ok so i have a lot on my mind..
first off i havent seen my husband in 2 months!
we need to connect,we need to talk.i dont mean about anything bad.just need to be together,b/c i miss him so much right now.i know its hard on him.its hard on me as well.i hate it when i know hes coming home,and i vision this great time we have together..a date..romantic night,u know..then we end up arguing over something so stupid.
when the time comes for him to leave again,we r both in tears,b/c we spent time arguing over meaningless stuff!
i have to change our pattern.this time we need more precious moments.
i have this friend..who by the way is driving me insane.she has a boyfriend who is married.she left him for another man who is also married!!
i wont go into details,b/c its her business.but i dont wanna hear about this,i mean the guy has 6 kids,and is leaving his wife for her!this just sickens me!
i feel for the wife,and those children.
i know there r many people everyday who get divorced.
im gonna be honest,and a lot of people probably wont like it,but divorce just doesnt register with me.it doesnt fit.i dont understand it!
if u love someone enough to marry them,take vows in front of GOD. then u should be able to work through things.point blank..
now i know sometimes really bad things happen,and one person just wont work through it,or one person does something soooo horrible,thats completely different.
when u r going to leave ur wife,and ur children to be with someone else..that doesnt register with me!! i dont get the concept.i know sometimes women leave as well.not as often,but it does happen.
maybe y i am so upset over this is b/c i am married,and i just want to tell my friend this isnt right! and how i would feel if this happened to me.
as i said though this is her business,just wish she would go after someone who isnt married! too bad i have to hear about it.
ok so i thought i got it all out..not. how can someone go from loving u more than anything,and be the one person u know will never hurt u..to being the person who hurts u the most? to..just not loving u at all.
u hear people say,people grow..they change..bull sh*t.
ok now i am done.i guess u can say i have been hurt a lot.so this whole issue is really making my skin crawl.
im just going to pray about it.
sorry for going on,and on.i just needed to vent.i know not everyone agrees with my point of view.im just different,maybe not right i guess.lol,thats the only way i can put it.
as far as my weight loss,i am doing great.im only a couple pounds away from -50 lbs.! which is amazing for me.in the beginning i remember saying i could never lose even 20 lbs.i thought if i ever did lose 50,i would be happy ,and stop..ok i dont think so..im going all the way,now that i know what in the hell im doing,lol! on the days i cant get going,i think of one person who hurt me,or just said something certain.and it gets me pumped im ready to kick some as*..then i get my heart rate up,and burn those calories.
thanks for letting me vent.god bless my spark family.christina