yesterday was kinda hectic.but a good day.so my uncle joe calls my mom,he wants us to come up where they r camping.so we decide to go up there .
before i go any further..a few years ago.my mom,and myself were reunited with parts of our family we really didnt know.(her sister,and brother,also her REAL DAD).every since this its like the other side of the family really doesnt talk to us.until its tax time..well then they want my mom to do their taxes,they r nice.then we will go an entire year without hearing from them.
ok so a few of us decide to go up to the camp grounds,we r excited..we get there.and it was like walking into a strange place.like.."trying to word this right"no one said hello
to us.so we walked further into their little group they had going on.i tried bringing my son over..thinking maybe someone would notice how cute he was,and it might break the ice..NOTHING..NOTHING..i was thinking,y in the hell did u beg us to come up here.they didnt say anything about our progress with our weight loss,im serious when i say they said nothing to us.i mean i dont understand.we felt so odd, like so unwanted.
we still try to talk to them, so we move our chairs over to where they were sitting,we sit down..a few minutes later we r all alone.there was one girl there(my uncles girlfriend) she wouldnt even look at us.i mean am i missing something here.they had alot of food there,maybe they were mad we wouldnt eat it? so much alcohol !! there was 5 HUGE coolers filled with alcohol..they were all drunk.so i dont know..
they would make fun of how much were on the computer..just like we were kinda like a joke.maybe u had to be there to understand where im coming from.
when we left..no one would say goodbye to us..my mom,and myself r really hurt over this.some people might think y do u care so much.but our family has been to hell ,and back.my uncle was recently in a horrible car accident(drinking,and driving)
he almost lost his life.or he could have killed someone else.he has turned his life completely around!he doesnt drink,he goes to church.we were hoping he was there.but hes still pretty banged up.so we didnt get to see him.
..i dont know i just kinda thought..maybe this will be it.maybe we all can be close agian like we use to be.some people just dont understand..they all have known about me being in the hospital for many surgeries,they never even called to see how i was.but as soon as my mom,or myself know something happened to one of them..oh well of course we r concerned,and always see how they r doing..u go so long being mad,or just not really taking the time to step back ,and see the bigger picture.then all of a sudden LIFE happens,and in a blink of an eye things can go from ok..to disaster.and if u would have just opened ur eyes u could see that its just not worth it.my uncle Joe use to be my favorite person in the entire world.now without him wanting to even talk to me,im afraid something might happen,and our family will be left with this nasty feeling of guilt,and resentment.all it takes is a few kind words to repair what has been years of emptiness,and hurt.but for myself,i wont feel guilty..i did my part,i have tried talking to all of them..we went out of our way for nothing..
im sorry for those of u who read this long blog.and i know it has nothing to do with weight loss.i just feel better once i have vented my feelings.
lots of luvv to my spark family..god bless,christina