Mediation........its over, but its just begun

Wednesday, April 07, 2010

Last Wednesday we settled. After six long and ridiculous hours, settled. Best part, I was awarded the children, full physical, legal, religious, education, activities, and he has final say in only medical. 5 hrs 55 min were spent fighting over his toys, his money, his selfishness and the need to "win". His children took up 5 minutes of his time. Nice..... I have to be out of the house by 6/30 and will only receive a very small amount to start our new lives, and child support once I move out. He is now a monster to be near. He is pissed off about child support and is in turn doing any and everything to make my life HELL. I need to find my next "ice cube" to tie me over for a bit. I am still out of work, but a former boss called me in today to interview for a position that is under her, but I still need to come back to meet with her boss. We will see, I have my fingers crossed....I mean whats there not to like?? : ) I am now really struggling with all the unknowing of where we are going to live, how am I going to financially make it, etc. I am freaking out.

Healthy eating is still in the forefront of my mind, and I know that I am the only one who controls me, not his crap, not the stress. However, this is getting the best of me sometimes and I find myself just snacking away at night when I zone out for an hour or so on the TV.

I know in my heart that God will provide the path for me and my children and ultimately Shawn can't hurt me in any way. He doesn't understand the importance that all his horrible choices have in the long haul. He doesn't respect the necessity of letting God love us unconditionally and giving your absolute best to Him. He doesn't get it, and probably never will. I pray that he wakes up before its too late.

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    Wow, Diana... I just saw this! I am so glad this horrible thing is coming to a close for you. Thank God you got your beautiful babies! Debbie is right, you are the winner and things will only look up for you without that awful ass weighing you down. I hope you have had good news on the job front. emoticon I wonder if you can get some assistance from the state with housing and such... Y'all are in my prayers!

    4079 days ago
  • DEBBIE84
    Awwwwwwwwwwwww...***blushing***. Thank you Diana. You are very welcome and I think you are a special person too!
    4085 days ago
    You are such a special person Debbie!! Thank you from the bottom of my heart. xoxo
    4085 days ago
  • DEBBIE84
    Oh! I forgot. (((HUGS))) emoticon
    4086 days ago
  • DEBBIE84
    Diana, in the end he is a BIG time loser. He has his house, most of his money, his girlfriend, and his toys....but he lost you and will no longer have his children in his life on a daily basis! You got what is most important; your children. I know that you are scared and the future is unclear at this time, but I also know that you are going to be fine. You have family and friends that you can turn to and I am sure that you will get much needed help from them to get you started in your new life. You will find a job, if not this one, then another one. You are a strong woman and you will get through this and you, not Shawn, are the one coming out on top. While this is a scary time for you it is also an exciting time because you are finally free of him and the drama he has been creating and you can now focus on putting your lives back together. You are right about Shawn...he not only has no respect for God's unconditional love, but he has no respect for you, your children, or even himself and for that reason, he will never "get it." You guys are in my thoughts and prayers.
    4086 days ago
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