well lets see..my day has been horrible.every once in a while my head gets..the only way for me to put it is "not right".
i have been on edge ALL DAY.from yelling to
when my hubby calls i take it out on him.
i always over analyze EVERYTHING.my mom always tells me i do this.
here is an example..
my husband called around noon.i missed his call, so i call him right back.he says he is at the truck stop getting gas.
he says,"im calling ,b/c i know u get worried if u go a while without hearing from me.i was driving through the desert,and didnt have any service.
i just sit there.then i say,"oh so u only call b/c u think i might get worried??"
he says,"well no,but i dont want u to be mad at me.and i know u worry."
heres what i heard..this is the way my brain was working today.
"i think he never wants to talk to me..we have never had a meaningful conversation..
our marriage is failing,b/c he "really" doesnt want to talk to me."
he lets me know he will call me in a little while,i say..oh NOOO dont bother,i wouldnt want u to do something u dont want to do.its ok..dont bother.
that is just a tiny little itty bitty part of my day.
while making dinner,i wanted to snack,snack..then snack again.couldnt keep my hands out of the chip bag."just b/c they r baked doesnt mean i can have as many as i want."i didnt go over the ranges on my tracker..but still.u would think i would have more self control.
so i am going to create me a plan,if anyone has any suggestions..plzzzz feel free to share.
i need to sit down,and maybe plan out when i should have my snacks.
im always hungry in the evening.dont know why.
the longer i wait to eat lunch,the better off i am.i hate that,b/c sometimes i try to wait until like 2 or 3:00 to have lunch.so im not starving while im cooking dinner.
oh some days r just better than others.
thanks for reading,and letting me vent.even though it wasnt all about weight loss.
god bless my Spark family,Christina