where does this thinking come from? They are not fat. Now she is so thin that the doctor has threatened putting her on supplement shakes.
She's a conundrum. She like vegetables, especially raw from the garden. She will eat meals but leaves the table to run around between bites. Can't sit still.
Her 3 year old brother is normal size with a normal appetite. Playing is a higher priority than eating. He eats when the meal is prepared.

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Friday marked first day successfully back on program. Success builds strength and motivation. It's a good feeling to start the second day.

I know I can do this because I've done it before. But after a month of false starts without lasting success, that little doubt starts creeping in, saying "Yes, you can do this, but you won't." That's why it's so important not to drastically deviate from plan, wander away from the mental focus, and start the downward spiral. Now I have 22 re-gained pounds. That means 22 pounds to lose just to get back to where I was Sept 9. Down 2.8 pounds this morning, so now I have 19.2 more to go to reach that point. Going off plan is so NOT worth it.

I can flex in my food choices. I cannot flex my total calories. Little bites add up to a lot of weight.

OMAD does not tell me what to eat. It tells me when to eat. That's the simple beauty of this plan.

While I can eat what I want during my one meal a day, I still have to be cognizant of total calories.
OMAD does not tell us to count calories. I choose to do this because I can pack a lot of calories into one meal a day which causes me to gain. Maybe after I've been doing it successfully for years that might not be necessary, but I think I will continue to use the tracker here so that I know where I am. It's a tool for my benefit. I like numbers.
So you might ask why I go through the bother of only eating one meal a day if I'm going to still be counting calories for success. One meal a day keeps it simple. I eat my one meal a day, and then I'm done. I don't have to make exhausting decisions all day about whether to eat or when to eat. Many eating temptations come up every day, some unexpectedly. Last night is a good example when RJ brought me something to eat, and after the day she was having, I didn't have the heart to say, "No, thanks," or "Later."
Most of the time "No, thanks," or "I'll have this later," works just fine. If I was not focused on a program, I would just eat every time someone offered food, just to be polite, even if I was full.

Any program works if we stay focused. However, this is the one that works best for me at this time in my life.
Intermittent fasting is the big one because if keeps me from eating all day.
I naturally moved into OMAD after embracing IF because I found I was satisfied after one good meal. I started asking myself why I was eating again if I wasn't hungry.
This all depends on making that one meal satisfying. I've learned from experience how to make that happen. For me, that means including an adequate amount of protein. I can't live only on greens without protein day after day.

It's easier for me to stay on IF and OMAD if I make mostly healthy choices. If I go heavy in carbs, the weight loss will be minimal or stall, even if I stay within the desired calories. Foods heavy in calories means I have to eat smaller amounts.

That is probably a mute point with OMAD because it is rare to go over on calories in one meal. However, I can easily go over when eating pizza because I eat more. Even one meal can leave me feeling miserable. And I HATE that feeling. How many times have I told myself I would never do that again? Overeating does NOT feel good! Eating food that is too heavy does not feel good.

With moderation, we can flex to occasionally include less healthy choices. Balance is key.




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First day back on plan can be hard. If I stay with it, I should be on a roll by Monday.

Today (Fri) I almost made it for one-meal. It was one meal and one snack.

1 PM one-meal
Then black coffee in the afternoon.
In the evening my heart sunk when RJ brought me a dessert that she had made.
The nutrition tracker on Spark has it listed as Pink Stuff (cottage cheese, cool whip, pineapple, dry jello), nutrition entered by a fellow Sparker.

The 12 year old step-grand was making a fuss about it when she discovered a piece of pineapple in it. The 6 year old followed her lead and decided she didn't like it either because her sister didn't. Their Mom loves this stuff.
After them acting like that, I didn't have the heart to tell RJ "No, thank you."

The only other difficulty was mild disappointment that I couldn't have the meatloaf and potatoes the family was eating because I already had my OMAD meal at lunch. I had already made up my mind to stay on course. Oh well, there is always tomorrow. By then, who knows what will sound good for my OMAD meal?

I almost made it through the whole day back on OMAD and IF. I count it a successful day. I was under on total calories, around 1000 for the day.

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I am doing intermittent fasting. I am not doing a total fast. Surely I can eat one meal a day and fast the other 23 hours for 40 days. That will take me to Nov 17. I started today, Oct 9.

I ate my one-meal today around 1 PM. I usually eat later in the day when I do one meal, but I can make this work. Now I need to stay conscious of what I'm doing. No popping food in my mouth without even thinking about it.



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Fasting. It's so easy when it's habit. It's so hard when I'm not following the program.

This is not an all-or-nothing journey, so I hate to be so adamant about staying on program. A little flex can help make the journey sustainable.
However, when I deviate from my plan one day, then it continues the next day. It snowballs until I am totally eating whatever I want whenever I want.

On Sept 9 I had the mammogram appointment. When I got home, I ate.
The next day I continued to eat. I knew I needed to get back on program but I didn't. I got sloppy with my program.
I've struggled to restart. I drew a line in the sand a couple of times.
On October 1 I had two appointments. I thought I would eat while I was out. Sis said she wasn't hungry so I waited to eat until I came home.
My eating has been willy nilly, without restraints.
In one month, I've gained 22 pounds.

I have a check up with the oncologist on Wed, Oct 14. I set mini-goals since the last appointment that would move me to a good space before the Oct appointment. I was moving in the right direction in September. Now I can only hope to lose a few pounds in the five days until then..

My plan is not hard. It's easy once I've been on it a couple of days. Intermittent fasting cuts out all the extra calories from snacking. OMAD or even two-meals-a-day cuts down on calories.

OMAD does not tell me WHAT to eat. It tells me WHEN to eat.
I noticed more recently (since I've been off track), my meals are larger because of a concern that I am eating enough to provide energy until the next OMAD meal tomorrow. I have already worked through this concern in the past so why is it rearing it's ugly head?
If I don't eat enough one day and get hungry, I have two choices: have a second meal or wait. I won't die if my stomach happens to growl.

1. I need to get the size of my meal back under control. I don't like feeling stuffed and sick.
2. I need to consistently practice intermittent fasting. When the eating window closes, don't let snacks tempt me. Don't go looking for something to munch. Drink water, black coffee or tea without additives. I drink water all day. I try to keep coffee and tea for those times when I might feel like I would like something more (and don't want to snack).
3. Avoid sugar. Why am I allowing sugar back into my daily intake? I've welcomed it, not even considering whether I should consume something sweet.

I do best when I stay slightly empty. I like that feeling.

I am going back to my safe place, my happy place. I want to be a winner again.

Here is a visual for the 32-pound-loss goal.




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Three of the grands are here today. Online school or workbooks for 2 of them. I seem to be the go-to for math for the 6th grader. After I explain it to her as simply as possible, walking through each step, she said she went to You Tube to see examples of how to do it. What? Sigh, whatever works.

Most of the grands love books. Love to be read to when they are young. Love to read as they grow older.
Most of the grands love to eat vegetables, especially raw from the garden.

These three are so unlike their cousins. They did not live near during their earliest years. They are now 3, 6, and 12.
They have the attention span of a gnat. Love electronics. Will not let me read to them. Do not like to read. The 12 year old says she likes to read but she's a slow reader. She borrows books and brings them back unread because they didn't grab her attention. She's into anime, likes to fill a sketch book with that kind of drawings. She's quite good at art.
They do not like veggies or even regular meals. They don't want to eat what we are eating. They want chips, candy, and kid's drinks, especially the 3 year old. They can't eat that way here.

So many of the grands are skinny. The 3 year old is a chunker. I can't pick him up. How can he possibly weigh more than his 6 year old sister (who is skinny as a beanpole) when he says he's not hungry at meal times? He does not get to snack all day here. Maybe he does at home.

Our family likes to eat. We also tend to start putting on weight in our later 50s. That is sad.

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Had pizza for supper. So good.Tried Massimo bread. It's like mozarella bread but also has butter and parmesan. Oh, the calories! Over on calories again, sigh. Will I ever stay the course?

Yearly appointment with family doctor went fine. They had a questionnaire for Medicare patients. Strange questions about how I'm feeling. Is this due to the pandemic? My life really hasn't changed that much.
Also had to draw a clock, then complete it to show 12:15 as the time. She said I passed, haha. I commented that everyone has digital clocks now. I asked why she had me do that. To test cognitive function. Now I'm feeling ancient! I'm the same person I was last year.

My last doctor would have never put me through any of that. I switched to her last year because she's closer to home. The doctor I had been seeing for many years is getting older (over 70). His office is closer to where I used to work. Now it's a long drive, plus it's a walk-in so there are long waits. He knew me well because I also worked with him through the hospital. He would never ask me stupid questions about cognitive function just because I'm getting older.
Does the medical profession discriminate against the elderly? Gosh, seems strange to even use that work in connection with me.

The years have passed so fast. A lifetime is really quite short. I'm feeling ambivalent about my age. I think I shall start celebrating next year after my birthday when I attain the great age of 70. Not sure how I really feel about being that old. I shall turn it into a positive.
I already feel smug about how much more I know than the young whippersnappers nowadays who think they know everything. When we've lived this long, we've acquired a lot of knowledge and wisdom. We lived through a lot of world history. It is harder to fool us. Everyone may not agree. Politicians, beware! We weren't born yesterday.
When an older person dies, an encyclopedia of history dies with them. I am amazed when I listen to young people and realize how little they are being taught. They don't know as much as they think they do.

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Just read some blogs and responses that make me sad. The world has gone mad. Hate and division are being spread by the media. People believe everything they hear.
I was feeling so good earlier today. As I saw so many yard signs for my choice of candidates, it made me smile a lot. Then I came on Spark. Some blogs I need to skip. I don't post a response on some for obvious reasons. There is no reason for confrontation. We all have our opinions.
I have shared a little about politics in this journal because very few ever read the journals (or if they do, they do it silently). I will not post about politics in a blog.

I like to think this site is geared to things that will lift us up and help us live healthier. A community (or group or nation) is only as good as it's members.

So why am I here? Why do I stay? Because I get so much good out of Spark. I do it for myself. If no one ever spoke to me here, I would still do it. It keeps me accountable. The tracking is a valuable tool. I love the journal where I can talk things out, see trends in my walk, set goals, and just talk about my day. I like the illusion of privacy...but of course anything on line has risk. People could become angry or nasty about things I post in my journal. I'm upfront and honest here.
When I blog I write for different reasons and to an audience because that will be read by the same friends and occasionally a Sparker outside my circle. I enjoy that, too, probably more than I should. I never want to be a person to over-value LIKES on anything I post. For the same reason, I ignore POPULAR BLOG designations. That seems to have very little to do with content and more to do with the number of followers a person has. Needing on-line validation may turn into an addiction. I have a rich and fulfilling life outside of Spark.

We are blessed to have Spark. For the most part, it adds as much value to our lives as we let it. I hope it remain available to us for many years to come.

It is up to me to use the parts of Spark that benefit me (and hopefully those I interact with). It's also up to me to skip anything I find upsetting. People are people. We can be so different. Some add so much to our lives; others we need to avoid. It's a community, much like all the other communities in our lives. Here we have a common interest to live healthy and encourage others on their journey. Even then we may not always agree on how to accomplish it. That's ok. Just move on. Choose your own circle of people who make a good fit, same as you do in the real world.

I hope I am an encourager. I blog very little. I share things that I think others might find encouraging. My day-to-day stuff is "safe" here in the journal. No one has ever attacked me in the journal, even though I post things they may not agree with. The journal posts are for me. I get benefit from my posts in the journal.

Thank you, Spark, for creating this wonderful site with so many valuable tools. I would not be as healthy as I am without Spark. Motivation and goals have to come from within me, but Spark keeps me organized and moving forward. So many helpful features here.
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Yearly appointment with the doctor to renew prescriptions in the morning. She usually orders lab work so I'll won't eat before I go.

I've had a tooth pain since Friday night. Early today my lower face (jaw and cheek) were in pain. Tonight it seems to be letting up. Isn't that how it goes? Hurts when the dentist is closed. Lets up when I can make an appointment.
The office cancelled my appointment in the Spring because of the pandemic lock-down and said they would reschedule when they reopen. I've not heard anything from them. I think most dentist offices are open now.

Next week is the appointment with the regular check up with the oncologist. I'm expecting good news. Wish I had lost more weight before the appointment. I weigh less than I did last time. It's been a hard journey.

The grandkids have gone home now. I need to get some sleep.



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Note: posted this as a blog now.
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I am fond of visualizing a line drawn in the sand.















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If I want to feel good, stick with my plan. A steady downward trend on the scale excites me. Clothes feeling looser makes me smile. Being more limber and flexible motivates me. Staying under my calorie limit is a positive affirmation that I am on track (no matter what the scale says).

I keep a daily xcel weight and calorie chart, showing loss/gain each day, loss/gain per month, loss/gain per year, loss/gain from my highest weight. The charts go back to 2009. They've become a little more sophisticated over time.
I also have an xcel chart just for eDiets/SparkPeople official weigh-ins since 2006.

I like numbers. They tell a story. In my case, it's not gone the way I wanted. My earlier charts are the lowest weights. There have been many life-changing events during those years. I am not the same person. Who knows what will happen in a day, a month, a year, a decade? This has been a decade of too many losses and grieving. Family and personal health issues since 2004. My life has been turned upside down. God has been the one constant, always there for me through everything.

Last year about this time, more health issues kindled the fire to a higher intensity in me. My chart for the second half of 2019 was what I want all my years to look like.

2020 shows no lasting progress. Can I turn in around like what happened in 2019? The only thing that has changed are the menus. I am not staying within the desired calorie limit in 2020. It's been a strange year, and a struggle for many people. However, I know that years like this is when I need to stay the strongest and follow the plan.

Is the plan too hard? Too complicated? No.

Copied from my main page:
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Important Things to Remember:
1. Keep your plan simple. Do not complicate it with a bunch of rules that make it difficult.
2. Don't expect perfection. No guilt.
3. Expect plateaus.
4. Don't get in a rush.
5. Listen to your body.
6. Never give up on yourself.
7. Keep it fun.

It is your journey. It can be anything you create it to be. You set up the guidelines. You can change them as you go.
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Here's the Nutrition breakdown, also from my Main page:
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Nutrition goals
Intermittent fasting and one-meal-a-day (IF and OMAD) don't tell me what to eat. They tell me when to eat.
It has made a sustainable difference in my journey. It is a healthy way to live. Fasting lets my body switch from go mode to repair mode. (There are many kinds of fasts.)

1. While I may eat what I want on OMAD, it's important to strive for balance. Get enough protein. Listen to my body. Stop eating when approaching full.
2. Eat fruits and vegetables.
3. Make water the beverage of choice. Reach for black coffee or tea without additives when I want something besides water.
4. Because of health issues, I avoid sugar.
5. IF and OMAD help me avoid grazing all day (or night!) or reaching for junky snack foods.
* * * * *

That's it. Very simple. It works when I stick with it.

Stay with the one who brought me to the party. I was VERY happy with the results in 2019.

Though not a favorite movie, one memorable quote came from the movie HOPE FLOATS, starring Gena Rowland, Sandra Bullock, and Harry Connick Jr. Mom Gena is talking to daughter Sandra. "You think behind every chance, there's another one? It's the worst kind of extravagance, spending chances."



That socked me in the gut when I heard it. I've watched the movie several times, and it still has the same impact.
I have unwisely spent a lot of chances in my lifetime. Today doesn't matter because there is always tomorrow. I have less tomorrows now then I had before.
Someday none of this will matter when I leave this earth and take up residence in heaven. That will be a very glad day.
However, while I am here, it matters. It affects my independence.

What do we picture when we think of our golden years? No matter what we visualize, we see ourselves as able to enjoy those golden years. There may be unforseen things that dim the rosy glow, but we MUST do what we can to stay healthy. This body is the vehicle that takes us through the years.

Our bodies are less forgiving as we age. Our body is fighting for us. It wants to be healthy. We have to partner with our body, make more healthy choices than unhealthy. Those wasted chances over the years become an issue.

As long as we are living, there is still a chance to make healthy choices today. Some things may not be reversible, but many are. We must fight for ourselves.

Don't waste today. I am not expecting perfection. I am expecting to lose the attitude that all these little things don't really matter in the overall scheme. It's those little things that add up to the big picture. It's years of little things that have put my health in jeopardy and cost me some independence that I am fighting to reclaim.

When I was 12-14 years old, I started experiencing bone problems, surgeries and using crutches. From 15-30 years old, it was a new life, thanks to those surgeries. Walking normal. I could do almost anything I wanted. I bowled in leagues three nights a week. My body let me go places and take pictures that I can't do today.
Somewhere in my early 30s, I took a headlong plunge off a friend's front porch on a snowy Christmas eve. Life changed again. I had to use a cane to walk. It still didn't stop me from traveling, even climbing rugged terrain in Alaska and elsewhere. I had a fairly successful career, working in healthcare management for one of the biggest employers here.
In 2004 my life changed again. The major surgery that was to improve my life and turn back time so that I would no longer need a cane, brought disappointing changes.
I was caregiver to my folks. Lost my mother in 2005 after a declining health and a devastating illness (cancer). A bad economy in 2008 caused the healthcare facility to scale back, which included a lot of management, including me after working there 35 years. The golden lining was spending more time with my father and going places with him, like visiting out-of-state siblings. After a life-changing illness in late 2010, he passed away in 2012. Big changes in my health during this time.
All of my family have had various kinds of cancers, all 8 of us. Some of us had an easier time of it, some struggled and went through long treatments. One sister passed in 2013. And now there are 5 of us left.

Then Suz and her husband were brutally attacked when someone broke into their house on a sunny Saturday morning in May 2016. Her husband survived but still has physical issues. Our family will never be the same.
Our faith kept us strong. We don't understand why but we trust the One who knows. It is a comfort to think of her in Heaven with all our other loved ones.

I've lost two of my closest friends. That happens as we get older. It reminds me of my Aunt's funeral. During visitation her 102 year old husband wondered where all their friends were, not taking into account that even though they had a rich social life, many of their friends had already passed from this earth.

2020 has been a strange year. Too many have lost dear ones. I personally do not know anyone who had the virus. We've been very fortunate not to require hospitalization where no one can visit during this pandemic. My heart goes out to those who have suffered.

I am not ending this blog on a negative note because I am full of hope for the future, and especially the things that I can still control...like living healthy. Do what I can do every day. It ALL matters. Not expecting perfection. Not expecting no plateaus on the journey. But I HAVE to stop treating each little tempting morsel like it is no big deal because I can get right back on track any time I want to. That attitude is taking me somewhere I don't want to go. It's not all-or-nothing. It's being more consistent in my behavior. It matters. Staying the course consistently is the only way to reach this goal. Being inconsistent is what has led me to weigh more today than when I started this journey in 2004. No more extravagantly wasted chances. It's not worth it.
I love waking up each morning, looking forward to weighing. It's a pat on the back for staying the course. I love getting into smaller clothes. I love being able to move easier. I love being independent. I am so close to independence in getting into my car. Then I can go where I want when I want. My family is still trying to wrap me in cotton wool, thinking one of them has to go with me. I usually acquiesce, although I get myself in and out of the car and do the driving. Soon. Very soon now. Lord, let it be so.

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The 3 and 6 year old are staying another night. The 12 year old (step-grandchild) is going to her "GiGi"s. The two oldest are doing on-line school so they have to be home Monday.

Our house is looking like a preschool with all the beautiful artwork and pictures everywhere. Someday soon I'll do a blog and post some of the pictures. RJ is so creative and does arts-and-crafts with them. This weekend she had them making cookies, even the 3 year old. His cookies were longer and narrower (instead of round) because of the way he rolled them out between his hands.They make good dunkers. The 6 year old helped to make a very small batch of deviled eggs tonight. RJ calls them angel-eggs.

The 3 year old took a nap. By night time, we wished the 6 year old had, too. She got a little cranky just before bedtime. They are both are usually good about minding. He's my honey-bunny and she's my peacock girl because of her current hairdo: rainbow colored hair on one side, and cut close and kept natuarally dark on the rest of her head.



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The 3 and 6 year old grands are here overnight. The 6 year old helped make chocolate chip cookies.

I cleaned up picture files today, then worked on genealogy.

It's almost 3:45 AM so I better get some sleep.




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7 Day Jump Start challenge starts Oct 19.

I will check into another one, Grow Your Faith, Lose the Weight. Maybe do that one in the middle of November, leading up to Thanksgiving.

Thursday was a busy day. Dropped off ballots for the presidential election at the township office. Had an appointment at the Senior Ctr to review best pharmacy plan (based on my prescriptions) for next year. Have to call her after Oct 15 to activate new plan. Then the post office and back home.

Grands were here this evening. The 6 year old is staying overnight. She's Gram-Gram's darling.
The 3 year old has sniffles, probably allergies (since colder weather). I avoid sick people because I catch what they have. When he was ready to say good bye, he always wants a hug and a kiss. I was sitting in the recliner, and didn't realize what he was doing. He's so quick. He climbed onto the footrest and right up for a hug. No kiss this time.

The president and first lady had a postive Covid test so they are doing the 14 day quaratine. I don't know how he keeps up with his hectic schedule. A rest will do him good, if he gets it. Praying for a speedy recovery.

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Not you. Not today. Others before you may have, but it stops here...with you. You will not burn out and fade away. You will not give up. When the demons come calling you will call on God and fight. You will notice the fight doesnt seem so hard as you keep moving forward. You will notice different fights and different battles but you will learn to hit your defense quicker and faster and with more assurance. Your call to God becomes the new habit instead of wallowing in the enemies words. God's word becomes your guide. The scriptures, the prayer, the bible studies...get you through to fight another day. Not just to fight but to find joy again. Because the enemy....the enemy was never as tough as you made him out to be. Not once you became a part of God's family. Not once you realized who and what Jesus really died for. You will not give up today.





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So how did yesterday go?

Sleep, good. 9+ hours. My lower back is hurting. Got up several times to use the bathroom, then back to bed again...because I can. I am trying to stay in bed longer to get the swelling down in my feet and lower legs.

Exercise, good on some exercises, but need to get back to where I was earlier this month with all the P.T. leg exercises.

Nutrition. Morning, excellent. Afternoon-evening, needs improvement.

I prefer to eat one-meal-a-day between 1400-1600 hrs. When I eat earlier, it opens the door to munching later in the evening.

RJ likes philly cheesesteaks. Yesterday she made a sandwich for each of us for lunch. They were small, on a hamburger bun, skimpy on beef, generous on onions, so not outrageous in calories.
I ate again later in the day. A snack that turned into a full meal. Over the top of the calorie range.
Down 2.4 pounds this morning.

Doing great on water. Goal 64 ounces a day. I've been drinking over 100 ounces a day. I fill my water bottle to the top, about 36 ounces.I have been drinking 3+ bottles a day. Yesterday I drank about 90 ounces of water and 1 cup of black coffee.

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Today is Monday, Sept 21. I have not been enjoying this journey lately. Too much stress.

It has been a slippery slope since Sept 9, slowly picking up speed going in the wrong direction. Am I becoming the poster child for emotional eating?


That's easier said than done when it involves the behavior of those I care about. Here is what I must focus on: I can't control their behavior, but I can control mine! Deviating from the habits that make me healthier robs me of the strength to deal with the fall-out from the choices my loved ones make. It makes me feel helpless, and that makes me cry.

Visualize drawing a line in the sand, and saying, "No more." The line designates where my bad behavior ends, and the start of a glorious new beginning, full of possibilities.


There has to be some conscious effort put into behavior changes during the first couple of days. It is surprising how little time it actually takes to make them habit again. Is it because they were habits previously, so the thought patterns just need reactivating?



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When I am weak, I have resources. I need to use them. Just a reminder...








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There is a phrase, "Babylon has fallen, has fallen." The words "...has fallen, has fallen..." (regarding my plan) are echoing through my brain. Maybe it's a take on the phrase "the mighty have fallen." It is not a good place.

I have gained 9.4 pounds since last Monday.
The calories tell the real story. Official range 1200-1500. For now, Dr Michael Mosley's Fast 800.

Sept 1, Tues - 680 cal - down 0.2 pound
Sep 2, Wed - 644 cal - down 1.4
Sep 3, Thurs - 617 cal - down 1.8
Sep 4, Fri - 989 cal - up 1.4. Why???
Sep 5, Sat - 785 cal - down 0.4
Sep 6, Sun - 847 cal - down 2.4
Sep 7, Mon - 677 cal - down 0.8
Sep 8, Tues - 1016 cal - up 1.0
Sep 9, Wed - 2482 cal - down 2
Sep 10, Thurs - 1353 cal - up 1.4
Sep 11, Fri - 2957 cal - up 3
Sep 12, Sat - 1743 cal - up 0.2
Sep 13, Sun - 2949 cal, stayed the same
Sep 14, Mon - 1393 cal, up 5.8
Total net gain of 4 pounds since Sep 1.

1. Last week was extremely stressful. On Monday, Sept 7, adult child proposed moving her family (2 adults, 3 children) in with us for "two months" until they can get on their feet financially.

2. Wed, Sept 9, I had mammogram appt in the morning. In the afternoon I took Sis to her eye appt. The children have been with us frequently, sometimes overnight. OMAD went by the wayside but I tried to adhere to intermittent fasting.

3. Friday, Sept 11, intermittent fasting wavered. Still fasting each day, but eating window expanded! Same behavior spilled over into the weekend.

4. Sugary and salty foods have crept back in the last few days. While OMAD and IF don't exclude any foods, I personally chose (for health reasons) to avoid candy, chips, and pop when I went on this plan.

Today is a turn-around for me, to follow my IF and OMAD plan that work so well.
I feel good about this. I am full of quiet determination and bubbling with hope.

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I've been a little off track the last two days. My one-meal-a-day has become two. I was over on calories yesterday, and up 1 pound this morning. Today I am good on calories, so we'll see what happens tomorrow.

I did a lot of extra walking yesterday. I was so tired last night, fighting to stay awake while everyone was here. At 7PM, I went to bed. My feet started hurting, the tingling burning pain from neuropathy. Amazingly, I fell asleep fast and did not wake up until 5AM. No trips to the bathroom in the night.
This morning I felt decrepit, achy and not moving well. Back pain. I skipped exercise.

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Down 2 pounds today. That makes up for gaining 1 pound yesterday, doesn't it?

I had the annual mammogram today. The oncologist visit will be in October.

The decision has been made (not by me) that they are moving in during October, supposedly for 2 months until they can get on their feet. Five extra people here. I am catching their bills up.

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Up a pound today. Yesterday seemed like a regular day. Sleep, exercise and calories all good. No easily discernible reason for a gain.
But it's only one day of many on this journey. Stay the course and see if it doesn't self-correct.

A negative yesterday. Our sponging child was here. At wit's end because her check doesn't cover their bills. She proposes moving in with us until they can save enough to get their own place.
So I am feeling stressed. Praying. Tired but unable to sleep last night. (I slept in this morning so it's covered.)
Stress and emotions can affect weight loss. Is that why I am up a pound today?

On the positive side, I wanted to eat a Reese's peanut butter cup or a Dove ice cream bar last night. I had enough calories left for both! It would have broken my intermittent fasting, one-meal-a-day, no added sugar plan. I did not give in. As a reward for staying on plan, the scale could have at least stayed the same. *sigh*

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Read an interesting blog on Spark today. It was about Pizza Day.
www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_public_journal_
individual.asp?blog_id=6700777


Link to the Pizza Museum.
uspizzamuseum.com/

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Reached a milestone today, a little below what I weighed at the beginning of 2020. I am so glad! It's been a long time. Three more pounds will put me below my lowest weight in 2019.

I stumbled into a video by a guy I used to watch. He and his followers do a regiment involving water or dry fasting. They are so positive and supportive. They inspire me to make changes.
But when I tried doing some water fasting last year, it made me feel good but it didn't bring the lasting results I wanted. There would be a bigger drop in weight, then a gain when I ate a healthy few days in my calorie range.
With intermittent fasting and OMAD, I had done so well, dropping a little most days. Then in December 2019 I tried to incorporate water fasting days. I felt good but lasting weight loss came to a halt. The ups and downs meant I was still the same at the end of the month as I was at the beginning. That was discouraging.
I tried to go back to intermittent fasting and OMAD in 2020 but it was not consistent. The streaks were short-lived. It wasn't until August that IF and OMAD were consistent habits again.
So I am not about to mess with it again, even when progress feels slow. The last two weeks have been a loss of 7.4 pounds each week. That is NOT slow. How ironic that both weeks were exactly 7.4 pound losses.

Re-gains have plagued me since I started this. Most of the time the re-gains were enough to wipe out the losses or even move me way above where I started. It was plain to see when this happened during times I would get discouraged and give up. It was not apparent to me how often it happened every week when I was on winning streaks. Once I realize that last year, it became my focus to minimize the constant ups and downs every week. I thought of maintenance as what happens when I reach that magical end-goal weight. Now I know that maintenance must happen every day of the journey to hang on to evey hard-won loss.

During the last two weeks (when I really re-set IF and OMAD), I had a gain on one day each week. Aug 27 I had a well deserved gain of 0.2 when I was about 700 over on calories the day before. On Sept 4, I had a weight gain of 1.4 that was a bit perplexing because everything was the same as it usually is. Calories in the same range. Same exercise. Was sleep different? It was 8 hours, but was it contingent hours or in segments? Sleep affects water retention and loss.
I had weighed earlier than usual on Sept 3, about 4 AM. It showed a gain. Later I weighed at the usual time and it showed a tiny loss from the day before so that is what I recorded.
It caught up with me when I weighed Sept 4, so I bit the bulllet and recorded the weight that was 1.4 pounds higher than Sept 3. At some point, I can't keep messing with me. Normally I only weigh once each day, shortly after I get up in the morning. I know it is only one day out of many. I accept what it says. I was having trouble accepting it then because I could not see a discernable reason for it. I've been weighing each morning for years, and it has been quite consistent, in line with what I did the day before. I am past the hormonal cycles.

My lowest weight was the day I started Spark in 2006. My highest weight was in May 2019. May I never see that weight again! I have 27 pounds to go to reach my starting weight. I will be below that by the end of this year. That will be a major celebration for me.

Some people get discouraged by numbers. I love 'em. They excite me. Measuring inches and pounds is a fairly accurate way to assess progress (or lack of it). I can't depend on my feelings. They have lied to me. The numbers tell a more accurate story.


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Dang, dang, dang. I was writing an entry, when Poof! The page jumped back to something else I was working on earlier on Spark. I can't seem to retrieve what I was writing. Guess I will have to save as I write.

It's been another good day. Sleep, exercise, nutrition...all good.

Sleep. Woke up a half hour early, around 4 PM. Took a long nap late afternoon. All is well.

Exercise. It is easier to do first thing in the morning, so that is my habit. After warming up a little, I do the hardest exercise first before I tire. Some days it's a piece of cake and I don't want to stop. Other days it becomes painful when the chill of cooler weather comes on. (Why didn't I move to a warmer climate like my doctor recommended so many years ago? Rhetorical question. My family are here.)

Nutrition. I prefer to eat my one meal a day after 4 PM. The last couple of days it's been around 6 PM. That makes getting through the evening a breeze. No hunger at all.
I've heard recommendations to eat that one meal closer to noon. Too early for me. I have pushed it as early as 2 PM.
I am not hungry in the morning. My normal routine is to drink black coffee when I first feel any stirrings, anywhere from 11 AM to1 PM. That gets me through to the time I want to have my meal
It is recommended not to drink coffee later in the day because it can interfere with sleep. If I have the meal too early, that causes a dilema when I am not satisfied with just water later in the day.

My weight loss is slowing down, even has crept up one day a week lately...even though I can see nothing to cause that. I mean, calories and everything are pretty much the same every day.
My loss is good. I'm not disparaging that. Slow progress is still progress. Actually, it's all good. I am not going to drop dramatically. That only happens the first week.

However, I wondered if having different eating times lately (like eating after 6 PM the last two days) had anything to do with it. I will try to keep it between 2 - 4 PM.

It was good I ate earlier today. My pregnant niece and her two children dropped in today. They have not been here since the pandemic. We used to frequently watch the kids while both parents were at work. They are missed. (Other grandkids have been here since they moved back a few months ago.)

RJ and Sis take turns staying with an older couple on Sunday morning so the husband can go to church. His wife is bedfast. They make Sunday dinner ahead of time to take with them for the couple.

RJ had a ham in the slow cooker today. I assumed it was for Sunday dinner for the older couple and us.

After my niece and her kids left, RJ told me ham was ready, if I wanted some. I already ate. I wondered how I would get through this, so I acknowledged her offer but didn't move. A little while later when I was in the kitchen refilling my water glass, she asked if I tried the ham. She seemed to accept my explanation that I would wait until tomorrow.
I quietly go about my one meal a day. I don't think my family realizes that is what I am doing because we tend to eat when we are hungry. They prepare food at more traditional times: breakfast, lunch, and supper. That's one of the reasons I like having my one meal a day around 2-4 PM. No questions about what I am eating.

I chose to make the bedroom off the kitchen mine, away from the rest of the bedrooms. (It has it's own bathroom.)
So now I smell the delicious aroma of cooked ham. My first thought when RJ told me the ham was ready is that I do have some calories left. I like it with cranberry sauce. That pumps up the calories.
Am I hungry? I am drinking water and black coffee. I am not hungry.
Will I regret the extra calories tomorrow? Probably. (See what I wrote above about weight loss slowing down.)
Will off-plan eating mess me up? It doesn't have to. Even though I have been at this long enough to realize that an all-or-nothing mindset is self-defeating, it still make me feel a little discouraged when I don't stay the course. There is really no good reason to eat right now. So I won't.

There, that's settled. Wasn't that easy?





Ah, the road to success. Another good day makes me feel good all over! Warm and cosy, happy all the way to my toes. *smile* It's one of those nights when my spirit takes wings and soars.

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Losing weight seems to go so slowly. That's why I don't look too far ahead. I've set mile marker goals, and I only look to the next goal. Sometimes even that seems far when the scale creeps downward in fractions of a pound. So I look to the next step. The next goal is one pound down. Then another pound.

I can't let discouragement creep in by the slowness of losing pounds and inches. Discouragement is never our friend...unless it spurs us into action. I have set up a good plan. I will stay the course.

I look back at where I've traveled. I weigh less than I did last month. My clothes are looser. Winter weather will be coming on, so I can't always use mobility and flexibility as a measure. Winter is not kind to those with arthritis. The effects of winter would be worse if I weighed what I used to weigh. It will improve as I continue this journey, doing the things that work with my body for better health.



This reminds me of something a doctor once said. Even one pound a week is 52 pounds a year.
That is better than staying the same or gaining! If I had lost one pound a week when I started in 2006, I would have been in maintenance years ago. Don't look down on the power of slow losses.

I have 40 pounds to lose to get back to my 2006 Spark starting weight. I will get there, one pound at a time.
Look at all the things I have been through since 2006. I came to Spark because of weight gain following major surgery in 2004. I had the same surgery again in 2009. I lost my mother in 2005, my father in 2012, my sister in 2015, my dog in 2015. I had cancer in 2015. I was promoted at work until I reached a level that was eventually eliminated in 2008, after 35 years working for them. (I was in good company. All the vice presidents were eliminated the same day, along with a number of management positions.)
So I have been through a lot since 2004. I have gained too much weight. I have not always taken care of myself.

I had once looked forward to spending at least an hour or more at the gym everyday. That changed after the surgery in 2004. I could no long use the same machines I loved, like the treadmill. The stationary bike didn't provide the same satisfaction.
Then the gym closed. My membership was moved to another outlet across the state line. Not convenient. I had moved into caregiver role to my father and could not leave him alone.

The biggest weight gain came after my father had passed. I had been in "go" mode for so long, doing everything I had to do at work and caring for my folks. It should have been a time when I could finally do all the things I wanted to do. Instead I felt incredibly tired. Soon I was the one needing assistance. My independence slowly slipped away.

Now independence is the goal. I am teaching myself to get into my car by myself. Once I feel confident in my ability to do that, I can once again go where I want.
The second thing I need is renewed stamina and increased energy to be able to do the things away from home by myself. I am doing fine around the house, but I want to go places and do things.

I am exercising every morning. Not at the level as when I went to the gym. I am doing the things I learned in physical therapy: side kicks, back kicks, front kicks, side steps. Walking. The orthopaedic surgeon told me that I should never do stepping machines at the gym because of the surgery. There are steps in my house so I do modified stepping exercises. Coming up stairs is slow and tedious for me so I work on it.
I do exercises for my shoulder. The shoulder with the torn rotator cuff has improved. The other shoulder still needs to be replaced when my health improves. I am doing the rangemaster (over the door rope and pulley) to work my shoulder.
I also do arm curls with weights to build up strength in my arms.

The grandkids are fascinated with the exercise equipment and handicap assistance devices. I've let them "use" the 1 and 3 pound weights. The 3 year old tends to drop the 3 pound weight so I steer him to the 1 pound weight, much against his wishes. Everything else is off limits because they are too rough with them, and these are things I need (like the rangemaster, rollator, lift chair, "grabber").

I want resistance bands to do other physical therapy exercises I've learned over the years. The colors indicate the resistance. I can't remember which colors I used. Was it red, green, and blue? RJ has two wimpy bands in pastel colors I didn't use. I don't want wimpy bands.



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Each year I create an xcel chart on my computer to show my weight progress. It's good to have a record. Facts over feelings.
The first chart was 2009. Then I missed some years. The charts have been consistent 2016-2020.
Last night I was flipping through my 2015 book that contains my weight efforts. I had torn it apart for shredding since one can't hang on to stuff indefinitely. This was not a journal of thoughts and events. Just weights, sometimes calories, sometimes a few words to describe something going on. 2015 my sister died. My dog died. I was diagnosed with cancer and had surgery. I have made 5 trips to Sault Ste Marie (5 days each time) to visit family.
That made me realize the choice to throw the book away might be a bit hasty. I checked online and realized I had no xcel chart for 2015, so I created a simplified chart last night (without the calculations I usually do), just recording weights and calories when available in the book. I also noted important life-changing events on another simplified over-view xcel weight chart going from 2004 to the present. Now I don't feel bad about getting rid of the paper record.


Last night I wandered into a YouTube video of a man who had bought an unpaid storage unit. The person who put the stuff in storage had died. The man was looking through the neatly packaged boxes while his mother made a video of the process. First there were individually wrapped music boxes, a lot of music boxes. She was a collector. There were many things from their travels. There were a lot of well-kept things from their household. There were a lot of pictures and military medals that the man said he would try to get to the family. There were a enormous amount of expensive looking ham operator equipment. The owner was not an amateur.There was some nice camera and movie making equipment. There were personal items for a man and woman. All very neatly packaged and labeled.

I realized we were looking at a lifetime accumulation of very nice items. Someone had invested a lot of time and effort here, and now had left it all behind as they moved into the next life.
That caused me to really think about all the stuff I have. Not the first time I've thought about it. There are multiple generations of stuff in this house, from my great grandparents down to the great-great grandchildren. What am I going to do with it?

Ridding out the desk has been on my list for awhile. It's a good thing to do on a regular basis. Most of the drawers are in order. But still...that paper and photos and things that accumulate! Last night I started to tackle that again. I mean to be ruthless. I don't want someone else to do this after I'm gone.
I have more than one room that have too much stuff stored in them. The basement, the den, and a bedroom that has been used for storage.
Everybody sees a big house and a barn and asks to store things. I've had to say no. The barn is clean. The main rooms in the house are good. The attic is clean. Now to get really serious about the rest. Life does not go on forever. Health does not always permit us to do things tomorrow that we put off doing. Now is the time.

I've been telling myself for years that I am going to sell stuff that the family won't want after I'm gone. Then it got hard for me to get into my car to run to the post office. COVID hit making it even harder. Will my family even know the value of things? I am sorry to see antiques and heirlooms go out of the family. I have passed on the things the next generation wanted.



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I made Totchos for supper. It's a Farm Stand recipe. First time we tried Alexia bite-size sweet potato tots.
Totchos may be be a play on nachos. It reminded me of a taco salad.

The sweet potato tots were prepared in the oven according to package directions. They were crispy on the outside, soft on the inside.
Put a layer of tots on each plate, then lettuce, taco meat, tomatoes, jalepenos, black beans, green onions, and cheddar cheese. Last , I topped mine with a small amount of salsa and sour cream. I skipped the jalepenos. Total calories 617.

A picture from the recipe. Mine looked a little different because of toppings.


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The element came in early to repair the oven. The repairman installed it yesterday, so we can use the oven again!

I called the man who put the stone cladding on the chimney years ago because the stone is falling off. He said it shouldn't do that and he'll be out this week to look at it. He's also going to look at the support post in the basement that is leaning slightly. I've used his construction company for a number of projects, like installing new windows, replacing the siding, building new doors for the barn.

Terminex returned my call and set up an appointment for the spiders. Eeeeck. I do not like them. Since we've had Terminex, we've not had many bugs at all. They do a fine job. We are starting to see a few spiders, so they need to come inside when they do the routine visit this time. We live in the country so their service is essential. We have not had a single mouse since we've had Terminex.

I am off to a slow start this morning. Time to get my exercise and quiet time in.

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It's the first day of September. The sun is shining. It's a beautiful day.

One week recap
Aug 26, Wed - down 1 pound
Aug 27, Thurs - up 0.2 pound
Aug 28, Fri - down 0.4 pound
Aug 29, Sat - stayed the same
Aug 30, Sun - down 1.4 pounds
Aug 31, Mon - down 2.6 pounds
Sept 1, Tues - down 0.2 pound
Total - down 4.4 pounds

Some days have been a breeze. Some days I have to be more mindful. Last night was another mini-struggle. Not really a struggle. Just more inner dialog about eating something outside my eating window. When I'm spot on, I would never give that a second thought because the answer would be to wait until tomorrow when it's time to eat again.

The kids don't eat a lot at meals. RJ has to get on the 3 year old to get him to eat what she prepares at meals. He wants to snack. His dad says chips are his favorite thing. We've had to tell him not now.
The 6 year old is better about eating at mealtime. She's very slender. Her 3 year old brother weighs 12 pounds more than she does.

Last night we were sitting in the living room. The 3 year old was playing with his little cars and other vehicles. When he showed me a yellow one, I thought he said omelet. I said school bus. He said, no, omelet. Finally figured out he was trying to say ambulance. He's at that age that is still a little hard to understand some of the things he says.
That led to a discussion with the 6 year old about what an omelet is. She decided she wanted one. RJ said she had never made one. She's a good cook so that amazed me. I said it's easy: beat the eggs, pour them in the pan. Add cheese and fold it over. Of course, you can add anything, but that was the simple version. Not really so different from the scrambled egg topped with a little shredded cheese that she sometimes makes for them.
Soon the aroma of omelet was floating from the kitchen. I was done eating. Suddenly I had a hankering for omelet. Crazy. I said no, thank you. An hour later I'm still thinking about it! No, I did not eat again.

The last two days had a rise in total calories, coming in about the same, and a second eating episode after my OMAD meal.

Monday: I had my OMAD meal and was done for the day. It was more calories than I prefer but still within a healthy range. When it's that high, my loss slows down. Early evening I felt a momentary urge to eat. I poured a cup of black coffee. Then, stupidly, I added a splash of coffee creamer. I don't use creamer. During the fasting hours, I only have my coffee black. It was only a few calories for the creamer but it broke the fast. I adjusted the fasting hours for my IF team challenge down to make the eating window longer for Monday.

Tuesday: I was preparing my OMAD meal after 4 PM. The Romaine had been pushed to the back of the fridge (where vegetables tend to freeze). It should have been down in the drawer but those were full of other veggies. This fridge only has two side-by-side bottom drawers. With the Romaine no good, that ended my plan for a nice big salad. I cut up a large tomato and peeled a hard boiled egg. I added cottage cheese to the tomato. Still not really a meal.
RJ was making modified corndogs, all baked in one pan. Cornbread with franks embedded. I had some of that., taking my calories over 1000.
The 3 year old was still sleeping then. When he woke up, he finally settled for cereal. He thought he wanted frosted mini-wheats. RJ told him he wouldn't eat it. He tried one, liked at the white coating, and said he liked it. He ate one square.

Months ago when I wasn't sticking to IF and OMAD, I saw an ad for a limited edition caramel version of Apple Jacks cereal. I thought they would be nice for snacking, dry. (When I worked, I would keep a cup of dry Kashi Go Lean cereal at my desk and it would last me for snacking the whole week. It kept me from using the popular vending machines at work.)
I added them to the grocery list, but RJ said she couldn't find them. The only place I could find them was on Amazon for a ridiculous price from the third-party vendor. They also still have them in a quantity of 8 boxes in a package. Now that I am no longer looking for them (since I am doing IF and not snacking), my niece finally found them when she was shopping and brought me a box. The kids decided that is what they wanted.
I wanted to try them before they all disappear. They had sat on the cupboard, unopened, for several days. I could add them to my OMAD meal and work them into my calorie count. So, like with the creamer the night before, I poured about a half cup of dry cereal and munched while the kids were eating. That was all I ate. They moved on to one small omelet, divided between them. I wanted one but said no.
Expanded my eating window for the second day in a row. Both days I was around 1000 calories and added only a few more with the creamer on Monday, then the dry cereal on Tuesday. Calories were still acceptable. However this is opening the door to deviate from the IF windows I've designed. Again, not really a big deal but I prefer to stay with one meal a day, and fasting the rest of the time (with water, black coffee, or tea without additives during fasting hours). Flexing off plan should be reserved for more momentous occasions and not an everyday occurrence. I've come too far, struggled too many years. I know my tendency to wander off when I loss my commitment to my plan. Not beating myself over the last two days. It's not all-or-nothing. It's commitment. Why have a plan if I don't follow it? The plan works. It's the first lasting success I've had in years. It's sustainable.
I've wandered during the first 7 months of this year, not far. After having a dynamite second half of 2019, why should I undo everything and go back to where I don't want to be? So, after several short-lived starts in 2020, in August I've done a better job of sticking with the plan, with only one week of off-plan wandering. Success is precious and short-lived if not nurtured. I am not willing to carry around these extra pounds any more.They make me sad. I choose to stay the course I have designed.

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Feeling good today. I flew through the morning exercises, so deep in thought, that I went past the normal number of times I do each exercise.
My sets in each rep have been 12 for a long time. The last few months I've increased it to 17 in each rep. Today I forgot to stop at 17 during some of the sets! It felt so good.

Did you know that if you post more than 2 exercises in the Fitness Tracker, Spark only shows 2 of them in your Feed? Strange. It makes people think that's the only exercise you did all day. Oh, well. Maybe it would take up too much room in the Friend Feed if it showed everyone's whole exercise routine each day. It's important to add the exercise as we do them during the day.

I received a 1500 fitness reward this month. 1500 minutes divided by 60 equals 25 hours. Can that be right? 25 hours in a month? That seems like a lot. When I went to the gym everyday when I was younger, 25 hours a month would have been a low count...but now? I can't jump on a machine and work for an hour. The exercise I am doing are mostly legs and arms/shoulders, along with walking. Spark lets us include house cleaning, too. I am not active like I used to be.

There has been some improvement in mobility. I am able to get into the car by myself (with the aid of my handy-dandy loop thingy that lets me lift my foot in). Stairs are still slow going. I take them sidestep with both hands on the rail to the right, since my shoulder doesn't work to let me grab the other rail as I climb.
I use the walker to get started from a sitting position some of the time, mostly for balance. I walk around the house without the walker most of the time.

My back hurts when I stand very long, especially when I stand in place (like waiting in line at the check out). By the time I finish washing dishes, my back is letting me know that I need to sit down as soon as possible.


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I had almost finished a lengthy entry yesterday morning. Went looking for a picture I wanted to use. Accidentally closed out the window with the entry. Poof! All gone. I did not feel like re-creating it then.
So, moving on...

Aug 21, Fri - stayed the same
Aug 22, Sat - down 1.2 pounds
Aug 23, Sun - down 3.8 pounds
Aug 24, Mon - down 2.8 pounds
Aug 25, Tues - down 2 pounds
Aug 26 Wed - down 1 pound
Aug 27, Thurs - up 0.2 pound
Aug 28, Fri - down 0.4 pound
Aug 29, Sat - stayed the same
Aug 30, Sun - down 1.4 pounds

On the 25 pounds by Christmas challenge, I am down 8.4 since June 28, 2020.

I was doing well early in August, wandered off track mid August, back on track the last part of the month. I have to guard against that tendency to wander. Apathy is my big bugaboo.

I am not hungry in the morning. After 11 AM, I start with the black coffee. I prefer to eat after 4 PM. Then I am not hungry the rest of the night.

If I eat too early, I am hungry later. Late night is always my problem time, so I want to still feel comfortably full then.

Sometimes I start feeling slightly hungry after 11 AM. That's where black coffee helps.

Hunger comes in waves. Drinking water or coffee or distracting myself gets me past those little ripples.

I am not denying myself food.I will eat a good meal. I eat what I want, trying to be thoughtful about including enough veggies and protein.

Today RJ is brining chicken for our meal. I will make it my one meal for the day, eat what I want, stop when approaching full.

BobbieSocks, the captain of my intermittent fasting team, recommended watching videos from Amanda Rose. She is part of the Eat Like a Bear group on Facebook. This is the first I've come across her. She has a number of videos on intermittent fasting on YouTube that I have started listening to. She frequently makes her big meal an enormously huge salad topped with protein. Her dressings include apple cider vinegar so that she doesn't have to do the drink everyday.
I thought my bowl for salads was big. Her bowl makes mine look small. Neither of us fill the bowl more than half-full of greens. My salads are about 2 cups of greens. I use the bigger bowl so I can mix it a little before eating and get a little bit of everything in each bite. When the bowl is too small, the greens fall out when trying to get a little of everything in a bite...or trying to cut the chicken into bite size pieces in restaurant salads.

This week there were signs in front of some of the restaurants that they are now open for in-store dining. I'll probably wait a little longer. I am so ready for some of my favorite whole-meal salads, like spicy chicken salad, spinach with chicken and cranberries.

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Had a fairly good day. Grandkids have gone home. The house is quiet. Everyone is sleeping except the perpetual night owl.



Today's recap:
Exercise. I find it physically easier if I do it early in the morning. That has become my habit.

Sleep. Not perfect because I stay up too late. How do people ever spend 8 hours in bed at one time? I took a little nap in the late afternoon.

Nutrition. On track. I wrote quite a bit about that in the entry below. Coming in great on calories. I feel great.
I prefer to eat my OMAD meal around 4 PM. I said no thank you to the lovely breakfast RJ made for the grandkids. No problem. When she made lunch, I ate around 1 PM. That meant I was no longer full in the evening, and food popped into my thoughts a couple of times. Water helps but I wanted more than that. Black coffee to the rescue. Success.

Today was the official Spark weigh-in. Down 4 pounds.

What are three good things that happened to me today?
1. I finally started the "salad book." It has been one of the tasks on my Spark start. . My appetite is a bit wonky, sometimes non-existent. I needed ideas to spark my interest, something to stir up some anticipation. The journey is always easier when there are things we looke forward to with anticipation.
I've been collecting pictures and ideas from Sparkers and other places and saving them into on online file called Healthy Meals. I will be moving ones that motivate me to create healthy meals into a small spiral notebook for easy reference. It will be something I will add to or delete over time. What inspires me today may not work tomorrow. I found that out just looking through what I have already collected.
Originally it was going to be a book of tempting salads but it's expanded to include a few other foods. Still a lot of salad ideas.

2. I unfollowed someone on unsocial media today. I don't have to see your opinion on my page if what you post keeps me upset. When it's someone not close, I can unfriend. When it's someone close to me or related to me, I can unfollow so their stuff doesn't pop up on my home page. I will miss the family pictures but the sacrifice is worth my peace of mind.

3. Another successful day, moving me closer to my goals. That makes me happy.

Good night, Spark world.



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I love numbers. I've been looking at the weight loss/gain graphs on Spark since I joined in 2006. What do they show?

Highest weight - May 3, 2019
Lowest weight - April 11, 2006

2006 - only weighed once that year (slow starter, figuring out how to use site)
2007 - net gain 19 pounds
2008 - net loss 34 pounds (low carb for 3 months)
2009 - net gain 4.5 pounds
2010 - net gain 0.5 pounds
2011 - net gain 11 pounds
2012 - net gain 13.2 pounds
2013 - net gain 16.7 pounds
2014 - net loss 4.6 pounds
2015 - net loss 56.8 pounds (cancer)
2016 - net gain 11 pounds
2017 - net gain 4.4 pounds
2018 - net gain 1.8 pounds
2019 - net loss 44 pounds (started IF and OMAD in Oct)
2020 partial year (Jan 1 - Aug 28) - net gain 0.2 pounds

Span between highest and lowest weight each year
2006 - only weighed once on Spark
2007 - lowest Feb, highest Aug 23 / gain 19 pounds
2008 - highest May 11, lowest Sept 29 / loss 42.5 pounds (doing low carb)
2009 - lowest April 27, highest Aug 10 / gain 27.5 pounds
2010 - highest Feb 15, lowest Apr 23 / loss 23.5 pounds
2011 - lowest May 2, highest Sept 10 / gain 36.8 pounds
2012 - lowest May 20 , highest Oct 6 / gain 21.6 pounds
2013 - lowest Jan 2, highest July 17 / gain 27.5 pounds
2014 - highest Jan 2, lowest Mar 17 / loss 22.2 pounds
2015 - highest Jan 1, lowest Nov 28 / loss 56.8 pounds (cancer)
2016 - highest Jun 17, lowest Nov 12 / loss 30.4 pounds
2017 - highest Oct 2, lowest Oct 20 / loss 32 pounds (in one month!)
2018 - highest Mar 1, lowest Oct 12 / loss 25.8 pounds
2019 - highest May, lowest Dec 27 / loss 69.2 pounds (started IF & OMAD in Oct)
2020 - lowest May 22, highest July 24 / gain 27.2 (only one pound to go be back to lowest weight from May 22)
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If I could maintain my losses, I would be in a different place today. When I looked at the number last year, I realized my monthly gains and losses were erasing any progress I made. There has been some progress but there needs to be much more,
This year did not start well. However, there were no major gains or losses. The line on the graph looks gently straight, only a few ripples, mostly flat, no peaks or spikes (up or down). 2020 is the first year I've managed that so maybe I am doing better at maintenance.

It is way too early to be in permanent maintenance. I am 46 pounds over my Spark starting weight,

The graphs showed that I crossed a major milestone ten years ago and have carried those pounds since then. At one point I thought I was heading up to the next higher major milestone. That's when I felt the most hopeless to turn this around.
As long as there is life, there is always hope. I will not give up. I can be so on target, in a good place. Then I lose focus and wander. Then despair and hopeless to make permanent change rears it's head.
This is my story, and that is not how it's going to end. It may not be a straight line on the graph but it will be going down on the scale.

The yellow line on the graph shows the projected trajectory for weight loss. If I had continued the losing trend from last year, the line shows my weight down 83 pounds from what I weighed today.
Jan-July were stagnant, fairly straight line. My weight is moving down again, but all the loss has been to erase any pounds I gained this year. My next weigh in should start me where I left off in Dec.

It's ironic that in 14 years I've been on Spark, I have NEVER been at or below my starting weight. That is going to change.
My first major goal is to get below that HUGE milestone weight I crossed 10 years ago. (24 pounds down from what I weigh today)
My second weight goal is to reach my Spark starting weight. (22 more pounds lost)
Third weight goal is down 29 more pounds to what I weighed Oct 2002.
Then I will assess and set goals again.


I had a major surgery in 2004 (and again in 2009). I was used to going to the gym everyday. I could not do that after surgery. There was a year long painful recovery. My body was never the same again. When I finally was able to go back to the gym, I couldn't do the same routine. Some machines I could no long use because of changes in my body.
Because of the slow weight gain during the recovery period, I started looking on line for a weight loss group. I found eDiets in 2004 and worked that. eDiets charged by the month. What I liked about eDiets was they offered menus for all the popular diet plans. That made it so easy. I tried several. The people who had the biggest losses were doing Atkins. Then they changed the site, dropped the popular plans, and only offered menus done by their dietician. I didn't want to pay for a site that no longer worked for me.

In 2006 I found Spark. It was free. The site was very confusing to me. Somehow I had opened the part for teams, employees from the same company to join. That's why there was only one weigh in for 2006.
Sometime during the next year I visited Spark again and discovered the part of the site most of us use. It wasn't until last year when I doggedly checked out more of the site that I finally found that Team America part I had first stumbled into.

2008 I joined some teams and started getting really serious about using the site. I was following a low carb plan. It was the most successful plan I've ever done.
Due to snarky comments from a teammate (who didn't like that I always came in first), I dropped out of the team. Because of the hurt inflicted, leaving the group included leaving the plan. I could have stuck with my plan and lost weight without the group. I was too hurt to think it out.

I stumbled around for awhile, made many starts. Quit too many times. Eventually I learned to hang in there but I still experienced ups and downs with my weight, even when I was being more faithful on Spark People. Motivation ebbs and wanes,. I needed more than motivation.

In October I discovered intermittent fasting. It's a fairly simple plan. It controls when I eat, not what I eat. Natuarally if I am eating less, I want the food I eat to be nutritious and filling for the most part. Everything in moderation so there is room for treats when I want them.
People don't usually count calories when they do intermittent fasting. I choose to log everything on Spark because I can pack in a lot of calories in my eating window. I'm not a breakfast person. I don't get hungry before lunch time, so my window included lunch and supper.
I like intermittent fasting because it stops the late night munching. I made the eating window close after supper.

It was a natural progression from intermittent fasting to OMAD (one meal a day). It didn't take long to realize that I was filled up after that first meal during my IF eating window. Why should I eat again if I'm not hungry?

So in Nov 2019 I was doing IF and OMAD. Dynamite combination. The weight came off just as good as it did when I did low-carb in 2008. I lost 70+ pounds from my highest weight in May 2019 till the end of the year.

In December I messed around with water fasting. Great result after fasting days. Not so great the rest of the time, even with doing IF. My weight loss slowed down because of this.
I now realize I do my bed when I follow IF and OMAD. It should be an exception to eat more than one meal.

I stumbled a bit in 2020. Now I am commited to IF and OMAD, and the weight is starting to move again.
The one thing I need to work on is quantity. If I try to eat ALL my calories in that one hour, most of the time I feel uncomfortably full. I feel guilty when I'm so full, conditioning from when fullness meant weight gain. Going over on calories is almost impossible on OMAD. I need to stop when approaching full. Don't eat more than I want just because I won't eat again until tomorrow. I won't die if I get hungry before the next eating window. I will still log everything in the tracker to ensure that I am not over on calories, but quit worrying if I fall under the bottom of my range. It is amazing how few calories it takes to sustain life since I am older and less active now. In time I will adjust the range to suit what I am doing (if Spark allows me to do that). We know many things that have been passed down traditionally (like what constitutes a healthy calorie range) is not based on science. Some people are not ready to accept new ideas. I will avoid the calorie police who want to tell everyone what to do!

I also need to slow down when I eat. I notice that I am eating faster during my one meal. Why? With the grands here, nothing is leisurely anymore!

Grands stayed over last night. RJ made pancakes (my fav) for breakfast. I said not yet because I wasn't hungry. For lunch she made goulash.
I had goulash, one big tomato, and muskmelon for lunch.
The rest of the day I'll have water and black coffee.

I think I need to drink more water. That sounds crazy with how much I already run to the bathroom because of the diuretic med I take in the morning.
Do we need less water as we get older?

Yesterday I ordered a water bottle. It was marked down $5 from the original price. Still more than I wanted to pay. Wish I could have found a design that reflects my personality. This one is nice and will work. Our precious Suz loved sunflowers. I don't want to feel sad every time I look at it.
After looking at many other styles and sizes online, I think this size and drinking spout serves me best. I would have liked a thermos style that would keep the water cold but then I can't see the markings (how much water is left).
I like that it's marked off by hours, indicating how much I should have drunk. I chose a tall and slender 32 ounce bottle that can be refilled halfway through the day to equal 64 ounces for the day. The 64 ounce bottles looked unwieldly to handle easily. If I add ice, that will add up to more water as it melts. Oh well, it's a goal.

Everyone else here has their own container, in fact several containers. Just one more the wash at the end of the day!

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Harry - Moving along at the speed of fat loss.

The Bitter Truth About Sugar by Robert Lustig | Look for it on YouTube
Added sugar is addictive, a poison, and destroys teeth.

The Ticker below is actually My Waist to Height Ratio (WHtR) Greater than 53 = Bad news.


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3 good things that happened to me today.

1. Grands were here.
2. Oven repairman came (and will be back with the replacement part next Tuesday).
3. I stayed on program all day. Woohoo!

(Writing 3 good things that happened to me is part of the goals on my Spark start page. One more point for the daily total, lol.)

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I am so on track. I love it. Note to self: don't ever believe that little voice that tells you it's hopeless to lose this weight. The future does not have to be as messy as the past.

Another successful day. Intermittent fasting, check. OMAD, check. Staying below top of calorie range, check. No eating after supper, check. Only water and black coffee during the fasting hours today, check.

The disciplines are falling into place. I am still working on nutritional choices, especially quantity and how often. It will become habit again.

Supper was a modified version of egg foo young, using less than a cup of leftover Chinese rice and veggies, and adding eggs. It was filling. The plan was to have fresh tomato with it but it never made it to the plate.



Don't you love when a plan comes together? Thank you, God, for helping me stay strong and sticking close to plan.

Good night, you wonderful ole Spark world.
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Do you ever read a blog and just have nothing to say? I always feel that if I took the time to read a friend's blog, I should let them know I was there. But then sometimes I have nothing to contribute to the conversation. Like someone asking whether taking baths affect UTI. Some of the posts gave excellent response, especially one who has experienced UTI and gave comprehensive and supportive advice. I can sympathize but I had nothing to say. "Hey, I am sorry you are going through this."

Another friend got a recall for more testing and talked about what it could mean. I've been there but I'm sure not going to talk about when I got a cancer diagnoses and alarm the poor soul when no one has even mentioned the c word.

Occasionally I resort to emoticons. Wish they had an "I hear you" emoticon when there is nothing else to say.

Then there are other blogs that trigger so many thoughts. Sometimes their words serve as a springboard to my own journal entry or blog.

What a wonderful community Spark has created for us. Thank you, Spark People!

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Yesterday was a strange day for me emotionally. It started well. I sailed through the morning routine. Exercise done early. Quiet time. Visited Spark.

At 9 AM I drove Sis to the city to order her new glasses. There was a bit of a cooling breeze. I sat in the car with the windows partly open. A fly and later a bee decided to fly in but they didn't stay long. It was quite pleasant to feel the breeze and watch the people walking by. The sky looked like it would rain but not a drop all day.

For lunch RJ made sloppy joe meat in the crockpot. The grands were coming later.

I prefer to eat my OMAD meal later in the day but will adjust when someone else is cooking. For my lunch, I chopped up a big tomato and sliced part of a green pepper into strips. RJ said the sloppy joes weren't ready. I ate the tomato and green pepper and waited...and waited. The crockpot is not as fast as the range top.
So much for my eating within my one hour window and staying on my one meal a day plan. It went downhill from there.

The kids were here. Then they left to take the 11 year old to her aunt's house where she is going to stay for a few days. Then they were back. They are storing some things at our house that they brought back from Kentucky so they were they spent considerable time in the basement, arranging things, sorting out the stuff they left here when they moved to Kentucky years ago that was still here.

I was tired and dozed in the recliner until something would wake me up. So I felt tired and little out of sorts the rest of the day. Nothing I could put my finger on. I wondered how a day that started so well could turn into this.

My calories were over the top of my limit. My intermittent fasting window expanded to two meals. I really can't call it one meal when it took that long to eat it. My weight is up 0.2 pounds this morning.

Feelings are unreliable. Today I feel great and right back with the plan. I only feel a little rueful about yesterday and things I could have done better.

1. I've been relying on God to make me strong where I am weak. I had opportunity yesterday to draw on that strength. I could tell a difference from how yesterday was compared to how it would have been a few weeks ago. I consumed too many calories but I didn't go crazy. Most of the things I ate were smaller portions. I recognized some foods were not satisfying and stopped.

2. God is not mad at me for anything that happened. I am just a tiny bit disappointed with me that I didn't change the rest of the day when I started feeling unsettled. Being tired was the underlying cause. Waiting around while the kids were in and out didn't help. I should have found something else to do.

3. What can I do different next time? Did I learn from it?
Don't procrastinate a nap if I need one.
Wait to eat until everything is ready.
At some point, close the eating window more quickly. Things will happen outside of my control.
Don't continue to have a bite of this or that just because what I ate was satisfying.
Find something that occupies my mind and keeps me content while waiting.
Don't allow negative thinking that invites hopelessness.
I am making progress. I will continue my designed journey. It works.

Yesterday with it's joy and discontent is only one day of my life. I've been blessed with a wonderful life. No life is free from stress, pain, grief or sorrow. I choose to celebrate the good, dwell on what makes me happy, work to let go of things I can't control, walk daily with my wonderful Lord. It's a good life.

The sun is shining. I'm happy. I am doing grrrrrreat!



The oven quit working last Friday. The preheat light stays on. The temperature never reached 100 degrees F even though we left it on awhile.
The repairman came today. He has to order a new element. That won't come in till Tuesday.

We have zucchini ready but can't use the oven for casseroles or bread. I have scanned through the Spark recipes for zucchini recipes that can be cooked on the range top.

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Yesterday I made Warm You Up Chicken Tortilla Soup (link above) from Spark Recipes. I eliminated shredded cheese, sour cream and Frito chips. Instead of 3 diced chicken breast, I used one ring of garlic Italian sausage, sliced. I used one very large zucchini and only one can of chunky tomatoes. I substituted spices for ones I had on hand. It turned out a little spicy. Sis and I liked it. RJ thought it was very spicy.
I had toasted multigrain bread with the generous bowl of soup. Hearty and filling. A few twinges of discomfort (too full) 20 minutes after I ate.
Total calories for yesterday 863.

Today I'm having sloppy joes, a fresh tomato, and green pepper slices. If I am still hungry I will add an apple. I may substitute a slice of multigrain bread for the hamburger bun and make it an knife-and-fork open sandwich.

Weight was done one more pound this morning from what I weighed the morning before. I am back to what I weighed June 13, 2020. I am determined to stop the rollercoaster and finally achieve the major goal from December 2019. That means 23 more pounds to go.

I am making progress now. I am making my healthy lifestyle part of my daily walk with God. Where I am weak, He is strong.





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Oh, what a beautiful mornin'
Oh, what a beautiful day
I've got a beautiful feeling
Everything's going my way.

It i a beautiful morning. The sun in shining. I feel rested. I'm off to a good start, doing all the things I do in the morning: grooming, weighed, exercise, washed breakfast dishes that were in the sink, quiet time with God. Thinking about what I am going to make today with the zucchini from brother: crockpot soup, fritters, or a stovetop meal. Oven won't be repaired before Thursday.

My weight is down 2 pounds from yesterday morning. I am thankful.

Yesterday my one meal was crockpot meatballs and perogies. I had one perogie and a handful of small meatballs. I didn't care for the perogies. I made a modified chef salad: romaine, leftover baked ham, cheese, green pepper, cherry tomatoes, a handful of chili-flavored crushed fritos to give it a little crunch, and dressing. Total calories for the meal was 931 calories.

I ate between 3 and 4 PM. Later when the grandkids came and everyone was eating, my thoughts went to food. It made me think of the blog I posted this week about the 7 Kinds of Hunger. My stomach was comfortably full. Was I experiencing nutritional hunger because what I ate wasn't satisfying? Was it habit hunger because others were eating? It wasn't sense hunger because there was nothing tempting in aroma or sight because they were eating the meatballs and perogies. Actually it was the thought of having a couple more meatballs that was tempting me. So that truly was a combination of habit hunger and sense hunger.
I didn't eat. I knew I was already over 900 calories, heading toward that magical 1200 hundred calorie goal.
I sat in the recliner, working sudoku puzzles and enjoying the time with family while they munched and talked and the kids got out some toys and played.

That moment was a turning point for me. That's the point when I usually think a few bites isn't going to matter. That leads to feeling too full. Then I feel like I'm slipping back into old ways and that this is hopeless.

I am now back to what I weighed the second week of this month. Every month my weight goes up and down, up and down, usually in a 10-20 pound range. I lose the weight, I regain the weight. I don't hold on to my hard-earned losses. And that is the main reason why I have never reached goal in the 14 years I've been on Spark. That is the pattern I have to break.

I am 9.8 pounds below my Aug 1st weight. I am going to hang on to it.

I am NOT looking at how far I have to go. That is challenging but not motivating. I only have today. What can I do today?



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Bless the Lord, o my soul, and all that is within me. Bless His holy name.

I used to hear my father quoting that psalm during his waking moments early in the morning. He was a good example. I find that psalm rolling off my tongue at different times.. This morning it just welled up from my soul.

I so enjoy the Lord's presence every day. What a blessed companion. What a wonderful Savior. I marvel that a God who is so powerful, perfect, just and holy can also be so gentle, kind, merciful, and loving. We are SO blessed!

I've been leaning on Him more to help me stay with my program. Here is the second verse from a list by Christian Women's Weight Loss group. I learned the first part of it long ago. Now I am recommitting it to memory this week.
II Corinthians 12:9-10. "But He said to me, 'My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.' Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me."

Staying the course long term is definitely one of my weaknesses. I can do it in my own strength short term. I need to look more closely at every time I start to deviate and flex in an unhealthy manner. One day usually leads to two, and that leads to a longer period where I wallow in the "slough of despond" and feel hopeless. I do not like dwelling there. Why should I CHOOSE that when I can live in the sunshine of right choices?
I am asking God to help me. Over the years, He has tried to help me. Sometimes I listen. Sometimes I choose my own willful way (eating because I WANT to eat). My whole problem is eating TOO much. More is better. Even healthy food is not good when I overeat.

My best tools are intermittent fasting (choosing to consume no calories until the eating window I chose) and OMAD (one meal a day). Sometimes that expands to more than one meal a day, which also expands the eating window. This is not wrong as long as I am cognizant of calorie totals.
With OMAD most followers do not count calories because it's fairly certain the calories will be lower for the day. My personal preference is to continue logging everything on Spark so I know exactly where I am. I can consume an amazing amount of calories at one meal when it's something like pizza.

With God's help, I am staying strong for IF and OMAD right now. I need to have a heart that will listen when He gently reminds me when I am tempted to eat when I shouldn't.
I also need to keep myself away from situations that tempt me. Don't loiter in the kitchen when I don't need to be there. If I go for a cup of coffee, get the coffee and walk away. Don't start looking around for what else I can eat.
Keep my mind busy when I am thinking unconstructively about food. There are times to think of food: planning, prepping, eating. There are times to move on, like after I'm done eating. I am laughing as I remember the old saying, "An idle mind is the devil's workshop" (or other variations of that saying.

I like watching the cooking channel on television and food/nutrition/healthy living videos online. We are so blessed with the vast variety of good information on the internet. Hard to remember how it was before we have the world wide web.
The internet is another wonderful tool. Use it for good.

How am I doing now?
Thurs, Aug 20 - 1487 calories, up 0.8 pounds after being over on calories Wed (2066)
Fri, Aug 21 - 1629 calories, weighed the same as on Thurs morning
Sat, Aug 22 - 257 calories, down 1.2 pounds from Fri morning
Sun, Aug 23 - 590 calories, down 3.8 pounds from Sat morning
Mon, Aug 24 - 931 calories, down 2.8 pounds from Sun morning

I am eating one meal a day. I am only consuming water, black coffee, and tea without additives during the fasting hours. I am not worrying about calories at this point. If I plateau, then I will re-evaluate. When I start micromanaging it, that's when my loss stops. After having a dynamite November 2019, I started changing it up in December and stalled. If something works, don't mess with it.
I am eating. I am satisfied. Very seldom am I experiencing hunger, so I am not white-knuckling through or doing anything harmful. I am not deliberately aiming for low carb. I am eating a full meal when I eat.
Thurs was a tomato sandwich for lunch, and an enchilada for supper (over on cal)
Fri was toast and marmalade for late breakfast; ham, potatoes, and corn for early supper.
Sat lunch was the beef/tomato/lettuce/cheese sub that RJ brought from town
Sun lunch was sweet and sour chicken over rice, and one slice of leftover thin crust pizza (that was more like a flavorful cracker).
So you see, even though the calories may accidentally come in lower at times, I am not starving myself. I am not fighting hunger.

I have so much weight to lose that at this point, I'm not going to get hung up on the few times I am under on calories or other things that really don't move me forward.

I am not seeking perfection. I am striving to do the things that will move me forward. I joined Spark in 2006. I have spent way too long on this journey to be more overweight than when I started. It's been a rollercoaster. Crying over spilt milk is unproductive. Past is gone, future is not here. Today I can do what I need to do.
Encompass the past and future when evaluating and preparing goals. Then develop tunnel vision to do what I have to do today.

I have learned and grown so much in the years since I've been on Spark. It keeps me going. I don't give up. I know I can do this. Others have, and so can I. There have been successful periods over the years, and I can do it again. The biggest thing I need to learn is to maintain the losses. That has been my biggest problem.

Stay committed long term. It is a lifestyle. No beginning and no ending. No beginning because it's been a lifelong journey. Each day is just one more step on that journey. No ending because I will strive to live healthy forever.
Keep the plan simple enough to follow and not grow tired or bored.







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Kids are back with their last load of household things from Kentucky. All grandkids and great grandkids have gone home. House is quiet now.

I've had a good day. Staying on track. Had a lovely time with the Lord this morning. Going deeper. Feeling His presence all day. Just whisper His name. He will never leave us, nor forsake us. Draw near to Him, and He will draw near to us. He is always thinking of us.

I've not been wanting to eat. Everything under control.
I felt slightly hungry around 11 AM. Black coffee satisfied that feeling.
RJ brought a sub sandwich from Jimmy John's, enough for the 3 of us. I generously counted it as 1/2 of an 8" sandwich so I'm sure I'm under on calories. I would rather log more calories than I actually consume so it works in my favor on the scale.That was less than 300 calories around 4PM. I am not hungry.

When I was in the kitchen filling my coffee cup, there was a quick blip on my mental screen of things to eat. I quickly said no, gave a quick thank you to God for helping me be strong, got my coffee and left the kitchen.
I will count this as a bonus, not being hungry today. I normally do not like cold sub sandwiches (which are really just lunchmeat, lettuce, tomato, and cheese). The lettuce and tomato hit the spot today, very satisfying.

RJ picked up lettuce when she shopped today so now I can make some whole-meal salads while I'm on this kick. We have tomatoes, zucchini, and green peppers from my brother's garden.


Our oven went out yesterday. The repair people won't be here before Thursday. Last night I went on Spark to look up zucchini recipes that didn't require the oven. I found several recipes for a salad with zucchini and tomato with a vinaigrette dressing. Wonder if we would like it. I found some promising soup recipes. Fritters, of course. Zucchini omelets and zucchini scrambled eggs. Zucchini stir fry. A whole bunch of goodies to try.
I have several good cookbooks I've relied on over the years. I love Joe Goodman's squash but RJ said she won't eat it because it has poppy seeds and that can create a false positive for driving under the influence, even months later. I may make it anyway and put part in another bowl before I add the poppy seeds. The seeds add so much flavor.
Another old standby is sautéed zucchini and onions with ground sausage. One recipe that I don't make as often is with stove top stuffing in the dish.
I saw a couple of recipes on Spark I would like to try once the oven is fixed. One was a zucchini crumble (like a dessert?). I wondered if it was like a mock apple pie my neighbor used to make with zucchini replacing the apples. Another recipe was a zucchini pie made with bisquick. Interesting. Probably very hearty and higher calorie.
Oh, and there were two variations: one was tuna patties made with shredded zucchini. The other was made with salmon. Sis and RJ say they hate salmon but would they know the difference between canned tuna and canned salmon made into patties?

I checked a few chores of my to-do list today. That's a good feeling. I was yelping about my back hurting when I finished but I did it. Mission accomplished. Still need to mop the small bathroom by my bedroom. That may be moved to the list for Monday morning.

I would love to get my feet up and take a nap, but I'm going to try to wait till 9PM and go to bed earlier. Maybe I'll be able to stay there more than 4 or 5 hours if I don't nap today.

We had a minor (3.4 magnitude) earthquake off the coast here in Lake Erie. That is probably about 15 miles from here. I felt and heard it, enough to say, "WHAT was that?" Finally dismissed it as a big truck rumbling past. In retrospect it was bigger than any truck I've heard. Our minds look for a logical explanation.

Today on Lake Erie, a day after the quake.


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I was feeling helpless yesterday. Hope had taken another beating. My long-term record is not good. But there still is that tiny spark that won't let me quit. I stubbornly cling to past victories. May 2019 was my highest weight. I weigh less than I did then. It bolsters my belief that this is not impossible, that I CAN do this. I need to work on consistency. Last year it became crystal clear to me that the secret lies in maintaining the losses. Too many loss and re-gains each month.



It has been a struggle. See yesterday's entry. I am over on calories too often. 11 out of 21 days of this month have been over 2000 calories. My range is 1200-1500. I lose weight when I come in closer to 1200. (The original WW plan that I followed in 1973 figured out to 1200 calories a day.)
I have been at or below range 7 out of 21 days. I was focused and stayed on track 7 days. They are in clusters: Aug 3, 4, 5, 12, 13, 14, 20.
It is not an all-or-nothing journey. However, years of personal evidence show that when I allow extra calories one day, it starts a trend.
It does not have to be this way. I need to turn it around more quickly. Last night is a good example (See entry below): I was at 1629 calories for the day (over the top of my range by 129 calories). It was evening. I wanted tuna salad for supper. Even though that is a fairly healthy choice, I did not have the calories for it. I came here to Spark and revved up my commitment, and fresh motivation followed. I did not eat again last night. Usually I gain when I am near the top of my range (1500). My body was kind to me, and rewarded me with a 1.2 pound loss this morning.

Being over on calories are not caused by binges. I may still be doing intermittent fasting through it all. Sometimes the eating window is expanded from two to six hours to allow a late breakfast around 11AM as well as the usual lunch around 3 or 4PM, and/or dinner, even though I am not snacking/munching during the day. Sometimes it is late night eating after having a beautifully on-plan day. It may be caused by having an unplanned meal/snack (usually with family) after I've maxed out calories on the planned meals for the day.
If I drink tea or coffee when I first feel like eating around 11AM, it delays hunger until my regular meal time around 3 or 4PM.

Aug 1 - 2258 cal
Aug 2 - 2535 cal, gain 0.6 pound
Aug 3 - 220 cal, loss 1.8
Aug 4 - 911 cal, loss 4.8
Aug 5 - 520 cal , loss 1.2
Aug 6 - 1465 cal, loss 1.6
Aug 7 - 2528 can, loss 2.0
Aug 8 - 1784 cal, no change
Aug 9 - 2566 cal, gain 0.6
Aug 10 - 2449 cal, gain 4.2
Aug 11 - 2306 cal, gain 1.2
Aug 12 - 921 cal, no change
Aug 13 - 950 cal, loss 1.8
Aug 14 - 916 cal, loss 1.6
Aug 15 - 2513 cal, gain 1.0
Aug 16 - 2102 cal, gain 0.8
Aug 17 - 2173 cal, gain 0.4
Aug 18 - 2011 cal, gain 2.6
Aug 19 - 2066 cal, gain 1.6
Aug 20 - 1487 cal, loss 0.8
Aug 21 - 1629 cal, no change
Aug 22 - 257 cal, loss 1.2


I weigh each morning. 8 out of 21 days showed a gain. There is a 3.2 total loss for the month so far.
I have written before about struggling to maintain my losses. This is a good example.
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Sleep is good.
Exercise, done.
Nutrition, slightly over my range.
Weight, going up.

I want to cry. Every time I see an article how to lose weight. When I hear someone talk about how hard it is. When I want to eat but need to stop. When I see what I have done to myself. When I erase hard-won successes.

My next appointment with the oncologist is in Sept. This year I am regaining the weight I lost. Month after month. I am 22 pounds over what I weighed last year. WHY am I doing this?

Other people do this. I have done this in the past.
We realize we need to be healthier. We set goals. We follow the steps we set up to achieve those goals. It works.

If others can do it, why can't I?
If I have done it before, why can't I stay consistent?
Why do I regain the weight?

I get up every morning and do the exercising first thing. Losing weight is of secondary importance with my exercise. Independence and mobility are my motivators.

I struggle to go to bed when I should, and stay in bed all night. The longest I am in bed is 4 to 5 hours on a good night. I set a goal to go to bed by midnight but can't sleep. It still helps with the swelling in my legs to have them elevated.
Sometimes I take naps when tired.

Staying within the calorie range is the hardest. Sometimes I string together an impressive streak. Sometimes I can't stay under the top of the calorie range day after day.
My plan is simple. It is not too hard. It is not too restrictive. No foods are off limit though I avoid extra sugar most of the time. Other days it sneaks in.

If I become mobile enough, I can do my own grocery shopping. Then I can set up my menu for the week again, at least a general menu with some flexibility.

But I really can't blame it all on that. I eat too much. My calories are used up for today because I had toast for a late breakfast. I had a good lunch with the family. Now it is dinner. I want a tuna salad, no bread. Maybe some fruit. I am already 100 calories over my limit. I am not experiencing hunger. I just want to eat.
So I motivated myself to stop eating for today.

I am not bingeing. Even healthy foods have calories.
My calorie range is reasonable. I know how my body reacts. 1487 calories yesterday and my weight stayed the same. 1629 today and I will have a gain tomorrow. To lose weight I have to come in closer to 1200, which is an acceptable number. I am not as active as I once was.

I can do this. Can I find the joy in eating less if it makes me healthier? Sometimes it's finding the satiety in what I eat.
One day I came in under my calorie range and felt immensely satisfied. I ate exactly what I wanted that day. It happened to be lower calorie. I had coffee in the morning. Muskmelon at noon. Supper was homemade onion and potato soup (milk based, chunky, not thick). Mom's recipe. It was an amazing 220 total calories for the day. How could I feel full? I did. That was Aug 3 and I still remember it. I was happy with what I ate and how I felt.
I realize 220 calories is not sustainable. I wasn't aiming to come in that low. It was unexpected. My range is 1200-1500, and I aim to stay closer to 1200.

Much of the problem is with my thinking. When I have habits in place, I know when I will eat and how much. When I am unfocused, I wander into the kitchen to find something to eat even when it is not time or when I am not physically hungry. When I am unfocused, it gives way to inner struggle...like tonight's thought about wanting to eat when I've already consumed too many calories for today. It's not like an addict's struggle. It's a feeling of failure.
I have not failed. I have logged my calories and made a decision to wait until tomorrow to eat again. This is what success looks like. I can't give up because of a bad track record. It is NOT hopeless. I CAN do this. I WILL do this.
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Three successful days for IF and OMAD. I find myself saying, "No, thank you" more often than I expected when someone offers food. It's been a breeze. No one has been upset or said anything about it. How easy it is to make a mental mountain out of a molehill.

I don't talk a lot about what I am trying to do because I've been on this journey so long that I don't know how much support it would generate. My journey has been full of successes that fizzled out. I get farther and farther from goal each time. I don't maintain my successes well. Talk is easy. Sustained action is harder.

I know my family would be wish me to be healthy. Who doesn't want that for their loved ones?

Now I am quietly doing the things I need to do. They see me exercising. Since we don't eat together very often, they may not be aware of how I'm eating. That suits me fine.

Around 4 PM I had dinner: 2 medium tomatoes sliced, green pepper strips, beans, ham, and cheese. Enough protein to provide fullness and carry me through till tomorrow since I am eating one meal a day.

Three good things that happened today:
1. Extra sleep. Grands came in the afternoon so I could go back to bed this morning.
2. Staying true to IF and OMAD. Thanking God for the strength to follow through.
3. Checked a few more things off my to-do list.

The morning started well. I feel at peace and centered. I sense God's presence. I've been singing wonderful old hymns and songs of encouragement most of the day.

The day started with sunshine. Turned into rain later with a bit of thunder.
A limb came down on the maple tree outside the living room window. The tree removal people were here last week and removed two other trees. One was a huge maple, taller than the house, that had split and part had broken off and fell down. It's very expensive to have the tree removal service. Our granddaughter's husband thinks he can take care of this new downed limb. If he can do that, I will add that to the list of good things that happen.

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Today is off to a good start.
Sleep, good. I slept so well. Feeling rested.
Exercise, done. Stepping, side kicks, front kicks, back kicks, shoulder ROM, walking.
Nutrition, on a role with OMAD and IF. Wed and Thurs were very successful staying on track with one meal and intermittent fasting.

Weight is down 1.6 pounds this morning from what I weighed yesterday morning.

Today is official Spark weigh in. Not so successful there because my weight had shot up about 6 pounds earlier this week, and I'm just now getting it back off. I am up still up 2.6 pounds from my Spark weight last Friday. It's coming off.
My weight is so volatile. It can shoot up overnight. If I am not vigilant, there is a steady upward progression on the scale.
Having the grands here doesn't help. I don't burn calories like they do. I eat bigger helpings than the little ones eat. I can't even eat as much as RJ (in her 50s) does. When I hear her at night in the kitchen, I can't join her. When I hear a soda being opened, I can't participate. Yes, I can have soda if I fit it into my calorie count. For now, I am trying to eliminate or decrease sugar.

Yesterday I had sandwiches and cookies, coming in under 1000 calories. Perhaps not the best choices. At least I had the good sense to stop eating, keeping it at one meal for the day, drinking water and black coffee the rest of the day.

I've been dreaming of a plateful of veggies today. Fresh tomatoes, peppers, beans, corn, maybe cottage cheese or chicken salad. Now the grands are coming so we'll see how that plays out.
When I eat one meal a day, I try to wait till 4:00 PM. When I eat earlier, I get too hungry later in the day and it turns into two eating episodes a day.

The grands' parents were squabbling yesterday. Too much anger and drama.I like to think of my home as an oasis, a respite, a place of peace. I pray for this precious little family.

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Quiet and sunny morning.

Sleep, good.
Exercise, done.
Nutrition. The plan is IF and OMAD for today.

Weight is down 1.8 pounds this morning from what I weighed yesterday morning.




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Three good things that happened to me today...

1. Joining the IF challenge to lose 25 pounds.
2. Quiet day without the grands :)
3. Catching up on some work.

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What am I reading now?
Fiction
1. Coming Through the Rye, by Grace Livingston Hill. We read 8 chapters tonight. I have about 80 books by this author. Some I inherited from my grandmother. My sister and I both like this author so I have been re-reading them aloud to her. We just finished In Tune With Wedding Bells this morning.

It's hard to read to Sis when the grands are here overnight. I've been thinking about starting Mary Stewart's book, Madam Will You Talk, to read during my own time. I have several paperback copies of it that are falling apart, pages loose. I should look online for a better copy. I discovered Mary Stewart's books when I was a teen. I think I have read all of them (many times over) except the Merlin ones. The hardback versions command a very handsome price nowadays.

Non-Fiction. These are books I read in short bursts. Read a little, think a little. They take awhile to digest.
1. The U.S. Constitution for Everyone by Mort Gerberg. It covers the constitution and the Bill of Rights. Every citizen should be knowledgeable about these basic documents.
2. The Secret by Rhonda Byrne. Chapter 2 out of 10.
3. Joyous Faith, by my friend Michelle Howe. I keep this one at my desk and read when I'm waiting for the computer to load or waiting for a phone call or anything else while at the desk. On chapter 5 out of 30 chapters.
4. Overcomer, by Dr David Jeremiah. This is my living room book, also read in short sections. On chapter 5 out of 10 chapters. I started this one months ago. It's a good book but slow going.
5. The Pleasure of His Company (A Journal to Intimate Friendship with God), by Dutch Sheets. I just started this one. Chapter 3 out of 30 chapters.

I was excited when I found the last book. How sweet to spend time in God's presence. There is a deep hunger in the human heart that only God can fill.
If you want to be more like Jesus, spend more time with him.


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I joined the "Lose 25 Pounds in 25 Weeks, TEAM Challenge" today. I think it will help me stay the course.
It started June 28 and runs through Christmas. Even though I joined today, I have lost 5.2 pounds since June 28. That's a good start toward the 25 pound goal.

After two great weeks, I've started sliding again. This is just the boost I need to be consistent! It's already paying dividends. I joined just after lunch. It will help me stay with OMAD (one meal) today. I am also doing intermittent fasting. That's a bit easier than the OMAD part. I am ready to fly!

I like this kind of challenge. I've not had much success with them in the past because I'm too sensitive. People aren't always encouraging when other succeed. I know this so I shall be on guard. I cannot let anyone derail me this time. I am doing this for me.
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Two days without the grands. Peaceful. It's nice to have a little break.
I had a lovely talk with Sis (who lives 10 hours away) this afternoon. She was doing the treatment for her hand while she talked to me.

I've been reading to older Sis (who lives with me) because her eye sight is not so good now. I read for 2-4 hours at a time. They are lovely old books we love. We finished one book earlier today. I'll see if she wants to start a new one tonight.

RJ hurt her foot again today, the one she broke in two places before. She's at the hospital emergency department now. Hopefully it's not another broken bone.

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The grands stayed overnight. Their family moved to newly renovated house that had been split into a downstairs and upstairs apartment. The first night there was a leak in the master bedroom ceiling. They reported it and moved everything out of that room. Last week part of the ceiling caved into the room. They are waiting for it to be fixed.
There may be a mold problem because their breathing is affected. The children stayed here last night.
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Yesterday recap.
Exercise was good. Doing the bulk of it first thing in the morning works best. It is less painful to these old bones then.

Nutrition was off plan. The grands were here. I had three meals.
RJ made one of my favorites, pancakes for breakfast. Tiny little silver dollar pancakes. So good. Hear me grunting like a little pig. I enjoyed but did not over-indulge.
Lunch was scrambled eggs. Then half an apple. Then a handful of chips and half a cup of Coca-cola...and a frosted cupcake.
In the afternoon the parents came with caramel popcorn logs for the kids. After a few nibbles, the 6 year old decided she couldn't eat hers so I finished it. I like caramel corn. It's a rare treat that is too much work to make so it's been a long time since I had it.
Supper was a piece of stone-ground wheat toast with peanut butter and honey and a cup of milk.

While it wasn't out-and-out craziness, it was different than I am used to eating.
I paid for it. By late evening I was sick. My stomach was rumbling and messed with my bowels, making too many trips to the bathroom.
I was finally able to settle down and go to bed around 3:30AM. Slept until a little voice woke me up on the intercom after 9AM.
My stomach is still a bit rumbly this morning.

I think the craziness started Thursday night when my mindset waivered. See yesterday's post here. It usually starts in the mind. I stayed the course Thursday night. It bore fruit in how I ate Friday.
I could have put on the brakes and turned around at any point. I didn't. I minimalized it. It wasn't eating willy-nilly. It was too many calories in one day. It was food I had not been eating. It came back to bite me.
I don't feel guilty or bad. It happens. I learned long ago that this is not all-or-nothing. Each day is just one step on a very long journey. Some days are stellar. Some are mundane. It's not a big deal in the scheme of life.
Repeating that behavior until it becomes the norm is where trouble lives. I don't plan to repeat that behavior today.
Fortunately, the scale showed mercy this morning and my weight remained the same as when I weighed yesterday morning. That was perhaps because I was sick last night and emptied out.

RJ made the children pancakes this morning. I think she was surprised when I passed. It's a joke here that when I hear her in the kitchen in the early morning, I call out, "Pancakes?" We rarely have pancakes. When I want them I can make them myself. It's just my little joke with her.
I avoid pancakes because, like pizza, they make my weight spike the next day. I suspect it's the carbs.

The sun is shining. The children are playing outside. Time to hit the exercises.

Their parents will pick them up this afternoon to go to a graduation party for a young man on the paternal side of their family that we do not know.

Edited by: ANNIESADVENTURE at: 8/8/2020 (10:38)



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Down 2.0 pounds this morning.
Official Spark weight today: down 11 pounds from last Friday. That will probably bring out the naysayers. My losses will be bigger than for someone who only has a few pounds to lose. I've worked hard for this loss. Back in the groove again with IF and OMAD.

I've been doing well with IF but meals were mostly twice a day. This week I've finally made it back to once a day.

I have created a 40 pound challenge, with a beautiful visual fill-in page in my vision book to record my success. It will help me stay focused and break through a big hurdle. I have been so close to the next HUGE milestone for too long.

I will reach that goal before my mammogram appointment in September. I will reach the next (smaller) goal before the appointment with the oncologist in October.

Last night was hard. My total calories were within the Spark calorie range but higher than I like so I was a tiny bit disappointed. I ate my one meal around 4PM, came in higher than the previous days because I had a sliver of the cherry pie with my meal. RJ had brought the pie for me and wondered why I hadn't eaten any yet

The 6 year old grand stayed overnight. She and RJ brought McDonalds after I had finished my one meal at 4PM. She brought me a fish sandwich. 380 calories. That put me at 1455 calories. My range is 1200-1500.

This morning I was down 2 pounds from what I weighed yesterday morning.
There is a theory that doing a feast and famine pattern increases weight loss. I'm not doing any over-indulgent feasting. My pattern has been higher every other day, while still within my calorie range. Perhaps that pattern has helped the 11 pound loss this week.

Last night was tough. I was tired but my brain wouldn't shut down. I read a book. I worked on the computer. I stayed up till 2AM, doing things. I wanted to munch. I knew where I was with calories. I knew I was good on IF. I knew I was on a roll and did not want to break the streak.
My mind even tried that old stinking thinking: It really doesn't matter. What does one bite hurt? I was tired and a bit discouraged, but couldn't sleep. My brain would not shut down.
I did not get up and go to the kitchen. I grumpily told myself I would be glad in the morning if I stayed the course.

When I am in success mode, I still have ups and downs. There are stretches where I am not tempted at all. There are times when I am elated. There are times I grow weary of staying the course. The path is not really that difficult. I have kept the plan simple on purpose. The less rules, the easier to follow.
There are times I want to indulge for no reason. Apathy is a big enemy. I lose focus and it seems pointless. I have been on this journey too long without lasting results.
Losing 77 pounds from May through December 2019 reminds me that I can do this. When people tell me that it gets harder as we age, they may be right. However I will not accept that I must stay at this weight. I am carrying too many pounds. It is not healthy.
May through December is 8 months. That's less than 10 pounds a month so that's a healthy loss. I did that. I can continue that journey. It is not too hard. It is not impossible.


Edited by: ANNIESADVENTURE at: 8/7/2020 (08:18)



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