What did I do?
Thursday, June 10, 2010
I have been feeling like I am a completely different person... I have changed dramatically since before I got married & had kids and i have been missing the "old me". I feel like I am no longer free-spirited and easy going. I am now pissy and obsessive and everything has to be just right.
I got tired of being mean to myself and everyone else so i treated myself to my favorite food the other night = nachos!! Then again, last night, after a crazy hectic day I devoured chips... a lot of them, and some with cheese! And I didn't track it. Then I had a wine cooler & a huge s'more!! I went to bed trying to still be nice to myself, even though I screwed up and will probably gain 2 lbs. this week. But I had a bad dream about my relationship with my husband & woke up feeling worse!
What have I done? It wasn't worth it.
How can I rekindle a little of who I used to be? Can I? I don't want to feel disconnected and not right for the rest of my life. Help!