Better is better than bad!
Thursday, March 12, 2009
I got a little frustrated yesterday. My calorie tracker says I should try to stay between 1200-1500 calories. Well, I've been on the high end of that, and usually over---like 1700 or 1800 calories. I started to really beat myself up inside. "You're not doing enough! You're cheating! You could do better! Might as well just give up!"
Yeah, those voices we hear inside aren't actually us talking. There's a force in this world who is aiming to discourage us and make us doubt everything from our faith, to our abilities, to the way we feel about ourselves. You may not believe in spiritual warfare, but there's a war going on all the time, whether or not you're even a Christian. Taking care of myself and aiming to be a healthy, Godly woman reeeeally irritates Satan. He wants me to hate myself. He wants me to fail and quit. He wants to manipulate me.
Well, forget him! You know what? Even if I do have 1700 or 1800 calories in a day, it's better than the 3000 calories I was eating daily before starting this. Showing some self-control is better than the no self-control I used to have. Have I shared that I ate two bags of Reese's Eggs in the two days before I joined SparkPeople? TWO WHOLE BAGS! Why? Because I felt like it. Because I was feeling sorry for myself and decided to eat my feelings.
I don't have to be that girl. I can make good decisions. I can take care of myself. I need to take care of myself. I deserve to take care of myself.
So I'm OK with 1700 calories. Maybe next week I'll drop it to 1600 consistently. And maybe it'll take me two more weeks to get to 1500. Baby steps. It's OK. I won't fail.