Okay, have you ever done something that you were actually excited about and scared of doing at the same time?
Well, this 100 ft abseiling challenge was like that for me.
I knew I was going to do this but I somehow refused to let my mind engage with this. I didn't have any emotions about it at all. Perhaps it was because I was being kept busy with challenges at work, or perhaps I was thinking of my family as they too had their own challenges to do.
All I knew is, as they strapped me into my harness on Saturday morning, I began to feel like slipping away. The cost of the adventure was £25 and any more money that I raise will go to the charity responsible for raising money for mosquito nets for the people who live out there. What a worthwhile cause and it can save lives. Awesome.
Anyway, my daughter, who will be 13 this Tuesday, came with me. We climbed the clock tower medieval steps, which were so small and spiralled upwards. It was a scary feeling being enclosed in the small space. As we progressed higher I was getting out of breath! At one point we found ourselves balancing on a small beam and holding onto a pole as we walked across looking down at the empty space below.
At this point I was glad to be abseiling down and not having to go back that way, however, it made me so anxious for my daughter who had to. But I was reassured that another adult would accompany her down so she didn't have to go alone. Phew!
As we neared the top of the tower we were greeted by some ladder steps. They were crooked and old too and a couple were a bit wobbly. very scary! All I could think about was my poor daughter.
Outside on the top of the tower we were greeted by a cold wind. My daughter was shaking with cold despite wearing a coat. However, I was absolutely scared stiff and felt nothing but the adrenaline rushing through my body at 100 miles an hour.
With my safety harness on I had to lift my leg over the church wall and rest it on the ledge below. One small problem with this. My other leg got stuck and I couldn't get it over. I was almost doing the splits and laughing nervously. The man held my foot and gave it a push. Suddenly I was high above the ground holding on for my dear life.
During this time the instructor explained how to abseil. It was hard to take in any information as my brain was panicking. As I did as he told I discovered I wasn't moving backwards.
"Why aren't I moving?" I asked.
At this point he said, "You can let go now."
I hadn't realised I was even holding on. Talk about not knowing what the other hand is doing. lol!
So off I went on my journey placing my feet down side by side, keeping in the correct position. I was warned that it was windy but it didn't affect me making contact with the wall.
Down, down, down I went, worried about my daughter who had an even tougher challenge getting down the small spiralling steps.
Here are some photo's of my adventure. I hope you enjoy them.
This is just before I went completely over and my leg got stuck.
Panic had really set in at this stage.
By this stage I felt happy and I just wanted the experience to have last.
When I came down the man was impressed and said I had been the best abseiler today by far. several people had twisted around and hopped down apparently. All i could think about was I had made it.
So what have I learnt?
FEAR THE FEAR AND DO IT ANYWAY! This was a book title and I never had to buy the book since the title said it all. Whenever things get a little scary embrace the challenge and believe you can do it.
Would I ever do it again!
YOU BET! x