i have been with Spark since Feb.21st. i have now lost 50 lbs.!!
i feel amazing about my weight loss.
i never thought in a million years i could have this much drive for anything..
but to get this weight off of me isnt easy,even though i hate working out,i do it every morning.i am always with in my food tracker ranges.
when i dont see that scale move.i cry,when i do see the scale move i cry.this journey is so emotional.
still to this day there r so many people who try to get me to eat certain foods,or they will say hurtful things.
like today,someone told me i have to get a tummy tuck,b/c my stomach will never go down.shes like u can try,and try,but u will never be able to lose ur belly.
even though i have come so far.from 306 -to 256 lbs.part of me just wanted to cry,b/c i believed her.
but now i just remember what my Dr. told me..hes lost over 200 lbs.he has no excess skin,he doesnt have a six pack,but it looks fine.hes had NO surgery . so now i have faith that maybe,just maybe..no..i know i can lose this fat stomach.i might not tighten up,but i will most definitely be sexy.
and i am soo ready for that!
when i am not in the mood at all to work out,i think of someone who has hurt me in the past,and it really gets me going!
this really works.
there r those people u want to see u.my friends mom has never liked me..EVER! i mean this woman seen i had wrecked my car..
it was raining,i rolled my car.i was trapped inside,i couldnt move or it would roll over again,then go down this huge hill.i am screaming "help" she drives past me looks at my car..get ready for what happeneds next..then she turns around to drive past me again!! she never stopped.my friend asked her if she seen me,she goes..'oh ya,i seen her,she wrecked her car."
another time i was sitting on her couch,7 months pregnant,she looks at me,and says her aunt is about as big as i am!
so its obvious i want her to see me when i reach my goal weight.
anyways being -50 lbs is amazing.its hard to see the changes in the mirror,i guess b/c i look at myself everyday.
i use to wear 26-28 in jeans.
today i tried on a size 22...they fit!!yay!!
i can pass up the 3x shirts,and head straight for 2x
i noticed today i could sit with my legs crossed!!
to be honest,theres no way i could have done all of this without Spark People.i have so many good friends on here.
my MOM has been a huge support system. most of all GOD! i know hes the reason i found Spark.
i get to see my Mark tomorrow(DH).he hasnt seen me for 2 months!!im so excited,we plan to make the most of his home time.i really hope he just stares at me!!lol!!i want him to notice.
ok i have blabbed on long enough.good night,god bless my spark family..Christina