Thursday, October 22, 2009

So... I haven't blogged in awhile. Honestly, I feel that I have so much to talk about but once I get down to it, my mind is blank.

Basically, what I have learned in the past month is that I cannot trust myself. That, is sad. I say I can handle something (i.e. having candy in the house), when I really can't.

I was getting through the weeks just fine; staying on plan because I had structure. Then, the weekends would come, I would get one nasty little "bad angel" thought, and find myself elbow-deep in a bag of Halloween Candy.

One night, I went out of my way on a cold, rainy night and drove to an 24-hour grocery store for hot pockets and cookies. I got to the store at 12:15AM...and it was closed. They had just changed their hours from 6am to 12am. Crazy, huh? It was my sign, and I admitted that, but I still blatantly ignored it. I went to a Royal Farms, bought my hot pockets and Entemann's Dounts (because, why not?). Meanwhile, 2100 calories later (yes, in one sitting) I was just as upset as before the adventure.

What feelings am I trying to drown out with food and where are they coming from???

The past two weeks have been soooo much better and last weekend, I made it through without a hitch - How exciting! However, I haven't lost any weight. I just can't seem to get past this 230.5 mark... It's driving me crazy. When things are not easy, I tend to give up.

Now, I have a birthday party, a wedding, and a huge family dinner to get through this weekend... I am afraid something is going to set me off...

Pray for me.
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    I TOTALLY understand that feeling!! There's been many times where I would get crap food from the 7-11 late at night. I don't know what the x-factor is to not having that happen to us (who the hell does!), but at least you recognize the problem and you have been doing good the 2 weeks following that!!

    Don't get down on yourself just be aware this weekend. Let me know how it goes if you want to.. good luck girl!!
    4222 days ago
    Good luck with your upcoming weekend. You can do it!
    4222 days ago
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