This is my Year
Saturday, January 03, 2009
I found out something about myself I didnt think I did. When I lose weight I feel good about myself. I get compliments, still feel good. Then wham. Men are making compliments and I think of my past and get scared and the weight starts to come back on.
But to be 28 lbs from your goal and put weight back on. So then starts the why me, why dont I forget the past and just go on.? Why dont I think of the men as a brother next time? That should help. I hate being over weight and I hate of all the things it can do to me.
Now that I know what is going on with me, I can be me. I can put my feet on the ground, dust my self off, and make it through this journey one last time. This is my year to be thin ( well what I call thin for me). This si my year to be free of my past. This is my year to grow stronger and deeper and to be there for any one who needs a push.
Yeah, we all need a little push and help. And I sure dont want to get back up to 434. So with the help of Spark People, my teams and God, I will survive and make this the best year ever.
Thanks people faor kind words and prayers and for loving me as me.