Saturday, April 18, 2009
well today my hubby called me to tell me he has a few new shirts for me.sometimes while being on the road he will bring me home something cute.anyways i said what size r they?he says 3x.i said uh.. the 3x i have now r huge on me since ive lost weight.he has been acting weird.ok so yesterday i got my hair done,and i shaved my legs.i think so what? but he thinks something totally different.like im fixing myself up for someone.i love him.and i think he thinks since i have really started to lose weight,i might leave him for someone else.only because of certain things he has said.thats not me.however i do wish he would try to get healthy.im hoping once he sees a dramatic change in me,it might motivate him.he never puts me down,hes always telling me how proud he is of me.so i dont know.but back to my shirt! alot of my shirts r HUGE on me! im sorry i just find this to be awesome! lol !oh i have to weigh in tomorrow.im dreading this.i keep looking at myself in the mirror.its hard for me to picture myself even being in the 260's.im at 280 lbs. right now.i am just so driven this time.i dont know where i found this DRIVE.it just came over me all of a sudden,its like i can remember the day,and what i was doing when it happened.
today i was watching t.v. and i seen a commercial for a pizza buffet for only 5$.i was like oh hell ya..because we all just need to eat all kinds of pizza.what pi**es me off is u can go to almost any fast food place and buy some crap off the dollar menu,but if u try to buy healthy food in a grocery store the price is crazy! i mean its definitely worth it,but u know.its hard to buy healthy when u have a hard time just trying to make ends meet.so im really lucky i am able to.it just makes me so mad.im sorry.lmfao! ok im done.good night,thank u to my spark family for all ur support.god bless.