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Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Well, I'm suppose to blog for a team challenge as well. I'm supposed to talk about how things are going and my mindset. I thought about this morning, and how I would blog about how frustrated I am, and ... well here I go.

This is about the place in my weight loss journey where I become particularly frustrated and pretty close giving up. And yes, I am there again.

I have been on SP for more than a year. There was a short period of time in the beginning where I was losing weight. Then I got frustrated (lifestyle challenges) and quit. This, I believe is the 3rd time around. As I ruminate over my frustrations I come around to question myself and my own competence.

It has been almost a month since I "recommitted". Began to invest by tracking my food consumption. Even making a concerted effort to be very honest about the information emoticon. Then the workouts have been done in earnest as well. 4 weeks straight, no less than 5 workouts a week, and started weight training 2 weeks ago. Even hired a trainer. So, after the last 2 weeks - nothing. No changes in weight or measurements.

There is a change in my mood. I'm tired and I'm irritable. emoticon

A few clarifications & explanations here. First, I really do enjoy my cardio workouts on the elliptical. It is a lot like self care and meditation for me. I put my tunes on and "go". When the music is fast I go fast. When it slows, I up the incline and the resistance and power it out. Keep the calorie burn over 10cals/min. Get up to 12+. Work to get to between 350 & 450 burned. This is the best part for me. And since my schedule is pretty flexible, "I gittit in when I can fittit in".

Food - I love fruits & veggies. I'm allergic to the best for you nuts. I prefer cottage cheese over yogurt. The amount of food I prepare myself has exploded and my husband loves all of my bean dishes.

So, where do the biggest challenges begin. FOOD of course. And it makes wonder, "what do I really want as far lifestyle?".

Well, my first thought is, I'm not going to cut out a bunch of foods and add a bunch of foods I'm not going to keep eating just for a "diet". Why? Because I won't maintain that diet. How do I know? Let's take Jenny Craig... did that, and did it pretty well. Got tired of their selection, particularly how limited it was and it really wasn't tasty or satisfying. Yes, in my regular food choices, I pretty much eat the same thing on a regular basis. . . same salads, same snacks, same breakfasts, same places out too. (so is it portions?)

There are some food situations I don't have much choice in. My Mom cooks for me every Sunday and she makes what she wants to make the way she has made it all of her life. And yes, I eat it. (She is also one my biggest "your need to lose some weight").

For work often has me working late (after 8:30 pm). I have tried having dinner early and skipping the provided meal. By the time I get home, I'm wound up and hungry. The food choices we are provided at the meetings, aren't all that wonderful. Yes, I have/am working on some strategies. On my first try, instead of salad and entree the person who ordered the food did "boxed lunches". I had brought pistachios and fat free dressing to go on my BIG salad. --- NO SALAD WAS PROVIDED. emoticon

And I'm tired of "feeling" hungry all the time!! And listening to people tell me "what I need to do". Is my frustration showing through.

Well I have worked out for the day. Tracked my food and I am within my calorie range. Now I will go to bed and try it all again tomorrow.
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  • DAWNO64
    Amazing how it all comes pouring out once you get started, isn't it?

    Sounds to me like you're not really sure you want to lose weight. Are you just doing this because of your mom telling you you're looking like you need to lose weight? Or because other people have said something? You have to want this for YOU, because YOU want to be healthier, or you will just continue to feel frustrated. You also sound like you believe eating healthy is a punishment, but really, it's not.

    Please blog about why you're on Spark, if it's for you or someone else. I think maybe if you work out more of these frustrations you'll get to the key.
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    4477 days ago
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