Ok so this blog is about a couple different things.
I have been buying a new shirt..shorts..pants,whatever is on clearance every once in a while(something to work towards).So I bought me a pair of jean shorts.I'm SOOO hoping to be in a size 14 by summer of 2010
Hubby comes home from the road,sees the shorts..Asks me,"Whose are these?"
Hes like...Oh NOO!! You are a wife and Mother,you don't need to dress like that.
Well then I go on and on about how for once I want to be able to wear something that makes me feel good.
He says he will end up getting into a fight if a guy looks at me
Ok so I thought this was all about me dressing like a wife and Mother?
So I promised him I would only wear them at home.Its not only that,theres so many little things~From what I wear-to make up-my hair..
Hes never been like this before.
Just recently he started saying he thought I exercised TOO much.
Sometimes its cute,but this time it just got on my nerves.
For once I would like to be healthy but also the girl who looks cute.HOWEVER I am starting to think this will NEVER happen.Not only am I still STUCK in this PLATEAU,and I'm working sooo hard..But I am still in the mindset of "ME" @ 300+ lbs.
Don't know if I explained that right.
I have people who tell me I look GREAT! I just don't see it!!
I look in the mirror,and pick a part my body..I have a reason why I am disgusted by each part.
Even though I have lost 76 lbs. I look in the mirror and think when I get to my goal I still will NOT look right.
Almost as if I will NEVER be "good enough".
Don't know if any of this makes sense.
Another thing why is it most people will NOT mention anything about your weightless?? I could even bring it up myself,and the subject will get changed..
Oh well it is the way it is..Nothing I can do about it I guess.
Thanks for stopping by.Just needed to vent is all.
God Bless my Spark Family,Christina