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Wednesday, July 01, 2009

i have been with Spark since Feb.21st. i have now lost 50 lbs.!! emoticoni feel amazing about my weight loss.
i never thought in a million years i could have this much drive for anything..
but to get this weight off of me isnt easy,even though i hate working out,i do it every morning.i am always with in my food tracker ranges.
when i dont see that scale move.i cry,when i do see the scale move i cry.this journey is so emotional.
still to this day there r so many people who try to get me to eat certain foods,or they will say hurtful things.
like today,someone told me i have to get a tummy tuck,b/c my stomach will never go down.shes like u can try,and try,but u will never be able to lose ur belly. emoticon
even though i have come so far.from 306 -to 256 lbs.part of me just wanted to cry,b/c i believed her.
but now i just remember what my Dr. told me..hes lost over 200 lbs.he has no excess skin,he doesnt have a six pack,but it looks fine.hes had NO surgery . so now i have faith that maybe,just maybe..no..i know i can lose this fat stomach.i might not tighten up,but i will most definitely be sexy. emoticonand i am soo ready for that!

when i am not in the mood at all to work out,i think of someone who has hurt me in the past,and it really gets me going! emoticonthis really works.
there r those people u want to see u.my friends mom has never liked me..EVER! i mean this woman seen i had wrecked my car..
it was raining,i rolled my car.i was trapped inside,i couldnt move or it would roll over again,then go down this huge hill.i am screaming "help" she drives past me looks at my car..get ready for what happeneds next..then she turns around to drive past me again!! she never stopped.my friend asked her if she seen me,she goes..'oh ya,i seen her,she wrecked her car."
another time i was sitting on her couch,7 months pregnant,she looks at me,and says her aunt is about as big as i am!
so its obvious i want her to see me when i reach my goal weight.
anyways being -50 lbs is amazing.its hard to see the changes in the mirror,i guess b/c i look at myself everyday.
i use to wear 26-28 in jeans.
today i tried on a size 22...they fit!!yay!! emoticon
i can pass up the 3x shirts,and head straight for 2x
i noticed today i could sit with my legs crossed!!
to be honest,theres no way i could have done all of this without Spark People.i have so many good friends on here.
my MOM has been a huge support system. most of all GOD! i know hes the reason i found Spark.
i get to see my Mark tomorrow(DH).he hasnt seen me for 2 months!!im so excited,we plan to make the most of his home time.i really hope he just stares at me!!lol!!i want him to notice.
ok i have blabbed on long enough.good night,god bless my spark family..Christina emoticon
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  • no profile photo CHOCMOM
    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon I am at a loss for words because I am so proud of you! You have done an amazing job.

    "At my age", I run into people who want to know why I am worried or care about my weight - that always surprises me. I am not dead, YET!

    Go Christina - show them all, how it is done!

    luv ya
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    4301 days ago
    emoticon you are looking good,and you know how i feel about that woman you are talking about(lol) emoticon emoticon emoticon
    4301 days ago
    You know, I will need a tummy tuck. I am older, I am and was heavier, I can see my skin is damaged. But I don't care. If you lose 50lbs that is a huge accomplishment! You can do things you couldn't before, you have energy you didn't before, you have a sense of accomplishment, you have new friends, you have supportive family, ect... (too many blessings to count them all) Ya, think she might be jealous.

    I know with or without the tummy tuck I will feel and look better every pound I lose. And I love that every lost pound is celebrated here, thanks for helping me celebrate. If I could I would send you tons of confetti, balloons and blowing whistles! You are doing great!
    4329 days ago
  • STARS1985
    Wow! Congrats!!
    4329 days ago
  • no profile photo CD2244005
    Congratulations on the 50 pound loss! To have lost that since February is amazing! You're committed to a healthier lifestyle and you're not letting anyone get you down - you go gal! Looking forward to hearing about the next 50 pounds!

    Best wishes,
    4329 days ago
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    Losing 50lbs is no easy feat, congratulations. I can't wait to be posting that I've lost 50lbs. Your blog was very motivational. thank you. Good luck on your journey and remember those people who want to bring you down are just miserable. They can't stand anyone else being happy. Keep up the good work.-Blanca.
    4329 days ago
    emoticon Congratulations!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
    4329 days ago
    emoticon and emoticon ! Reading your spark blog post is a positive influence to anyone losing weight or trying to. I am glad that you reflected back on your doctor's remark and continue to stay positive, instead of listening to some one saying you need a tummy tuck. Plastic surgery is only and short term fix and it will all just sag more if you don't keep it up...LOL. I always tell myself surgery and pills are just easy fixes, the real pay off is doing it naturally cause you work harder to keep it maintained and feel better about yourself. Anyways thanks for posting that blog, and great job on the 50lb weight loss!! You go Girl!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon
    4329 days ago
    emoticon Reading your story reminded me that weight loss is not impossible. THANK YOU!!!!
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    WELL DONE! You have achieved so much.

    Hugs xx
    4329 days ago
    emoticon you rock! thats alot of weight to loose! esp in such a short period of time. :) congrats to you on working and getting it done and sticking to it :)

    4329 days ago
  • no profile photo CD4756432
    emoticon on 50 lbs GONE and all the hard work that got you to where you are today!! i'm sure you'll get stares and more from dh...lol he's been gone for 2 mos!!! emoticon emoticon

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    4329 days ago
    Don't worry about your belly .Most of us have the same problemn.I have promise myself if I get to my normal weight and I need it I will have the surgery.I don't have the money and have no idea how I will get it but if I manage to get to my normal weight wish is harder I now if needed I will find the money.
    Just deal with the weight loss now the skin problemn will find itself a solution when needed.
    Have a wonderful holiday
    Marta Nydia
    I love your blog
    4330 days ago
    You are doing it! emoticon emoticon don't pay attention to those haters, green does not look good on them! Keep on doing what you're doing and be very proud of yourself for doing all the hard work! 50lbs that is WONDERFUL!!! emoticon

    4330 days ago
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