This is my Year

Saturday, January 03, 2009

I found out something about myself I didnt think I did. When I lose weight I feel good about myself. I get compliments, still feel good. Then wham. Men are making compliments and I think of my past and get scared and the weight starts to come back on.
But to be 28 lbs from your goal and put weight back on. So then starts the why me, why dont I forget the past and just go on.? Why dont I think of the men as a brother next time? That should help. I hate being over weight and I hate of all the things it can do to me.
Now that I know what is going on with me, I can be me. I can put my feet on the ground, dust my self off, and make it through this journey one last time. This is my year to be thin ( well what I call thin for me). This si my year to be free of my past. This is my year to grow stronger and deeper and to be there for any one who needs a push.
Yeah, we all need a little push and help. And I sure dont want to get back up to 434. So with the help of Spark People, my teams and God, I will survive and make this the best year ever.
Thanks people faor kind words and prayers and for loving me as me.
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    Mikki - you gotta come tell me how you are doing!
    4502 days ago
  • JOEGIRL6113
    Mikki, all your SP friends are right here behind you. I wish you the very best in 2009 and I know you can do this. Rosy
    4579 days ago
    Sweetie, we are definitely twins....and this blog proves it even more......We can't live in the fear of the past so that we sabotauge our future.....Let's go....
    Victory is MIne in 2009!(new saying for you and me!)
    4582 days ago
    You are an amazing person and an inspiration to many. You are one of myfirst friends on SparkPeople and you motivated me and I know you have it in you to do whatever your heart desires. Weight loss is challenge but it starts from the inside and then goes out. You will do amazing. I know it.!
    4583 days ago
  • BKP4166
    You go girl!!! I will be thrilled to hear that you are at your goal nd I'll be cheering you all the way. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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    4588 days ago
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